A/N: First songfic here, that hasn't been one of my own songs. Please be gentle. Criticism and flames welcomed. Tell me if you hate it.

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or any IS characters. I do not own "Picture", by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow.

Livin' my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sun shine in 3 damn days

It's been awhile since we last saw each other. It's been awhile since I last slept peacefully at night, without a different girl each night. I remember the time; I told you that the only girl I couldn't live without was you. I wish we hadn't given each other up. I haven't left the peace of my hotel room for 3 days. I can't stand the thought, of the pain that I'm putting you through. Stringing you along, and then pushing you away. Leave it to me to always ruin everything. How can I live up to your expectations? You deserve better than me. Someone your own age. Someone you can talk with, and laugh with. Someone who deserves your love. That isn't me girl. You can do so much better. And I wish you could see that I'm not your Prince in Shining Armor. So much better than me…


Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whisky
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever change my ways

I've been spending more and more time at the hotel bar, drinking bottle after bottle of whiskey. Trying to lose your memory. And each time I see the bottom of the bottle, you're still there. Smoking only helps a little more, as I still see your face in the smoke when I exhale, wishing you were actually there. I can only try to imagine what you're going through. It would only be fate, if the Lord would help me. Because if I ever want you back, I'll have to work to change my ways. Because I wasn't there for you, when you needed me the most. And I tried so hard, to put things straight. I couldn't help it if it was the wrong way, but it seemed right for me. We shouldn't of met, not that it was your fault. I never should've seen your face, so innocent and breath-taking. It's been awhile since the first time I saw you. Hell, it's been awhile since I saw you. And there isn't anything I could do, to make this right.


I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lyin' next to her
I put your picture away,

Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you, while I'm lyin next to her

I've had your picture on my nightstand for the past 3 years. Today I told myself that it would be the last time I would see your smiling face, mocking me for the mistakes I have made. So I packed it away. It was a painful moment. I couldn't help the tears that came after I did it. And every night while I'm lying next to her, I couldn't see your face, and how you would've scolded me for raising this poor girl's hopes up, and telling her that I loved her. You would've been yelling at me. And there was no way; I would've done this to you. But what can you expect me to do? Just keep on going day after day without you? I guess so…