A/N- None of these characters belong to me. They are all the genius of
J.K. Rowling.
Chapter 1
The story so Far
Have you ever gotten that feeling, that feeling where you're all alone in the world? You know it's not true and you have friends to lean on, but you just don't see them there. You think well how can they help me? You never realize until it's too late that maybe they could have helped you and maybe just maybe they did know what it's like.
Last school year was the toughest of my life. After Cedric Diggory's death the whole school thought I was a freak. The articles in the paper didn't help much either. But the whole time I still had people who cared for me. People who wanted to help me. I didn't even give them a second thought most of the time though. I felt betrayed by them and hurt by them. They were always there though and looking back I realize that's what hurts me the most. Even now they want to help. I know they feel like they have to help too.
Sirius' passing away was the last straw though, I couldn't take it. I saw everything around me crash down right before my very eyes. Dumbledore told me the whole truth, at least that's what he says, but I don't know how much I can believe him anymore. He could have told me from the beginning, but instead thought I wouldn't be able to handle it. Look where it got everyone though. Look at the lives he's ruined and the lives I've ruined. I should give up. I want to give up. The only thing holding me back is the countless numbers of dead that would cause. Voldemort would be free to take over again. I wouldn't be able to do anything to stop him from beyond the veil.
The veil. The thing that keeps me from the only person I ever really opened up to. The only person I ever really trusted and knew. Sirius was my best friend and the only father I ever knew. Now he's gone. It's all my doing. No matter how much other people tell me it's not. I know the truth. I know it is. I am the reason he died that day. I am the reason Cedric died and my parents died. I will be the reason I die.
Chapter 1
The story so Far
Have you ever gotten that feeling, that feeling where you're all alone in the world? You know it's not true and you have friends to lean on, but you just don't see them there. You think well how can they help me? You never realize until it's too late that maybe they could have helped you and maybe just maybe they did know what it's like.
Last school year was the toughest of my life. After Cedric Diggory's death the whole school thought I was a freak. The articles in the paper didn't help much either. But the whole time I still had people who cared for me. People who wanted to help me. I didn't even give them a second thought most of the time though. I felt betrayed by them and hurt by them. They were always there though and looking back I realize that's what hurts me the most. Even now they want to help. I know they feel like they have to help too.
Sirius' passing away was the last straw though, I couldn't take it. I saw everything around me crash down right before my very eyes. Dumbledore told me the whole truth, at least that's what he says, but I don't know how much I can believe him anymore. He could have told me from the beginning, but instead thought I wouldn't be able to handle it. Look where it got everyone though. Look at the lives he's ruined and the lives I've ruined. I should give up. I want to give up. The only thing holding me back is the countless numbers of dead that would cause. Voldemort would be free to take over again. I wouldn't be able to do anything to stop him from beyond the veil.
The veil. The thing that keeps me from the only person I ever really opened up to. The only person I ever really trusted and knew. Sirius was my best friend and the only father I ever knew. Now he's gone. It's all my doing. No matter how much other people tell me it's not. I know the truth. I know it is. I am the reason he died that day. I am the reason Cedric died and my parents died. I will be the reason I die.