It's weird to think that you are gone. I keep hoping to see you at school or even when I get home. My world seems so much more gray with out you here by my side. I feel as if there is a hole in my chest. Could this be how hollows feel? Is it kind of feeling that turn people into hollows? This empty feeling inside.
It drives me crazy when I ask people about you and they don't even know who you are. It makes me think that maybe it was all in my imagination. That maybe you never were here and I was just so lonely and bored with my life that I had to make you up.
No. I know you were here. I know that you saved my life, and that I saved yours. I know that I will find you again one day, and when I do I'm not letting go. I'll hold you tight forever so I won't ever lose you, so that no one will take you from me.
I can still remember the day I meet you. I can still remember how you gave your power to me, how you saved me, and how in turn I was able to save my family and I was also able to save you after that.
I thought that I would never lose you. I thought that I would have you forever. I thought I would some day be able to call you mine and be able to hold you and kiss you and not care what anyone thought of it.
But I guess it was all just a crazy dream. You were taken from me. I lost you. I wasn't able to save you that time. I let you slip right though my fingers and there wasn't anything I could do about it.
Please, forgive me. Please, come back to me. Rukia.