My first Divergent one-shot among many (hopefully!)Oh, I'm reading Allegiant right now so this is a break! I keep tearing up for no reason at all whilst reading :( The concept of the story is based on a true story but adapted to fit with Tobias' background and story.
Stars
When I was a lot younger, when I lived in fear of my father on a daily basis after my mother's death, I had one thing that always kept me strong, no matter how bad my father's beatings were. This one thing is what my mother taught me before she was gone from my life forever. She kept telling me that no matter how bad life was, it would always heal up and get better. This was a lie. However, it was a comforting lie that I never assumed was a lie- I always had that beacon of hope on me. My mother told me to look up to the stars or the blank night sky and wish for everything to get better. After she died, I always looked up into the night sky and did what my mother told me. I wasn't to be controlled by my father, I had my own dreams to live out and that I had to fulfil and that I had a purpose in life- I wasn't to be controlled.
Every night, after my father switched the lights out in my room, I waited. I waited until I was sure that he was asleep. I waited until I was sure I wouldn't be caught. When I was sure of it, I crawled out of my bed and looked out of my window onto the rows of plain, Abnegation houses and then into the night sky, hoping against hope that my mother wasn't dead and if she was, it only meant she moved away and she could still see the sky. I hoped that she was also looking at the sky and, in that way we were united. I found comfort in that because I always kept in mind that life would get better and the scars would heal and that dreams could come true, against all odds...
Some of these dreams do come true. My dreams of my mother, Evelyn, came true, but not in the right way. She lied to me, not to comfort me but to escape her life and leave me in the line of fire of Marcus, the father who has terrorised me so much that, even with my four fears and being a Dauntless prodigy, the fear of Marcus never leaves, it is imprinted on my life forever. There are some dreams that are impossible to be realised and even though they make you excited, they can make you just as easily deflate like a balloon.
Some dreams aren't meant to be. Some scars never leave. Some people have a bigger impact on your life than you first expect. Life has no ordinary sameness to it like the sameness of the Abnegation life. Life is Dauntless. This is the biggest lesson I have learnt on the roller coaster or zipline of life.
NOW back to Allegiant! Hope you've enjoyed it! I PROMISE to post more often from now on! :)