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Rosalie's POV
I have never forgiven Royce for what he had done, but I find several instances and reason that I have to. If he had not done as what he desired, I would never have become a vampire, I would never have met my own true love, Emmett, and I would most certainly never have met Alice, nor Bella, and most of all, Nessie. But then, if Royce had attacked another, I would've been human, I would've had my own pretty babies and lived happily, never having to suffer pangs of jealousy when Nessie called Bella 'Mom'. Ye even then, I could not, because I could not imagine carrying a child that wasn't Emmett's.
And for all of this, I have had conflicting emotions, with all the 'what if' fantasies I had and all the regrets, if something had or had not happened.
Most of all, I envied Bella, as a human. She could have a child and be happy, but I was forever just me. Barren. There would never be more than just me and Emmett. And before Bella, it was Esme that I envy, as she could use us to be her surrogate, and was satisfied with it, for we were all children in our own way.
And every day, when the sun rises on the dawn of a new day, it would be a new day without the laughter of children, where I can never give Emmett the most important thing that all human wives could. A child. I would never be able to watch the slow, incessant growth of a small human baby. My baby. Our baby.
With all the regrets I have, I still cannot find the heart to be angry at Royce, for even though he had...he had ravaged me, it is becoming a vampire that brought many joys to my life, and my own fantasies of my own daughter.
She would have my golden haire, which would darken as she grew older, and pale vivid blue eyes that captures any would be slender, with a small frame, a delicate heart-shaped face scattered with freckles on her cheeks. Anyone who met her would love her, and her laugh could bring angels to tears. She would be vain, like me, and arrogant. OR stubborn...
"Rose?" Alice called, startling me out of my fantasies. "You're in your dreamland again." The guys snickered. I threw them a glare." So, anyway, I was thinking of going to Barcelona for a last-minute family shopping spree!" Everyone except me groaned, especially Bella; being immortal hadn't change her views about fashion. "No one gets to sit it out." Even more groans. Alice puts her hands on her hips. "You all need new clothes!" I smiled happily and hugged my little pixie; we'd all gotten to call her that after Nessie called her 'Pixie Alice', and the name sort of stuck.
"Now, let's pack!"