My online diary!
25/8/2012... how do i feel? I don't know... empty alone confused depressed happy sad angry pissed off crap i really cannot be bothered with life anymore, no one gives a crap people dont care how i feel they just steam ahead with plans and i have no imput i am alone in this crap world and i want to leave. But what do i leave behind what if their is one person who loves me who actually cares.. the fake smile i plaster on everyday, no one notices, i cant do it anymore... sure i have some happy times but they only last a few hours, when i am alone it haunts me when i have time to think it scares me and i just can't do it anymore and i really want to die but what if there is nothing after, just blackness but then again it wont be different from now, i am so confused on what to do and i just want someone to talk to, someone who understands... some one who cares? I have tried to stop self harming nd i am doing well but there are times when i just want to fucking go so deep that i die. I am only young... fourteen. when i was younger something happened and i do not want to mention it. but please if you are someone like me i would like some company and a friend to talk to and for those who dont give a shit leave hateful comments.
it will be nothing worse than what i have already said to myself. when i have time i will keep uploadin and for those who think oooh this could be interesting, a 14 year old girls shitty life ... keep readin be my guest this website is just somewhere where i can keep my crap without being judged by the people i plaster a smile on for.. so sorry if your mentally scared for life but hey... thats it isnt it... sure there are people who think that they have got it bad for falling out with their friend or their parent wont get you an xbox well thats tough cuz its a freakin console... anyway enough of my rantin just a place to load off.
25/8/2012... how do i feel? I don't know... empty alone confused depressed happy sad angry pissed off crap i really cannot be bothered with life anymore, no one gives a crap people dont care how i feel they just steam ahead with plans and i have no imput i am alone in this crap world and i want to leave. But what do i leave behind what if their is one person who loves me who actually cares.. the fake smile i plaster on everyday, no one notices, i cant do it anymore... sure i have some happy times but they only last a few hours, when i am alone it haunts me when i have time to think it scares me and i just can't do it anymore and i really want to die but what if there is nothing after, just blackness but then again it wont be different from now, i am so confused on what to do and i just want someone to talk to, someone who understands... some one who cares? I have tried to stop self harming nd i am doing well but there are times when i just want to fucking go so deep that i die. I am only young... fourteen. when i was younger something happened and i do not want to mention it. but please if you are someone like me i would like some company and a friend to talk to and for those who dont give a shit leave hateful comments.
it will be nothing worse than what i have already said to myself. when i have time i will keep uploadin and for those who think oooh this could be interesting, a 14 year old girls shitty life ... keep readin be my guest this website is just somewhere where i can keep my crap without being judged by the people i plaster a smile on for.. so sorry if your mentally scared for life but hey... thats it isnt it... sure there are people who think that they have got it bad for falling out with their friend or their parent wont get you an xbox well thats tough cuz its a freakin console... anyway enough of my rantin just a place to load off.