Summery: After Boris finally has been stopped and the world is rid of his and others evil. Kai finds he is unable to cope. The past haunts him and yet the past is what he needs to survive. He feels a part of him needing more then what he has now. Slowly he's turning from what seems to be the unbreakable strong Russian to a mentally unstable.

Disclaimer: I do not own beyblade in any way besides the ones I bought from the store that is rightfully mine. This idea however is mine. I don't know if it's original but it is mine. The poem is also mine.

Dedicated to my forever best friend Shuurei Kuragari.

Chapter 1 Sinking Truth

Many would say the two toned blue haired Russian on the world famous beyblade team would never be weak. Those who believe that are completely true but things happen and as much as everyone and himself believe it. Kai is not invincible.

Kai was loosing himself and it was obvious to his team-mates. The BladeBreakers are at the moment stationed in Japan. Under Mr. Dickenson's request they start a Beyblade Training society.

Ray stared at Kai for the millionth time trying to figure out what was bothering their usually composed captain. Ray wanted to question Kai but he didn't want all of Kai's progress to be the victim. Kai has been more opened to them, not as loud and talkative as Tyson but he was making a great progress. He seems to be retreating back to his original self as the days progress. Ray was the first to notice but as the days grew the more BleadBreakers knew that something was wrong. Finally deciding to question Kai as soon as possible since it has also been effecting his game play.

They got their chance at lunch at Tyson's house after teaching the neighbour kids. Tyson was particularly quiet and it gave it away to Kai that something was up. Remain as he has not realized this he slowly ate the sandwich in front of him.

"There's something we need to ask you Kai." Ray stated finally breaking the silence.

Kai tensed but the action was unnoticed by the other teens. He calmly and casually replied, "What?"

The other looked at each other silently they decided Ray should tackle this mystery.

"You seem distracted lately. It's affecting your bladeing and you don't talk to us anymore. Kai, what's bothering you? It seems to have a big impact to you." Ray said with a calm and gentle voice.

Kai's mind exploded with thoughts so fast it gave him a headache. Their team-mates are right. Something has been bothering him. They even realized my bladeing has been lousy.

"Nothing's wrong. I've just got a lot to think about."

Standing up quickly leaving the unfinished lunch he quickly headed to the door.

"I'm going out for a walk." With that he left.

What is wrong with me? Kai thought as he sat on a grassy field looking into the lake ahead of him. Taking Dranzer out of his pocket he stared at it. Dranzer's not responding to me. I can't communicate with her. It's like everything is cut off. Just when I was making progress to live a normal life..

Kai stared down at his beyblade and willed Dranzer to reply. He willed her to answer her almost an order but not quiet.

"Dranzer…" he whispered. Silence was all he got. Sighing he returned in taking in the scene in front of him. The sun was shining high since it's only about 1PM.

Suddenly he pumped his legs harder on the cement floor as he speeds down the roads. He just felt the urge to run. Not going to question it he just kept going. Surprising many people he passes. Before they could make out who it was he was gone with only his white trailing scarf to remember him by. He felt his body starting to give but he urged it to go on a bit longer.

He slowed down finding himself by the sea. He slowed his heartbeat and breathing down as he gives his body a rest. He needed that. The run, the feeling of urgency, the wind gliding passed him.

"Kai, what's bothering you?" Ray's voice haunted him. I thought the run would clear my mind. …guess not.

Deep down Kai didn't want to emit it. He knows what has been bothering him and it's not something he should take lightly. Didn't want the others to be bothered by it, he tried to act normal but sometimes it was not possible. It was like a spider's web and Kai was the fly that was caught in it. It always lingered in the back of his mind. Looking out again as the scenery he returned the thought to the back of his mind.

Now is not the time to be worrying about it. Turning his back to the sea was a tough decision but he needed to start heading back or the others would be more worried. He didn't want to go back right now but he made his body to start the journey back to Tyson's house.

Unwilling to admit
The truth will eat me alive
What seems like a little whisper
Is whispering louder then ever
Forcing its way
Making it clear
While sneaking up slowly
It gains strength
Unable to stop it
Unable to Ignore it
To buy time
Putting off the revolting feeling
I know I have to face it soon
I know I have to live it though
Have to choose
From wrong or right
But how
When wrong is right
As right is wrong
No answer is favoured
And no answer is easy

It's suppose to be after G-Revolution. I hope you like it. PLEASE PLEASE review and help me make this story better. I use to write whatever is on my mind and words would flow smoothly. In this case I have the idea just not the mind. The poem took a while. I'm not completely pleased with it but I'm satisfied for now.