A/N: Well, this is going to be sad, story.. I THINK. I just want to make this because I can't take it anymore. It haunts me. Well, hear it is! And then it will start to get interesting if you know what I mean *winks* this is a very not EdWin fanfic though. I just I don't like the pairing. Sorry to EdWin fans out there.

SUMMARY: AU- Edward Elric, The FullMetal Alchemist, had became the state alchemist at the age of twelve, the bravest of the brave and all that disappeared by a heart ache. But what will happen if he had a new reason to live, and he'll die trying? Will he be saved by his friends and his only family member, Alphonse, or will he be alone to carry this burden? Rated T for Ed's colorful language.

I don't own FullMetal Alchemist! If I did then Ed would be taller than before! Don't tell him I said that.

I AM TITANIUM!

Chapter 1: Another Journey

Edward Elric, was staring at the beautiful blue sky that fills the earth. Oh what a beautiful day! Why is that? He was holding a box. He looks at it and his smile grew. He was going to propose to Winry Rockbell. He keeps on smiling as he skips happily towards the Rockbell home. It didn't change when he last visited. His home town looks so much like before. Now that his and his brother's body is restored, he could have a normal life that he dreamt about.

He arrived at the house and was about to knock to the door. He looks at the box once more and then something shocking happen.

No... it couldn't be...

Oh why now...?

His eyes widen as he saw Winry kissing a guy. His heart stopped. He can't move anymore. His body was frozen all of a sudden. He felt he was stabbed again and again in the heart, not wanting to see what the two figures in front of his two, sad and heartbroken eyes. He then spotted a ring at Winry's finger. So he was too late...? he couldn't bare it anymore so he hurriedly goes away and he hadn't notice that the box where the ring had been hidden had fallen right in front of the door of the Rockbell residence.

He ran as fast as he can he didn't dare to look back on what he had seen. He can't bare it. He can't hold it anymore. He never felt like this in his whole life. He finally thought it will be best if: he goes back to Central...

... And become a military dog again.

He groans at his thought, but he had to. He didn't want to stay in Risembool where he will see his one true love marry a guy he doesn't even know! Then why did he give up so easily? He didn't know.

But it soon hit him.

He saw that Winry was happily kissing him, saying 'yes' over and over again. It's painful for him to say but he kind of admits he always wanted her to be happy. Her smile was happy and excited, he can't make out but he knows that she is happy with that guy. He sighs. Maybe that's why he gave up so easily without a fight. He wanted her to be happy.

He waits at the train in the train station and start singing a little song. He likes to sing. But he doesn't want to sing in front of people. The only one that knows he wants to sing is Alphonse and only Alphonse. (Imagine it as Ed's voice. If you can't, well it's going to be hard XD)

"You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud, not saying much.

I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet.

You shoot me down, but I get up."

At the chorus, he pauses a bit and looks at the sky angrily, seeing that the blue sky just looks like Winry's beautiful sapphire eyes. He growls and continues to sing like he's singing angrily at someone. Or to himself.

"I'm bullet proof, nothing to lose

Fire away, fire away.

Ricochet, you take your aim

Fire away, fire away

You shoot me down, but I won't fall

I am titanium.

You shoot me down, but I won't fall

I AM TITANIUM"

When he stopped, he heard someone clapping and looks around just to see Pinako Rockbell looking at him with worried yet happy eyes.

"So, you saw it... I feel bad for you, Shrimp." Pinako teases, which of course affects Edward even if he got heart broken and such.

"WHO ARE YOU CALLING SHORT THAT CAN'T BE SEEN BY AN OLD AND SHRIMP LADY WITH A MAGNIFYING GLASS?!"

Pinako laughed. She really misses the blond alchemist. She frowns when she saw the case that was standing beside the waiting bench, waiting for the train to come and get taken with the owner. She hates seeing Edward leaving. There was an uncomfortable silence that Ed hated so much.

"So" Pinako said to broke this silence with a sad tone on her voice. "Your leaving again, are you?"

This made Edward flinched. He never thought that he would hear Granny those words again. He thought it will be all over, living with Winry and have children with her. But that won't happen anyway He reminded himself as he sighs gently and came to the old woman to give her a huge hug.

"Don't worry granny. I'll visit sometimes. I promise" He said with a heart warming smile that they all have been waiting for. Pinako hates saying goodbye, especially when the one she's saying goodbye is like a grandson to her. But she did anyway. The blond alchemist saw his train, gets on it and wave goodbye to the old woman. When the train left, Pinako felt something really strange. She felt something will turn out wrong. She just pushes it aside as one lone tears came down on her cheeks. She had a feeling that this was her last time she sees the golden eyed boy.

Winry Rockbell was with her fiancée named Andrew, her heart filled with happiness and... betrayal? Wait why was she feeling that? She sighs and just shook it off. But then something hit her. She was betraying Edward. NO! You waited for him so long.. He doesn't deserve you. She scolded herself, not wanting to think about Edward anymore. But how can she do that?

She shook her head furiously, cursing her stupid head for thinking about that Edward again and again. It's not like he's going away again

Just as she thought of that, Pinako declared that Edward left. Again. What was she thinking? She knows he will leave. But why does it hurt? Why is her heart aching? She clenches her chest as if it hurts and silently cries.

What will happen to her life now?

As the ride continues, the golden teen plays around with his hair, since he doesn't have his pocket watch. He watch as the train passes every town he never knew it exists and smiles. One thing about why he wanted to travel is that he could always see the parts of Amestris. It maybe made him sick sometimes, but what's fun if you always are in the safe areas? A smirk had come to his lips when he had thought of being back and it had given him a pleasant dream.

Then... he had this dream...

The golden teen looks around a train station, and didn't even know how he got there but he had a bad feeling about this, and he didn't want to know what it was though someone wanted him here. This confused a bit because this doesn't even look like an ordinary train station. He looks up at a sign that said: "Death". What the hell? The blond look at the line of people... wait... they look like the people that were at his train! He remembered the brunette woman, the old man, and the officers and... He gasps...

He saw himself...

For the first time, he had now noticed a skeleton that look like an odd decoration for creeps in the train station since it's not Halloween yet. He came closer, and closer, and he noticed that his dream self is as well getting closer to the figure ad when the two golden blonds is now in front of it, it had moved-which made the two jumped- and it's hollow eyes look straight at his dream self at his golden orbs.

"Hm.. I guess I am seeing you yet again, Edward Elric" the cloaked skeleton said, in statement not in question. "And I had thought that Truth is keeping you alive..."

"Why yes he is keeping me alive" He heard his dream self saying sarcastically "He waited my life hell so he did...But I want to go back and have a family and do more good to people! But I am not needed there..."

"Even if that you are needed at the human, living world...i may like to give you a chance to live... but you have to pay the price..."

He had a bad feeling that it will not going to end well. And his thought had been correct but he didn't know what makes him think that because he couldn't hear what the skeleton guy had said except.

"Make deal with Death, Edward Elric because it will make your dreams come true..." A voice had said, ad it is too familiar but then when he remember who it was he had woken up, covered with sweat and his mouth hag slightly like he had a silent scream coming out of it.

He sigh I relief when he had seen his surroundings and smack him self for having a weird dream and look at the sky.

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But he didn't know that it will occur and Reality will be as bad as Truth.

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