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ASSIGNMENT #7: A Study of Magical Healing: Anapneo - Task: Write about a person who finds a way to breathe again. You may take this literally or metaphorically.
Writing Club: Headcanon Heaven: Headcanon #8: Albus S. Potter was afraid of accepting his sexuality. - Jas (TheRottenJas)
October Event Around The World in Thirty-One Days: Antigua and Barbuda - Character: Albus Severus
Word count without A/N: 537
Breathing Easier
Albus entered the Common Room and he was deafened by:
"Queer!"
"Freak!"
"I bet his family is sooo proud!"
He crumbled to the floor and -
Albus woke up breathing heavily. He dreamed of it again even if no one knew. Better if no one knew. They won't be able to mock him and destroy his little secret. It's not like his family would love him. He preferred males and they always fawned over James whenever he mentioned that he likes a girl. Albus hated it but he had decided, he'd never tell. It was easier for him and his family.
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He couldn't breathe, the room was closing in. If only he had told his family. Now he has to live through this alone. He wanted his big brother to come and tell him it will all be alright, that a break up did not hurt every time. Where was he? Where was his mother? Why didn't he have enough courage to tell them?
He only wanted to be able to breathe but he needed them, he had to tell them. Where were they?
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He didn't tell them as the pain had faded but now he was hurting again. He had gone out with a girl his brother had said would be nice for him but she wasn't as interesting as boys. He wanted different things than his brother. Why couldn't anyone accept that? Why couldn't he accept that? He breathed easier before. Why couldn't he breathe easier now? Where was his courage when he needed it? Where was it?
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Dear diary,
I do not know what to do. I am scared. What would they do if I told them I was gay? Would mum scream because I cannot give her grandchildren? Would dad look with disappointment at me when he heard that mum was angry with me? Would my brother look with disgust at me? Would he call me a freak? Why am I not normal?
And not to forget my little sister. How would she handle it? Would they make her hate me? Would she hate me because she wanted? Why can't I love girls instead of boys? It would be easier, less freakish.
What about Scorpius? Would he break our friendship because I am different? Would he still be my friend or would he lead gangs to beat me? Would he tell me that he had a crush on me, that I am not alone? Could that happen? Is it only my wishful thinking? Am I really unworthy of being normal?
Albus S.
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James found it accidentally. He went to his brother's room. He saw it open so he looked at it. Did his brother really think that? Did he really think that they would hate him? Why? They'd love him no matter what or at least he would. He was his little brother, he was supposed to guard him and Albus was supposed to depend on him and ask him for advice.
What did he do wrong?
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He couldn't breathe… They found out…
Love… They love him... They approve…
Scorpius approved… Scorpius loved him…
He could breathe again with full lungs… It was a good feeling.
The End