1. Desperation

Disclaimer: I don´t owe Gilmore girls! I write this fanfic just for entertain! English is not my native language! So there might be a few mistakes! Sorry! I still hope you like my idea.

I changed the ending of season 7 a bit…

„I don´t want to marry you!" Rory replied.

"But… I mean we are in love, aren´t we?" Logan stuttered.

"Logan…"

"Rory… then I have to break up with you." Logan stand up on his feet and walked away.

Rory tried not to cry. How he could propose here in front of a crowd! How could he even propose, he knew she was not ready yet to marry him. It was her graduation day. Her day. She must be happy, but Logan dropped a bombshell. It was too early to get married and to settle down. Everyone one was watching them and even Lorelai and Luke saw Logan broke up with Rory. Lorelai was running to her daughter to comfort her and guide her to the toilette where they could speak in private. .

"Rory, are you all right? Can you do that? I am so sorry…"

Rory just nodded and replied: "Yes it is my day. No matter what happens, it is my biggest dream to graduate and to become a journalist." In real she felt numb. She wasn´t happy. A few minutes ago she felt so safe and comfortable. But know she wasn´t even sure if she wanted to be a journalist any more."

"Ok mom. They are calling our name. I have to do this."

Lorelai nodded and kissed her girl on the forehead. "I am so proud of you."

When Rory was standing on the pedestal, she was observing the crowd. Everything she wanted is to find her old friend Jess. He would comfort her and tell her that Logan was a jerk. But he wasn´t there… A few month ago she decided to send him an invitation to her graduation, but he never replied. After she received her diploma, Rory rushed down the stairs to her sit next to her mother. This time she wasn´t doing her speech which she prepared some weeks ago.

The whole evening she hoped that Jess will crash the party like he always did. Instead it was just a dream to escape from her misery, because she knew that Jess has changed and last time she hurt him a lot.

Everyone attended Rory´s graduation , her grandparents, her parents, Lane and her little family, Paris with her new boyfriend, Luke, Sookie and their neighbours. After the graduation at Yale every one of Rory´s friend, neighbours and family were invited to her grandparent´s place for dinner. The day went by and no one asked Rory about Logan. Instead Sookie asked Rory about her plans.

"So Rory, what are you next plans?" Sookie asked excited.

"Just write some CV´s I think." Rory replied nervous.

"But what about your plans going to travel, experience adventures and get the best jobs in the world."

"Well, with Logan out of the picture now… I think I am just not able to move on from Stars Hollow. I need some time to get over it." Rory lied. She made her own plans to disappear for a while…

Everyone was quiet till Lorelai started to talk about her wedding plans with Luke….

At noon one after another went home and hugging Rory for good bey. She went with her mother and Luke home. No one was talking about Logan during the car drive.

When Rory was lying in her bed she started to cry and she didn´t know what to do about her life. She made plans with Logan to travel and everything but marriage was way too early. She didn´t even know if she wanted to be her whole life with Logan before her broke up with her. Rory fulfilled her biggest dream to graduate with the highest scores, but still there was this empty hole in her heart. When everyone was sleeping, she started to pack her things and to run away for a while…