R P.O.V.
"Julie, I'm so s-s-sorry…Julie" I replied, defeated.
I had never meant to hurt her. Heck, I didn't want to hurt anyone. It was this damned zombie reflex. I've been undead for a while now, so I've spent plenty of time observing and learning our mannerisms. Whenever we are faced with threats to our survival, unity, or in some cases, feelings that we don't know what to do with, we attack. At least, that was the case for me. Julie's boyfriend had threatened my survival and the unity of the group. Call it melodramatic, but that was the only way I knew to react.
The sad, pain stricken expression Julie had on her face when I gave her the watch was almost too much to bear. Seeing her like that made me want to die all over again. And knowing the fact that it was my fault, well, that made me hate myself even more. If only I had thought before acting. If only I had let him kill me. But it was too late for ifs now. Her boyfriend was gone and I was nothing but the monster that took his life and caused her pain.
That being said, I envied Julie. At least she could feel, love, and most importantly, be loved in return. And then there was me. Numb and alone. Part of me wanted to take the pain away from her, to make her feel better. Also, part of me wanted to feel pain again.
I closed my eyes and was immediately transported into a different world, a scenic world full of bright, vivid colours. Julie, her friend, and her ex-boyfriend were there, talking to each other. They seemed happy.
"What the hell are you doing here? Are you actually dreaming right now?" Julie's ex-boyfriend, I believe his name was Perry, asked. I looked behind me, who was he talking to?
"I'm not sure" I replied honestly upon realizing that he was talking to me. This was unlike anything I had ever experienced. At least, anything I had experienced as a zombie.
"You can't dream, corpse. Dreaming's for humans" Perry retaliated smugly. I couldn't really blame him for treating me like this. I mean, I DID eat him.
"Chill out, Per. He can dream if he wants to…" Julie cut in, walking towards me in a trance-like state. "…What about you, R? What do you want to be?" she asked, gazing into my eyes, searching.
"I don't know. I don't even know what I am" I replied, sadly. I haven't known who or what I am for a very long time now.
"Well you can be whatever you want. Isn't that what they say?" She replied, reassuringly. Its moments like these that make me realize how remarkable and unique she truly is.
"We can, right? You and me?" I asked, timidly. I was never good with women, and to make matters worse, I had a fear of rejection. I was so used to people running away from me. Then Julie did something that surprised me, she NODDED!
"It's not gonna happen, lover boy. Not after you told her you ate her ex" Perry chimed in, mocking me. He was right. The likelihood of anything happening with Julie is slim. I did kill her boyfriend and murder never gets you the girl.
"Shrug" Julie replied with a smile, shrugging.
I woke up with a start. Wait…I woke up? Was I dreaming?!