Love Lost Again

Ok, now this is one of my first real attempts at writing a FanFic, so please bare with me, it will get better as it goes along, trust me. Now, this story line just sort of came to me and I have a few ideas and what to do next with the characters (especially Edward and Bella) It's all human and I might change views of characters (such as Bella to Edward) depending on which way the story goes and if I feel it's necessary. I plan my stories real briefly and often change the way it goes, its often more interesting to write that way. Anyway, enough of my babbling, please enjoy, like I said this is pretty short and I'll try and get more up as soon as possible (by the way, reviews make me work faster, just for the record) Oh, and future chapters will be longer. Enjoy.

Oh, and the song she is listening to is 'Iris' By the Goo Goo Dolls. It's Fab.

Bella Swan has never had a good relationship. They have all ended in tears and just as she is about to give up the male species, a striking guy named Edward enters her life. She is afraid that he is like all other men, therefore tries to avoid getting to close even though she wants she gets to know Edward more she admits she might have been wrong about him, but when she hears a rumour about Edward and a certain woman she jumps to the wrong conclusion. Then tragedy strikes.

Chapter one – Arseholes and Flying spoons

As I drove along the highway I blinked back the tears that stung my eyes. As my vision blurred I fought hard to concentrate on the road in front of me. I gripped the steering wheel hard, trying to keep focus. God, he was such an arsehole and that's putting it very mildly.

Calm down, concentrate on your driving otherwise we will be a pretzel wrapped around a tree. I breathed out deeply and decided that if I put the radio on it would distract me. I was wrong.

'And I don't want the world to see me,

Cause I don't think they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken,

I just want you to know who I am.'

At this point I was singing along sobbing. Perfect. I was in a state and driving a highly dangerous vehicle. Ok, so maybe a car isn't a dangerous vehicle but when I'm driving it is. Anyway this song held so many memories. It was played at my senior prom, the night I met Mike and they day we got engaged. Arsehole.

I decided to pull into a parking lot because no matter how much a pretzel sounded good right now, I didn't want to be hazardous to anyone else.

I hit my head on the steering wheel a few times. I don't know what I was trying to achieve by doing this but it felt good regardless. It was pounding with rain but the noise was soothing. I closed my eyes and turned the music down.

'Bella?' A sharp tapping hit the windows. My head shot up so fast I got whiplash. My elbow it the horn and the loud noise shot through the car. I looked around frantically. Did I fall asleep? I glanced out the window to see Alice's pixie face peering through the window. I rolled the window down.

'Christ Alice, you frightened the shit out of me.' I scowled at her. Trust her to be here, honestly what were the chances of her finding me in an empty parking lot? Her eyes glanced over me.

'Bloody hell Bella, What happened to you?' I groaned and hit my head against the steering wheel again.

'Stop that!' She snaked her arm into the car and put her hand on the steering wheel so that she was blocking my skull from hitting the hard plastic. I looked up and started sobbing again.

'Mike....was.......with .......Leah.' I finally stuttered out through the sobs. Alice gasped.

'The Arsehole! Wait until I see him.' Alice's eyes blazed. 'Did you walk in on them?' I nodded. Alice frowned heavily and started muttering too low for me to hear.

'Go straight home, Il follow behind you ok?' I nodded and wound the window back up before stepping on the pedal.

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'So you caught the ignorant dick in bed with Tanya?' Alice asked as she brought me a cup of hot chocolate.

'Well, there weren't technically in bed.' I spoke through gritted teeth as the disturbing images flashed through my head. I flinched. 'They were actually on the kitchen worktop when I walked in but I swear they had done it on the dining room table as well.' I remembered the images of the place mats and fruit bowl that were spread across the floor.

'Dirty-.' Before Alice could finish her sentence, and I was sure it was going to be well thought of and exotic, the door bell went.

'Il get it.' As I opened the door I dropped the half eaten pot of vanilla ice cream into the floor.

'You have to be kidding me.' I whispered. Mike looked at me with guilty eyes.

'Bella, I just want to explain.' I gaped at him.

'I don't want to hear it you hoe bag!' I screamed at him. He flinched.

'Please, Bella, it was a mistake.'

'Mistake my arse.' I snarled. I realised that I was still holding the spoon, so acting on a whim I threw it at him.

'Damn!' He clutched his temple. I couldn't believe I had just chucked a spoon at him.

'I can't believe you just chucked a spoon at me.' Mike was in absolute shock.

'Be lucky it wasn't a knife.' I shot back. He shut up.

'Come here again and I'll throw a freaking iron or something heavier at your head.' Iron was the first thing that came to mind. He looked scared and that made me happy.

'And don't think I'm bluffing. Leave now and don't come back! The engagement is off if you didn't already know but I'm keeping the ring, it's the least you owe me. Come around here again and I'll get done for murder.' Mike stared at me in utter shock but didn't move. I grabbed a little flower pot that was at the bottom of my door and aimed for his head. He ducked and much to my disappointment I missed, but he got the message and left.

As I shut the door behind me Alice was in hysterics. She was laughing so hard she was literally crying.

'I... can't believe.....you....threw a.... spoon ....at him.' She spoke through the fits of laughter. Of course it wasn't long until I joined her and we were both rocking on the floor.

'Mike Newton is no longer apart of Bella Swan's life.' I announced proudly. Alice high fived me.

'I always told you he was a hoe bag.' I nodded in agreement. She had mentioned it once or twice. The adrenaline ran through my body and I was in the mood for an argument. But deep underneath all this bravery I was afraid. This wasn't the first time I had been cheated on. First there was Jake who had an affair with Jessica and now Mike who had an affair with Leah. Was I ever going to find a decent man? Or was this a sign that I would be alone forever? I didn't want to be alone, I wanted someone to hold me when I was upset, who would cuddle me before we went to bed, someone to love me and only me, not some little minx on the side. But I could never tell anyone this. I was done with men; they just hurt you and made you feel like shit. No matter how much I wanted to find someone who was perfect in every way I wasn't prepared to go through this again.

I glanced at Alice as she danced around the room and smiled sadly.

Poor Bella.........

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