THIS IS MY FIRST ATTEMPT TO BE ROMANTIC. PLEASE REVIEW.
Dear diary,
Today I found something really nostalgic. I was opening and cleaning the whole house to make room when I found those things. Starting from tomorrow I am moving to my lover's house, and yes, we are finally engaged.
Well, I found this one thing that made me remember my dear fukubuchou, Sanada Genichirou. It has been years I last spoke with him or even saw him; well since that day. Straight after our junior high school graduation, he and I separated ways. We don't have the same senior high school, as I need to move to Tokyo due to my body condition. I got a better treatment in the state hospital and I am now very well, thank you.
Back to the thing that I found.
It was a cap. A quite old one; the one everybody familiar with. The one who always perched on top of our dear fukubuchou's head. The crown on top of his head, the emperor's crown. It was given to me on our graduation day. He was calling me under the tree near the tennis court. I was asking myself what will happen; honestly I was wishing he told me his feeling that day. Yes, dear diary, you know how I feel about him all along junior high school. And you knew it didn't happen.
I still remember every details of it.
"Yukimura Seiichi. I am here to say something. Please bear with me until I finish."
He looked awkward like usual; no, he was more awkward than usual. I wasnt take note about that; i was busy keeping my chest down. I was waiting with heart beating like crazy. Will it be it? Will it be the day? Will this be the day my heart will stop longing for him; my eyes will start to bathe in his image as he will always stay beside me, was it the day we will finally true to ourself?
"Yes, I am ready, Sanada."
"…Please accept this." Sanada pulled out his cap and put that on top of my hand. "I am giving to you my most precious thing; this thing has been on top of my head since we took the emperor place. This thing… is always remind me of you, Yukimura."
"Sanada…" the first romantic thing i ever heard from this awkward oversize emperor-penguin.
"And that's why I am giving you this hat. Because today… I am graduating from you."
That sentence crushed my heart; really crushed it until the end. It was a hope that I pinned so high; I was waiting for the climax when he suddenly ended it just there. It hurts me, dear diary. You know it since that day's page was smeared with my tears. Yes, I still remember. That book, which was your older sibling, was now safely kept inside the drawer.
I couldn't speak more of that.
Oh, I am sorry. He has come home. I must close you now. I'll write on you tomorrow.
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"Welcome home." Yukimura smiled as he opened the door.
"I am home." They blushed together. Yes, it was their first day living together.
Sanada put off his necktie and suitcase while Yukimura-housewife style-helped him to put off the jacket.
"why are your eyes red?" Sanada looked worriedly at Yukimura. Yukimura smiled, touched back the hand that is now cupping his face.
"I saw something nostalgic. Your hat."
"Oh… that thing."
"yes, that made me cried for the first time, stupid Sanada."
"I am sorry. I thought we will get nowhere together; you were so weak and you need help; I wasnt ready to be your pillar and I felt I was unworthy of you. But look at us now… I am happy we met again."
"Yes… I am happy we met again. as neighbour, that is."
It was a funny twist in life. They met again 5 years later as neighbour in the same apartment. Continuing from the broken link; they made it at last to the engagement stage in a mere 2 weeks. And it was just last week that they finally get permission from Sanada's family. His family was conservative enough to not let their son married another guy.
"Yes."
"Well, Sanada… let me ask you one thing…"
"What, Yukimura?"
"Do you want to eat? Take bath? Or… Me?"
TBC (tubercolosis; no lah... it's to be continued)