Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Dead Poets Society in any way - only the movie on DVD. That's it. I DO NOT own any of the characters, original ideas, plotlines or other original aspects concerning this wonderful masterpiece of a movie. I have only written this poem based on what I have perceived from Neil's character, which I don't own a bit of (even though I would have loved to... as well as other awesome characters, even though they're not mentioned in this poem).

Okie dokie then. Onto the poem... even though it's sad and all, I still hope you enjoy this in some way.

A Suicide Poem

– by Neil Perry

I wanted to express myself,

And to also make you proud.

Yet your scowl had told me, even before,

That this was not allowed.

I love you, but I don't have the craving

To maintain the status quo.

You have stripped me of my confidence

And left me feeling low.

How long was it supposed to take

For you to understand?

To understand I may be different,

But to still lend me a helping hand?

Why did you not support me?

Isn't that what fathers should do?

Did you not believe me to be my own person

Instead of a carbon copy of you?

Of course, the truth is, you are right,

For I can't bear to fight another day.

You're right and strong, while I'm wrong and weak.

There's nothing more to say.

Sure, it's only natural when those straight A's

Where never good enough.

There's nothing more to try and satisfy

You! A man, so stern and tough!

I apologize for being unworthy,

From birth up to this night.

I'm not able to follow your plan, your dreams

Because it's truly not worth the fight.

So here I've decided to end it all,

With a bullet through my head.

'Cause if it's only in my dreams, where I can be truly free,

Then I would much rather be dead.

Author's Note: I know that Neil didn't actually write any suicide note, but if he did, this is what I would have thought he would write, and say to his father. I did want to make a Mr. Keating reference in the penultimate (first before last) line, because I could picture Neil agreeing with what Keating told McAllistair. Anyway, reads and reviews with constructive criticism and feedback is always appreciated.