Castiel was driving pretty fast down the highway. He was feeling nervous. His best friend from high school invited Castiel to stay the weekend at the college he was attending. Castiel didn't have classes on Thursdays and Mondays so he made the four-hour drive to his friend's campus. He should be excited! Except that his ex boyfriend Dean attends that college. Castiel was supposed to go there but he got accepted to his dream Ivy League school. He remembers that conversation like it was yesterday.

Cas had waited patiently for dean in his room while he was at work.

"Hey Dean" Cas said nervously
"Hey baby" Dean smiled while giving Cas a kiss then sitting on his bed.
"Listen...we need to talk" Cas said while looking down at his feet.
"What's going on? What's wrong?" Dean frowned
"Nothing is wrong." Cas said quietly

Dean slowly got up and walked toward Cas and pulled him to his chest. "Then what is it?"

"I um, got into Cornell." Cas sighed
"BABY CONGRATS!" Dean cheered while picking him up.
"Thanks dean...um you know what this means right?" Cas whispered.
"No…what does that mean?" Dean questioned.
"We have to break up." Cas choked
"...Why? We can make this work!" Dean started to get choked up.
"How can it work? I love you but us together at different colleges...miles apart...it can't work. " Cas managed to get out.

"I love you so much though Cas…it hurts. I won't be perfect but at least I'll have you." Dean was on the verge of tears.

"I'm sorry dean. This is my dream and if I don't give it all I can…I'll never forgive myself, or you." Cas whispered.
"So...what are you saying? It's over? That's it?" Dean could barely speak.
"Yes...I'm sorry." Cas said while walking out of Dean's bedroom.
Besides their graduation, that was the last time they saw each other.

It's been three years since that night and Cas was hoping that he wouldn't run into dean...also hoping he would. God he missed him. Even though he had a new boyfriend, he would never love him as much as he loved dean. His friend told him that dean also had a new boyfriend. Hopefully if he does run into him, it won't be awkward.

When Castiel finally gets there, he parked his car and walked to his friend's on campus apartment. He saw his friend waiting for him outside.

"Hey Kevin!" Cas smiled
"Cas! Finally!" Kevin said as he hugged him. "It's been way too long."

"Yes it has. So what are our plans for the night?" Cas asked.

"Well, we can either go to this bar around campus or just have a night in. Its up to you." Kevin said.

"I wouldn't mind going to a bar, I need a drink. Is your roommate joining us?" Cas questioned.

"Um Cas, I actually forgot to mention this to you. I hope this isn't weird but…"

"What is it kev?" Cas started to get nervous

"My roommate is Dean's boyfriend. His name is Crowley."

"Oh." Cas managed to say in a whisper. "Well I'm here to hang out with you so it doesn't matter. I'll try not to be weird. Does he know I'm Dean's ex?"

"Yeah he does. Don't worry though he's pretty cool. He spends most of his time in Dean's apartment. Anyways lets go get that drink!" Kev cheered.

Castiel and Kevin got into Kevin's car and drove to the bar. When they arrived at the bar, the first thing Castiel did was look around. He wanted to make sure Dean wasn't there. He can't handle seeing him. Not now.

Castiel and Kevin sit at the bar and ordered a few beers. They sat there, catching up on their lives and reminiscing on old times. When Castiel was opening to the door to the bar to leave, he bumped into this short guy.

"Sorry" he muttered but he didn't realize that the guy behind the short one was Dean.

"Cas?" Dean eyes were wide.

Cas froze. He just couldn't help but stare at Dean and how gorgeous he looked in the moonlight. His green eyes were piercing into his, scruff looking sexy as ever and his hair wasn't styled with gel like Cas was use to. It looked like he just showered and it was a little messy from towel drying it. Cas loved it.

"Hello Dean" Cas's voice was quiet

"What are…what are you doing here?" Dean questioned.

"I was just uh, visiting Kevin this weekend." Cas was looking down at his feet.

"Oh…that's cool. It's um, good to see you. Maybe we will see you around." Dean put an arm around his new boyfriend and walked into the bar. Cas heart dropped to his stomach and tried to hold back tears. Even though Cas was dating someone else, he couldn't stand to see the one he truly loved with another person.

"You okay Cas?" Kevin asked.

"Yeah...I'll be okay." Cas muttered.

"I'm sorry, I didn't think you both still had it bad for each other." Kevin said while starting the car

"What do you mean? We don't still have it bad for each other…" Cas denied.

"I'm pretty sure you guys were giving each other some serious "fuck me" eyes" Kevin chuckled.

"You're crazy!" Castiel shouted. "It's not like that. We haven't spoken since we broke up." Cas sighed.

Kevin was shocked. "Damn. I thought you guys at least kept in contact."

"Not at all. We couldn't just be friends. It would have hurt too much." Cas was playing with his hands.

"Thanks, but if we run into him it's okay. I think I can handle it." Cas appreciated that but secretly he wants to see Dean. He just wants to get as much of him as possible before we went back to Cornell.

Hey all! I'm going to post chapter 2 of Making It Up As We Go sometime in the next two days. This story is based on similar events that just went on in my life this past weekend. I thought it would be cool to put a destiel spin on it. Some things are embellished (like the school names and dialogue) but yeah. Most of it will be in Castiel's P.O.V but I will add some Dean P.O.V into the mix.

Also I wrote this on my iphone when I came up with the idea and I was too tired to check through all the spelling. :P

Enjoy and review please =)