DISCLAIMER: I do not own Glee, nor am I associated with it or Ryan Murphy. I am just an out-of-college daydreamer who sometimes gets into these writing funks and ends up tossing out a story after letting the idea sit in my brain for a few days!

Confused

By: xSlythStratasfaction

Pairing: Kurt x Blaine , Rachel x Blaine

A/N: This takes place right after BIOTA and it's mostly about what happened between Kurt and Blaine during the entire Blaine-Rachel dating ordeal and what Kurt's feelings were like about the matter.

Why her? Why not me? Why a girl?

Kurt Hummel stood outside the Warblers' practice hall, pacing frantically back and forth in front of the large wooden doors; his face was contorted into a sneer. A few of his Warbler friends cautiously walked past him, whispers being tossed between each other as they all wondered what their newest member was freaking out about. Kurt paid them no mind as he turned on his heel once more and started across the room again.

What did I do wrong?

The blue-eyed boy couldn't figure out for the life of himself what had just happened. Just a couple of days before, he and Blaine, his best friend (and crush), had fought in the middle of The Lima Bean (their hangout of choice). Blaine had just accepted to go out on a date with Rachel Berry, Kurt's former New Directions choir mate who also happened to be a girl. The problem was: Blaine was gay.

Or at least Kurt thought he was.

Upon voicing his concern that Blaine was leading Rachel on, his hazel-eyed crush announced that he could possibly be bi and this caused an eruption to occur within Kurt. Immediately, he commented something about how being bisexual was a term that high school guys used when they wanted to feel normal… or something like that. Sure, he probably shouldn't have said it, but at that very moment, his diva-like emotions had taken over and it just slipped out.

His comments seemed to have angered Blaine though because the lead soloist told him off and abruptly left the coffee shop, all the while mumbling about not saying goodbye because it might offend someone.

Neither of them had spoken since.

Kurt turned on his heel and paced to the other side of the hall, gnawing on his lip nervously as he walked. He knew that at any given moment, Blaine would show up, ready for practice and probably beaming about his heterosexual date… and Kurt didn't know if he'd be able to tolerate listening to Blaine talking about dating Rachel.

He had already spoken to Rachel the day before anyways and she told him that the date had went well. Then she flat out told him she wasn't giving up on Blaine and that she thought she was saving Kurt from some sort of heartbreak by proving that his crush was indeed straight. What Rachel didn't know though was that this entire ordeal was causing Kurt a LOT of heartbreak; enough to give him nightmares and make him lose his appetite.

To be honest, he really, really cared about Blaine… and Blaine knew of these feelings. Kurt had told him just weeks before, after the whole Jeremiah-Gap fiasco, but obviously Blaine didn't share the same sentiment.

That or Blaine just didn't care at all.

Part of Kurt wondered what the older boy was thinking when he accepted that date with Rachel. Sure, Blaine claimed that he was just trying to sort himself out (meaning his sexuality obviously), but deep down, Kurt wondered if the other boy had even bothered to think about how he was feeling.

Kurt loved Blaine.

Whenever the curly-haired boy entered the room, Kurt's eyes would always seek him out. Whenever Blaine spoke, Kurt would hang on to every single word. Whenever Blaine sang, Kurt's entire body would shudder in excitement upon hearing his strong voice belting out emotional lyrics. It was just that whenever Blaine was around, Kurt turned into someone very un-Kurt. He practically melted into a pile of goo. He cared way too much for the boy and despite his blatant tries to keep his infatuation secret, everyone knew.

Everyone except Blaine, that was.

Well, okay, Blaine kind of knew, but he basically chose to ignore it. Instead he focused on everything BUT Kurt, including Rachel Berry… and that hurt.

It was like the last few months of incessant flirting, random touches, and serious conversations had went right down the drain when Blaine kissed Rachel that night. Hell, even after the kiss, Blaine had practically snuggled with Kurt all night long as he lay drunk in Kurt's bed and Kurt never wanted the moment to end (even though Blaine's breath had been absolutely horrible and smelled of a horrid cocktail of the most random of alcohols and vomit). Then the next day, after he made sure his crush had gotten home safely and after he had been chewed out by his dad for being 'inappropriate in his house', Kurt still hoped and even thought that the drunken Raine/Blachel kiss would lead absolutely nowhere.

And boy was he wrong.

Sighing, he gnawed more at his lower lip and stopped in front of one of the large windows that overlooked the campus. He stayed lost in his thoughts about Blaine's date with Rachel and about the last few days until a voice broke him from his reverie.

"Junior members Hummel and Anderson! Practice is about to begin; please hurry into the hall!"

Kurt looked up from the window and trained his gaze onto the boy who was slowly sauntering down the hall, his cell phone in hand. He was laughing softly as he walked forward and for just a smidgen of a second, his hazel eyes locked into Kurt's blue ones. He looked somewhat happy.

"Oh my God, Rachel! That is hilarious!"

As soon as the word Rachel escaped Blaine's pretty mouth, Kurt felt his heart break all over again. He watched as the shorter boy confidently walked into the rehearsal hall, his mouth still smiling as he talked.

Why her? Why not me?

Kurt worried his lip for the umpteenth time that evening and crossed his arms over his chest. He was going to look like a pouting child when he sulked his way into Warblers practice, but he didn't care. He would've rather been at McKinley being slammed into a locker instead of being anywhere near Blaine Anderson right now.

With tears brimming in his sad blue eyes, Kurt Hummel walked into the rehearsal hall and sat down.

Wes, David, and Thad - the three senior councilmen of the Warblers - stared across the room as their lead soloist sauntered through the area with an assured stride. The boy was singing passionately as he walked around the room, regarding each and every other Warbler who sang along with him. It was the routine, as usual. Blaine would sing his solos while the others sang harmony behind him and he would use his charismatic flirting to win people over. There was always someone special though that he sang to, more so than the others…

And for some odd reason, he wasn't singing to this special person at practice today.

Thad had been the first one to notice it. Blaine had sauntered up to Jeff, sang a few lines, and then sat down on the arm of the couch to serenade Nick. Then instead of sliding down next to Nick and singing to Kurt (of whom Blaine always sang to and by sang to, they meant flirt viciously with), the soloist stood up and started walking towards Trent, who was standing behind Kurt. As soon as the curly-haired teen bypassed the countertenor, Thad saw the boy's bright blue eyes fill up with tears. He had also stopped singing.

When his high soprano voice faded out of the chorus, both David and Wes caught it. They looked at Thad and he was staring at Kurt with the same confused look they had. Wes stared down at the newest Warbler with a hint of sadness in his eyes; he knew of little Hummel's extreme feelings for their lead singer and he knew that the boy had to have been heartbroken that Blaine had purposely passed him up like that.

Sighing, Wes grabbed his gavel from the table and whacked it down hard a few times until all of the Warblers quit their singing.

Blaine stopped his solo and turned around, his eyes somewhat shocked that Wes had stopped them mid-song. What he saw when he turned around was something he was hoping not to see: all three councilmen were staring angrily at him, especially his Asian friend, who was currently twirling his gavel between his nimble fingers.

"Attention Warblers: could you all please exit the rehearsal hall for just one moment? We'd like to have a word with Junior member Hummel."

All eyes focused on Kurt then, Blaine's included, and they all noticed the way the smaller teen had closed in on himself. His blue eyes were watery and shining and his lower lip was tucked underneath his white upper teeth. He was biting down so hard that his usually pink lower lip was bright red from the intense pressure.

"Kurt, are you alright?" Jeff quipped as he leaned down and tried to look into Kurt's eyes.

The younger boy didn't flinch or bat an eye, all-knowing that if he blinked, the floodgates would open and he would be done for.

"Please exit now, Warblers. I will call you back in here once we have finished our conversation."

All of the Warblers stood from their posts, save for Kurt and the councilmen. Blaine walked behind all of the others, his eyes still focused on the boy curled up on the couch.

Had he done this? Had he caused Kurt to well up like that?

He was almost out of the room when he heard Wes' clear voice ground out, "After we are finished talking with Kurt, we'd also like to talk to you as well Blaine."

And then Thad closed the doors on him, leaving Blaine standing outside with the others, their glares burning holes into his back.

He had definitely done something.

A/N: I've been wanting to write this for a while, but I couldn't get it to come out the way I wanted it to. It still doesn't sound anything like the way it was playing itself out in my head, but oh well! This will be a multi-chapter fic, so be on the lookout! Thanks in advance for any reviews! I really appreciate them!