Title: Restless souls
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Rory/Jess
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Poem called "Alone"
written by Maya Angelou (The complete collected poems )
Summary: My first ever Rory/Jess- fanfic. So be kind..:) In this
Jess kisses Rory not the other way around.
AUTHORS NOTE: English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
"Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone."
-----------------
Restless souls
by;Jessica
-----------------
Unwanted.
Alone.
I have to accept that.
They say that I'm a troublemaker.
Not even my mother wanted me.
Not my father.
Nobody.
I guess I'm alone out here.
I came to Stars Hollow angry at the world.
My mother had sent me away.
Couldn't handle me, they say.
I have not been a good boy.
I have done several things that I'm not so proud of.
Maybe they are right.
I'm useless.
Then she came along.
I have read about love.
I have heard it being spoken about.
But I have never actually experienced it myself.
But if you ask me,
I will deny it.
She.
Rory.
Angel.
I tried to fight it, believe me.
Convinced that I needed no one.
Maybe she will be the death of me.
Oh, what a nice way to go.
She moves my world.
This little girl.
Out of reach.
She is spoken for.
Taken.
I can't say that it was love at first sight.
It crept up on me.
It took me of guard and shattered all my
defensives.
Now I'm walking around the streets of this
town smiling like a fool.
She is the reason.
I vowed once that love would never make me
weak.
Look at me now.
Fool.
The moon keeps me company as I rise from my bed and dress.
Need to get her out of my head.
Luke is sleeping on the other side of the room.
I know that he means well.
But he can't replace my parents.
Sometimes I wish he could.
Make me right.
Save me.
God, I sound like...
Oh, I don't know.
I open the door slowly.
I walk downstairs and unlock the door to the diner.
The night is still.
Stars Hollow is sleeping.
Quiet.
I close the door behind me and lock it.
Feeling restless.
----------------
I couldn't see his face.
But I knew that he was there.
I could feel him.
Almost touch him.
Dreams.
Only dreams.
I woke with his name on my lips.
It was still dark outside.
He shouldn't be the one in my dreams.
Jess.
Wrong.
I rose from my bed.
Feeling restless.
I walked up to my window and starred out into the darken night.
I knew that I could go to my mother and talk to her.
But I didn't want to.
I wanted to figure this out by myself.
TRAITOR
Dean.
I had failed him.
Everyone.
To love another.
Love, it wasn't love I felt for Jess.
It couldn't be.
I refused to believe that.
But still my heart skipped a beat every time
he entered the room.
Him.
Bad for me, they say.
Troublemaker, they say.
They don't know him like I know him.
The warmth in his eyes.
His smile.
Everything about him.
The stars have come out to play.
Foolish heart.
Deny everything.
-----------
My wanders brought me nothing.
I ended up outside her house.
Like a moth to a flame.
Like Romeo.
The darkness surrounded me.
She must be asleep.
Shouldn't stay too long.
This is not my place.
Shouldn't be here.
But still I wanted...
To dream.
For once in my life I dared to
dream about something different.
Finally I turned my back and started to go back.
Her voice pierced the silence of the night.
I turned to her.
"Jess?"
She was standing on the porch.
She had on a coat over her pajamas.
"Yeah."
She came towards me.
She seemed to glow.
Maybe it just was my mind playing tricks with me.
"What are you doing here?"
Lie.
Lying.
That was something I was really and truly good at.
"Oh, nothing."
She smiled.
"Doing nothing, at three in the morning..hmm."
I WANT YOU
But that she will never know.
"Yeap. That's me. Shouldn't you be sleeping? Nice pajamas by the way."
"Dreams woke me. I can ask you the same.."
"I guess...Couldn't sleep."
"So what's up?"
YOU!
My hands screamed out to touch her.
I wonder what she would do if I kissed her.
Would she run away?
She was so close.
"You should go inside."
"No. You didn't answer my question."
"What question?"
"What are you doing her?"
She moved closer.
-----------
His eyes were on fire.
He had come to me.
Now he stood in front of me.
I wanted so desperately to read his mind.
For once in my life I listen to that little voice
that screamed in my ear to take what I wanted.
I don't know anything about love.
I don't know anything about life.
I have read Shakespeare.
I have read a lot of books that try to explain love.
But nothing could ever match up to this feeling inside.
For the first time in I felt something I have never felt
before.
Something that I never dared to name.
Passion.
It ran like poison through my veins causing me
to move closer to him.
I wanted him.
I wanted to feel his arms around me.
His lips against mine.
I must have gone crazy somewhere along the way.
But I needed this.
Wanted this.
I couldn't stop this feeling inside.
Not anymore.
KISS ME! KISS ME
Surrendering to my feelings.
--------------
She was so close now that I almost could sense the scent of her hair.
My heart went racing in my chest.
Forbidden.
Not yours.
"I answered that. Nothing."
"You lied."
Her eyes met mine.
Blue eyes pierced through my defensives,
seeing my soul.
My faults.
Everything.
Falling.
"What are you doing here, Jess?"
Her lips.
Her hair.
Her smell.
Her skin.
Everything about her.
"I forgot."
Just one kiss.
It could last me a lifetime.
Not yours.
Never mine.
Taken.
I wanted to turn around and run.
Fearing her.
Fearing my heart.
She could be the end of me.
She was the end of me.
Finally I surrendered.
Fell.
Falling.
I lowered my mouth to hers wanting to taste her.
I have kissed a lot of girls.
Half of them I didn't even like.
But nothing could ever have prepared me for this.
My mind went blank.
She didn't back away.
Didn't object.
I ran my tongue against her lips, inviting them to
let me in.
She surrendered with a sigh.
This must be heaven.
Tongues meeting.
Tasting.
I wrapped my arms around her.
Feeling her against my body.
Crazy.
Her hand against my chest.
Wanting her.
All of her.
SHE IS NOT YOURS TO KEEP!
Not worthy
Never mine to win.
Spoken for.
Taken.
I couldn't...
Reality came back.
I bolted.
------
His eyes were wild as he broke the kiss.
I was still lost.
My mind was blurry as I looked at him.
I could still taste him.
His hands on my body.
Wanting the sweet surrender I found in his arms.
I reached for him.
Wanting.
Needed to explain.
He looked at me.
Dark eyes.
"I'm sorry."
Then he turned around and ran away,
leaving me there
longing for him.
-------------------
I ran as fast as my legs could carry me.
Run away.
That's my specialty.
Fleeing.
From her.
From everything.
From my heart.
You love her.
I won't listen.
--------------
FEEDBACK_____YES PLEASE___j_rothen@yahoo.se
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Rory/Jess
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Poem called "Alone"
written by Maya Angelou (The complete collected poems )
Summary: My first ever Rory/Jess- fanfic. So be kind..:) In this
Jess kisses Rory not the other way around.
AUTHORS NOTE: English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
"Lying, thinking
Last night
How to find my soul a home
Where water is not thirsty
And bread loaf is not stone
I came up with one thing
And I don't believe I'm wrong
That nobody,
But nobody
Can make it out here alone."
-----------------
Restless souls
by;Jessica
-----------------
Unwanted.
Alone.
I have to accept that.
They say that I'm a troublemaker.
Not even my mother wanted me.
Not my father.
Nobody.
I guess I'm alone out here.
I came to Stars Hollow angry at the world.
My mother had sent me away.
Couldn't handle me, they say.
I have not been a good boy.
I have done several things that I'm not so proud of.
Maybe they are right.
I'm useless.
Then she came along.
I have read about love.
I have heard it being spoken about.
But I have never actually experienced it myself.
But if you ask me,
I will deny it.
She.
Rory.
Angel.
I tried to fight it, believe me.
Convinced that I needed no one.
Maybe she will be the death of me.
Oh, what a nice way to go.
She moves my world.
This little girl.
Out of reach.
She is spoken for.
Taken.
I can't say that it was love at first sight.
It crept up on me.
It took me of guard and shattered all my
defensives.
Now I'm walking around the streets of this
town smiling like a fool.
She is the reason.
I vowed once that love would never make me
weak.
Look at me now.
Fool.
The moon keeps me company as I rise from my bed and dress.
Need to get her out of my head.
Luke is sleeping on the other side of the room.
I know that he means well.
But he can't replace my parents.
Sometimes I wish he could.
Make me right.
Save me.
God, I sound like...
Oh, I don't know.
I open the door slowly.
I walk downstairs and unlock the door to the diner.
The night is still.
Stars Hollow is sleeping.
Quiet.
I close the door behind me and lock it.
Feeling restless.
----------------
I couldn't see his face.
But I knew that he was there.
I could feel him.
Almost touch him.
Dreams.
Only dreams.
I woke with his name on my lips.
It was still dark outside.
He shouldn't be the one in my dreams.
Jess.
Wrong.
I rose from my bed.
Feeling restless.
I walked up to my window and starred out into the darken night.
I knew that I could go to my mother and talk to her.
But I didn't want to.
I wanted to figure this out by myself.
TRAITOR
Dean.
I had failed him.
Everyone.
To love another.
Love, it wasn't love I felt for Jess.
It couldn't be.
I refused to believe that.
But still my heart skipped a beat every time
he entered the room.
Him.
Bad for me, they say.
Troublemaker, they say.
They don't know him like I know him.
The warmth in his eyes.
His smile.
Everything about him.
The stars have come out to play.
Foolish heart.
Deny everything.
-----------
My wanders brought me nothing.
I ended up outside her house.
Like a moth to a flame.
Like Romeo.
The darkness surrounded me.
She must be asleep.
Shouldn't stay too long.
This is not my place.
Shouldn't be here.
But still I wanted...
To dream.
For once in my life I dared to
dream about something different.
Finally I turned my back and started to go back.
Her voice pierced the silence of the night.
I turned to her.
"Jess?"
She was standing on the porch.
She had on a coat over her pajamas.
"Yeah."
She came towards me.
She seemed to glow.
Maybe it just was my mind playing tricks with me.
"What are you doing here?"
Lie.
Lying.
That was something I was really and truly good at.
"Oh, nothing."
She smiled.
"Doing nothing, at three in the morning..hmm."
I WANT YOU
But that she will never know.
"Yeap. That's me. Shouldn't you be sleeping? Nice pajamas by the way."
"Dreams woke me. I can ask you the same.."
"I guess...Couldn't sleep."
"So what's up?"
YOU!
My hands screamed out to touch her.
I wonder what she would do if I kissed her.
Would she run away?
She was so close.
"You should go inside."
"No. You didn't answer my question."
"What question?"
"What are you doing her?"
She moved closer.
-----------
His eyes were on fire.
He had come to me.
Now he stood in front of me.
I wanted so desperately to read his mind.
For once in my life I listen to that little voice
that screamed in my ear to take what I wanted.
I don't know anything about love.
I don't know anything about life.
I have read Shakespeare.
I have read a lot of books that try to explain love.
But nothing could ever match up to this feeling inside.
For the first time in I felt something I have never felt
before.
Something that I never dared to name.
Passion.
It ran like poison through my veins causing me
to move closer to him.
I wanted him.
I wanted to feel his arms around me.
His lips against mine.
I must have gone crazy somewhere along the way.
But I needed this.
Wanted this.
I couldn't stop this feeling inside.
Not anymore.
KISS ME! KISS ME
Surrendering to my feelings.
--------------
She was so close now that I almost could sense the scent of her hair.
My heart went racing in my chest.
Forbidden.
Not yours.
"I answered that. Nothing."
"You lied."
Her eyes met mine.
Blue eyes pierced through my defensives,
seeing my soul.
My faults.
Everything.
Falling.
"What are you doing here, Jess?"
Her lips.
Her hair.
Her smell.
Her skin.
Everything about her.
"I forgot."
Just one kiss.
It could last me a lifetime.
Not yours.
Never mine.
Taken.
I wanted to turn around and run.
Fearing her.
Fearing my heart.
She could be the end of me.
She was the end of me.
Finally I surrendered.
Fell.
Falling.
I lowered my mouth to hers wanting to taste her.
I have kissed a lot of girls.
Half of them I didn't even like.
But nothing could ever have prepared me for this.
My mind went blank.
She didn't back away.
Didn't object.
I ran my tongue against her lips, inviting them to
let me in.
She surrendered with a sigh.
This must be heaven.
Tongues meeting.
Tasting.
I wrapped my arms around her.
Feeling her against my body.
Crazy.
Her hand against my chest.
Wanting her.
All of her.
SHE IS NOT YOURS TO KEEP!
Not worthy
Never mine to win.
Spoken for.
Taken.
I couldn't...
Reality came back.
I bolted.
------
His eyes were wild as he broke the kiss.
I was still lost.
My mind was blurry as I looked at him.
I could still taste him.
His hands on my body.
Wanting the sweet surrender I found in his arms.
I reached for him.
Wanting.
Needed to explain.
He looked at me.
Dark eyes.
"I'm sorry."
Then he turned around and ran away,
leaving me there
longing for him.
-------------------
I ran as fast as my legs could carry me.
Run away.
That's my specialty.
Fleeing.
From her.
From everything.
From my heart.
You love her.
I won't listen.
--------------
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