*eyes dart around while hands twitch a little. When sure the coast is clear turns to reader*

Hey Guys. Sorry if I seems a little nervous, i'm a little scared about the flames. It just that this fic is a little darker than my other ones. Not a lot *mummers to self* hopefully. *talks louder*

Anyway onward to the s-

Severus: What a minute Olly. How dark?

Lily: Yeah like on a Scale of 1 to 10

Olympia: *silence* we'll just have to wait and see.

Severus And Lily: NOW HOLD O-

Olympia: Too late

Warning: Attempted suicide, minor talk of abuse, depressing thoughts.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Harry potter or any of the characters.

Severus pov

I couldn't take it anymore. I was so tired. Believing that I was able to continue like this. But then I saw them kiss. James Potter and Lily Evans. My enemy and my former best friend. Worst of all, two people who I was in love with. Lily I had always loved but James was a shock. I discovered when I was thinking about kissing and buggering him while he insulted me in class and the halls. Potter and his friends stopped pranking me after the incident. Anyway I assumed that if I ignored them, then maybe it won't hurt as much. But then I overheard people talking about them. About how they were so happy, how they going to get married, and live happily ever after. After that i realise that they get the happy ending but I get nothing but misery. But I didn't want to join the Death Eaters. I didn't want to go home to my abusive father and neglectful mother. I didn't want to be bullied, picked on, and harassed by all of the houses, including the Slytherins. I didn't want to be miserable anymore. Which leads me back to standing on the astronomy tower. I looked out towards the night sky. I stripped myself of my outer robes to revel black loose torn jeans and black t-shirt. The moonlight shining on my scarred arms that showed all of the abuse I suffered. The words I carved into my skin. 'Worthless' 'freak' thing like that. I reach into my back pocket and pulled out a large knife I stole from potions. I pulled out the letters I wrote. I wrote seven of them for seven people. My mum, dad, Black, Lupin, Dumbledore, James and Lily. I put them down on the the ground next to my stuff. I walked to the middle of the room and place the knife to my right wrist. Slowly sliding the knife across, smiling at the blood that followed, I did the same to my other wrist. I did this two more times to each arms and cut across my chest twice. I laid on the ground, stared at the night sky and waited for me to die. While I waited I completed everything that lead to this moment. Thought of all the good times I had. Playing with Lily, me and mom cooking dinner together when I was younger, meeting my dads army buddies, hell, Lucius asking for help with potions. Thought of all the times I had to fight. Arguing with my father so my mum could get away, when I argued with Crabbe so I could see Lily, fending of the murders hexes. I smiled realising that it would be over soon. My head was getting dizzy from blood loss. It almost over. I'm almost free. I thought to myself. Then I heard a scream but ignored it thinking it was in my head. But then I felt someone cast a healing spell. I heard a familiar voice.

"Hang on Sev. it going to be alright. James give me my bag!" Lily Evans said. I looked at my former best friend ad saw, to my shock, that she was crying.

"Here. Lily if you think you can heal him, please hurry!" James Potter shouts while taking off his outer robe to rip up into makeshift bandages. I was in total shock. Why were they here? Why are they saving me? Won't they be happier if I died? Lily reached into her bag and pulled out what I think is a jar. I was starting to see black spots. Lily speared something on my arms and James forces me to drink something. Slowiny by surely did my arms heal and the black spots disappear. After about ten minute, I knew that I was going to live. As I stood up, despite their protest, and lifted my arms to see that they were wrapped up. I looked down at my chest to see it was wrapped up in makeshift bandages to. My body began to shake. No I thought why? Why did they save me? How dare they stop me? I was snapped out of my thoughts when a pair of hands cupped my face. I turn to the owner to see a crying Lily.

"Severus, why would you do this" she asked sobbing. I did not know how to respond.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"She means why would you try to kill yourself." James said. I jumped startled because he been quiet for a while. I stared at them for a moment. But I was slowly getting angry.

"Why did you save me?" I snarled at their shock faces "Do you enjoy it when I'm miserable? When you have a victim to tortue?" I ranted furious and confused. Before I could continue, they hugged me. I struggled in their arms but stopped and broke down and cry. I cried tears of anger, frustration, misery, sadness, and hatred. I cared for what seems like forever. James let me cried into his shirt while Lily stroked my hair. When I finally stopped crying, I pulled away from James.

"Severus" I started at the fact that he used my first name "We would never want you to die"

"Funny way of showing" I scoffed "What are you two doing here anyway?"

"We've been meaning to talk to you but the will have to wait til later" Lily said as she began to walked to the door dragging me with her, James falling after us. She lead us out of tower and down to a portrait of a woman. The woman had long silky flowing midnight black hair, an aristocratic face and purple eyes. She was wear a long dark purple flowing dress with v-shaped necklace, gold belt at her waist moved and slither to reveal a black snake. I, unfortunately, recognize her.

"Helo Severus darling" Her bell like voice had a taunting tone int ti.

"Hello Circe" I said calmly. James looked at me incredulously. Before we could continue our conversation, Lily interrupted by saying the password.

"Moon Prince" She said and Circe pouted, btu open up. We crawl through the passageway to revel my room. I haven't sleep in the dorms since my second year. My room was the size of the commons room with a bed sat in the middle. A door was on the right to lead to a large bathroom. My trunk sat at the foot of the bed, my desk was in the croner, and a nightstand sat on the left of my bed. Lily sat me down on the bed.

"Sev can we please talk?" She begged. I felt the bed dip as James sat down. Looking at them both, I broke. I told them everything. From the Death Eaters to my father to being in love with them both. They look had different emotions on their faces. Lily look angry, hurt, upset and shocked while James looked pissed, amazed, sad, and shocked as well. My head hurt. After everything that happened tonight I was must have known this.

"Go to sleep Severus. We'll talked in the morning." James said laying me down in my bed.

"Don't leave me" I mummer tired. The smiled at me before laying down next to me. With Lily on my right and James on my left, I fell into a calm dreamless sleep.

Welp that the beginning *giggles nervously*

Severus: *silent in shock*

Lily:*silent in shock*

James: W-what does the letters say?

Olympia:You'll see in later chapters.

Severus: *snap out of shock* What do you mean? Do I try to kill myself again?

Olympia: *ignore the to talk to the reader* Anyway do me a favor and review. Also read my other stories and reviews. Bye for now.