A/N: My second published fanfiction... *deep breath* I have attempted yuri love before, but this is my first try at yaoi anything! I might add more later, but right now I'm just havin' some fun. I did make up a character though, only because I thought it would be funny to give Kurt a dirty little secret.

Oneshot right now, but if anyone shows any interest in it, I'll write some more.

I don't own anything, except for the random ways in which I stretch the truth.

Enjoy!

I'm not a stalker. I swear. I just want to talk to him. There's just something about him that I'm drawn to. He has what it takes to break my armor- and he already has, quite frankly. You wouldn't think it to look at me, but I'm a very guarded person. Ever since James...

Oh, James. I haven't thought of him in a while.

See, I did something even more awful than associating with Rachel Berry. I lied to coach Sylvester. She asked me if I had ever kissed a boy and I told her no... Well, that wasn't true. I'm keeping James a dirty little secret.

I met him when I was in eighth grade and he was a junior in high school- he was my first everything, although we didn't go all the way. The first time I kissed him, I knew I was gay. The same way you know if you're doing something heinous as wearing stirrup pants. I knew I was gay. James came into our classroom to visit the teacher and I was in awe. He stayed and watched the class and we got to talking afterwards, when he complimented my Judy Garland sweater.

We stayed in touch after that, and saw each other whenever we could. I don't know how he thought about our relationship, but it was true love from my end.

But then my mom died soon after and James and I parted ways... Even thinking about it makes me all emotional, and I can't start crying and smear moisturizing gel all over my face.

Anyway, now you see why I'm so guarded. But Finn is changing all of that.

Oh sweet Liza Minelli. He's right there. I hate to be so weak, but I can't even remember my name. I think it might be-

"Kurt."

Oh that's right.

Wait. He's talking to me.

"Finn! I didn't expect to see you here." I sound good. Cool. Calm. Collected.

"... This is our choir room. And it's time for practice. If I weren't here, Mr. Scheuster would kick my ass."

"Oh. Right. Of course." I sound like such an idiot. No wonder he prefers Rachel. Oh Finn... Why? Why her? Why do you love someone who will never appreciate you? Why can't you see I'm the one for you? There's the slightly inconvenient fact that you're not... well, gay... But aside from that... Why, Finn... why?

A/N: Like I said, I might add more- I love the character of Kurt and I think his crush on Finn is downright adorable. ^_^

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