Disclaimer: I don't own The Secret Circle (though I wish I did)
A/N: I love The Secret Circle, I got addicted to it one night when it was on instead of VD. Out of all the characters I love Faye, mostly because she's like Faith (from Buffy) and Katherine (from VD), who are both awesome :) I'm a fan of the "bad-girl-outside-but-misunderstood-inside" charaters.
This is just some ramblings, mostly reflection past "Witness"
The ceiling was spinning again. It meant that I was once again way too drunk to think about getting up or doing anything at all. It was because of everything tonight, because of all the drama and spells and Jake. Because I was holding a bag of little brown leaves and trying to decide which path to take.
I felt bad for Lee, I did. He clearly wanted nothing to do with his old friend or the drug he had asked for. However, getting high and doing magic were my two favorite things to do, and I wanted so badly to see what it would be like to have my nearly nonexistent powers heightened. It was all Cassie's fault that I was so helpless now. She took away the magic, she took away Jake, and she screwed up things with Adam and Diana. Sure, I didn't like Diana much, but I was friends with Adam, and I knew he didn't deserve to feel like crap just because Diana was jealous of some little blond witch.
I heard a noise, magnified by the alcohol, and shoved the plastic bag in my pocket. Lee came around the corner with another bottle and drunkenly sat down next to me. "Hey…"
"What, Lee?"
"You want more?"
Did I? If I had any more I knew I wouldn't be able to get home, and Diana would know for sure I had gotten drunk when I was at school the next day. I could do school on a hangover, but not a major one. "I don't know."
"Lightweight." He teased, voice slurred. He opened the bottle and gulped down an impressive amount.
"I have school… and nosy Diana." I complained. Truthfully, I was starting to feel a little sick. "You know how it is… she'll want to know why I was drinking and she'll threaten to tell people… don't want to deal with that."
"Okay." And he left it at that, kept on drinking. It was nice to have someone that didn't give a damn, that was for sure. I knew most people would ask why? Why? I though you and Diana were friends? And all the questions I didn't care about. Diana was my friend, she just stuck her nose where it shouldn't be.
They all wanted to control me, that was it. They thought they could tell me what to do and what not to do, but they couldn't. I could drink as much as I wanted whenever I wanted. I could sleep with whoever I wanted. I could do whatever I wanted with my life.
"Give me that." I said suddenly, swiping the bottle from Lee's hand.
What did I care what Diana would say? It wasn't like my life wasn't already screwed up.
A/N: So angsty, so pointless… sorry.