A/N: Hey all! Glad you stumbled upon this story and chose to read it despite the summary being horrible and cryptic. Trust me, the story does get better, a lot better. So anyway this is my third fic on this site and as I post at the beginning of all my fics, here are some things you should know going forward which might help you decide if this story or my stories in general are for you, because I don't want to waste your time with content that doesn't interest you. Nothing worse than reading a story just to realize it isn't going the direction you want it to half way in. Without spoiling my fics, I like to give my readers just a hint of what to expect, so that if you begin reading, you stick with me until the end and get the best experience you can out of my stories.
~ I do not own glee, nor any of the characters in it. For legal purposes, I am supposed to mention this.
~ The Finn/Quinn/Puck/Rachel dynamic is my main ship. Throughout my stories often these couples are together, break up, get back together and do so in a pattern of switching partners either Quick/Finchel or Puckleberry/Fuinn. I have been trying to include other characters but mostly my stories focus around these four.
~ Quinn is my favorite glee character and I love to explore her relationships with Puck and Finn and maybe at some point even Sam. Expect her in all of my stories to be with one or more of these guys as just like Edward and Jacob, I can't decide if I am team Finn or team Puck. Disclaimer: I do not watch twilight and am neither team Edward nor Jacob.
~ I try to write canon as best as I can because I appreciate glee and what RM has done. That being said, certain things I have to change. One of which is that in most of my stories, Quinn keeps Beth. Other than that I think I am pretty true to the script. I do include original almost deleted scenes however and will only write canon to a point. This story for example is canon all the way up to the events of "Rumors," again with the exception, that Quinn kept Beth. Anything in glee that happened after Rumors isn't how it goes down in this story, as with artistic freedom I changed a few things to fit my purpose in this story.
~ Be prepared for dialogue and lots of it. I think this is the best way to tell a story as you can actually write out interactions and conversations and not just say he thought or she wanted, etc.
~ I think all stories should end one of two ways: either a happy ending or a cliffhanger. That being said cliffhangers are for stories with planned sequels and all other stories should have happy endings. Whether you are Puckleberry, Quick, Finchel, Fuinn or other, all readers have the same thing in common, that you cheer for your favorite couple to finally get the happy ending. Although I can't promise you happiness in if your favorite pairing, (if only Quinn could be with both Puck and Finn…) getting together, I can promise you a happy ending for most if not all characters involved.
~ Yes I do give happy endings, but as readers of my past stories know, you are going to have to bear with me and experience a bit of angst along the way. I am not the kind of writer who thinks everything should come up roses the entire time, because honestly it isn't realistic and where is the fun in that? It isn't fun to write and in my experience, not fun to read. Don't let this turn you away from reading however because my stories as a result have a good amount of drama and some angst and plot twists you won't even believe. I suppose some of that comes from watching soap operas for too long, but I digress.
~ Reviews and input are always welcome whether words of praise or constructive criticism, it is all good! Although I will let you know upfront that typically when I post my stories it is only after I have fully finished or mostly finished writing them. I have changed things in the past when people had really good suggestions and am always open to change, but mostly the story will be pre-written. It is not that I don't love your feedback and input because I do and I hope this doesn't deter you from still leaving it, it is just this way I know I can get updates out (I try to get at least one out per day) to you as soon as possible. Personally, I am not a patient person and if I don't want to wait for new chapters, I am certainly not going to make you wait.
So if by now, this has not turned you away from reading this story, welcome! I am always happy to have new readers and can only hope that you enjoy reading this story as much as I did writing it. So without further ado, 5 Years.
It had been five years since Finn and his glee club classmates had graduated from McKinley but every time he passes by the school he can't help but think of the memories, both the good and bad. It always made him laugh when he thought of high school now. He thought it was crazy how so much can happen in only four years. He dated both Quinn and Rachel twice, lost his virginity to Santana of all people, got a new step dad and step brother, made new friends and lost old ones and found a newfound love for singing and dancing. Finn never expected to love glee club as much as he did and he really never expected it to take his life in so many different circles. A day didn't go by that he didn't think of how it all turned out.
(5 years ago…)
It was five days before graduation day and every one was preparing to say their goodbyes to the school that had really become a family. Few would admit it, but glee club really was their little family and Mr. Schue was the father figure to them all. He helped them accept who they were and encouraged all of them to be themselves and to pursue their interests, even if those interests involved glee club. He made Finn especially feel comfortable in glee club which was something Finn would never forget. Because of Mr. Schue, Finn and each of his glee classmates became the people they are today. As they all got ready to leave McKinley and embark on new adventures, they decided to give Mr. Schue one final goodbye.
Every one of the kids decided to prepare for Mr. Schue a little glee medley as a reminder of what he did for them. They wanted to do something special and they figured that singing and dancing would be the best way to honor what Mr. Schue did for them. Their idea was a group presentation and they had been meeting in the choir room to rehearse for weeks. Today was their final rehearsal before graduation and they took the opportunity to make sure everything was perfect.
This was the last time Finn saw Quinn. She came up to him after rehearsal. The two of them were the only ones left in the room and she decided this was the best opportunity to talk to him.
The two of them hadn't exactly been on speaking terms ever since he broke up with her to date Rachel. It wasn't just the breakup that contributed to their strained relationship but rather the fallout that resulted. When Finn told her that he was breaking up with her she was devastated. He told her that he loved her but that he wasn't over Rachel. He said that he couldn't continue to date her all the while knowing that he loved someone else. She was heartbroken but she knew it was coming. Even when they were together, he always seemed to be thinking about Rachel. Quinn knew she was never enough for him and that no matter what she did she never would be.
Despite all of this however, Quinn tried to break with Finn amicably. It was all going so well until he said the one thing that made the breakup harder than it had to be. He said that he tried to love her but he couldn't get Rachel off of his mind and that maybe what Rachel said was right. Quinn asked what exactly Rachel said and Finn told her that Rachel told him, you will forgive your first love anything. He then said to Quinn that maybe Rachel was his first love. Quinn was crushed. She loved Finn and knew that he loved her too. She was convinced she was his first love but what really bothered her was that he didn't forgive her and that he was so willing to deny their love. He told her he had forgiven her, but by saying this it was clear, he never forgave her for her actions sophomore year and that he would never. Quinn told him she was glad they were breaking up because something about it all just didn't seem right anymore.
After that they hadn't really talked to each other anymore. Occasionally she would see him in the hallway and they would exchange nods or even rarer 'hello's' and sometimes in glee they talked about glee related business, but ever since the day of the breakup they never really talked which is why when Quinn came up to him after glee, Finn was surprised to say the least.
"Hey Finn?" she asked him as he began packing up his belongings.
"Yeah Quinn?" he said, smiling back at her.
"This is really great; I mean what we are doing for Mr. Schue. This was a great idea by you and, and by Rachel," Quinn said, biting her lip at the sound of that name.
"Yeah, thanks," Finn said. "After everything that Mr. Schue did for all of us, I think it is the least we can do."
Quinn nodded in agreement. She began to walk out the door but realized this might be the last chance she had to talk to him and decided to stay and say what she could.
"Finn?" she questioned again as she turned around to face her ex.
"Yeah Quinn?" he answered again.
"Can I ask you something?" she said as she rubbed her fingers through her silk blonde hair. He always found it cute when she did that.
"Anything," he replied with a smile. "What is on your mind?"
"Were you being serious when you told me that Rachel was your first love?" she questioned with a serious look in her eyes.
He looked up from his sheet music to look into her hazel eyes. They looked so sad but at the same time so endearing. He didn't expect her to ask him this so he scanned his mind looking for the right thing to say.
"Quinn, it's, it's complicated," he began. "I mean I was with you for two years and we really were the power couple of McKinley. I mean head cheerleader and starting quarterback, we really were the perfect cliché." He paused realizing that this answer was not getting him anywhere. "But, we were more than that too," he quickly added as he saw her face fill with sadness and her eyes well with tears. She just needed to hear the words but for some reason he was avoiding saying them. "Then with Rachel," he continued, "things just kind of, I don't know they just kind of happened. I never intended to become involved with her but she was sweet and emotional and I always knew what was on her mind. She was never afraid to let me into her heart and there was just something…"
Finn was interrupted before he could continue.
"something she had that I didn't" Quinn finished for him. She was so upset now, even more upset then when Finn broke up with her both times.
Quinn grabbed her bag off of the piano bench and began to head for the door.
"Where are you going?" Finn asked.
"Home," she replied. "I asked you if Rachel was your first love, and well, you gave me my answer."
She turned to head toward the door but stopped before grabbing the handle. She turned to face Finn. "I loved you Finn," she said. "You were my first love. I know our relationship wasn't perfect and maybe it was just one big cliché, but I really did love you and part of me always will because you never forget your first love." She began to cry a little bit but wiped the tears from her eyes so she could continue. "For what it's worth," she said with her back now facing him, "I am sorry. I am really sorry for everything I did to you. I know I've said it a million times and I know that no matter how many times I say it, you aren't going to forgive me, but, but," she stopped as she felt the tears streaming down her face. She paused to regain her composure and then continued, "but, I just need you to know anyway," she said before grabbing the door handle and beginning to walk out. She was stopped however by an all too familiar touch.
"Quinn, wait," Finn said. He was now standing right in front of her, with his hand on her arm. He turned her to face him and took her hands in his own. "I am the one who should be sorry," he said. "I lied to you before and I lied to you just now. Yes, I do love Rachel but it is in a different way than from how I love you. Quinn, you are my first love. You always have been from the moment I first met you and always will be until the day that I die. If I ever made you feel otherwise then I sincerely apologize." He smiled as he wiped a tear from her face and stroked her cheek softly. "Quinn, I forgave you a long time ago," he added. "I never thought I would be able to but I did. I thought that every single time I looked into little Beth's eyes, all I would see was your betrayal but that is not at all what I see. I see a miracle and one that looks just like you. All I see when I look into that little girl's eyes is love and although I am heartbroken by the fact that I am not her daddy, I don't hate you because Puck is the dad. I forgive you Quinn and I love you and always will but I think we are better off as friends."
He pulled her in close for a hug which felt like it lasted forever. She smiled at him and kissed him on the cheek thanking him for telling her what she needed to hear. As she grabbed her belongings to leave she gave him a quick goodbye wave and he reciprocated.
This was the last time he saw Quinn Fabray.
Finn smiled just at the thought of Quinn. He decided that he was going to look her up. He knew that she went to college locally so that she could stay in Lima to raise Beth, but he was unsure where exactly she was living. He hadn't seen her since that day in glee and he thought that a nice friendly visit would do both of them some good.
As he continued to drive home, he passed none other than Rachel Berry's house. Well it was actually her dad's house and Finn knew she hadn't lived there since going to NYU and moving to New York. Still, every time he passed the house, he thought about the other girl that got away.
So what do you guys think?
A/N: As I read back through I realized this is canon up until "Rumors." The whole break-up in "Funeral" about not being tethered to her and the prom queen comments that made Quinn look like a bitch either didn't happen or I didn't use it. Probably just didn't use it, because I hated how that scene made it look like Quinn didn't care and that she only dated Finn because of the stupid prom queen stuff. Not a fan of what RM is doing with her character now either, making her crazy, but hopefully all of that is over now. Sorry for the ramble haha.