So before I begin, I'm gonna apologize in advance for not posting stories more often. Reasons, you know? Second, I want to thank the amount of people who have given me support in regards to my writing. It's awesome seeing those reviews comments you give me, but I guess that's because you guys are awesome. Thirdly, I'm gonna apologize again, because I was going to write the whole story all at once and post the entire thing, but I got up to chapter 3 and I just really want to know what people think so far...

Warning: Sad and tragic stuff near the end. I have yet to decide how sad I want it, but I guarantee it still will be sad. Also, it will be a little slow paced. Might as well warn you about that too. I wanted it to somewhat reflect a real relationship (or as much as a fanfic will allow me to have a story reflect a real relationship). Just trying something different. I'm serious, let me know if you like what I'm doing! If you don't like it... well I'm still gonna finish this story my way but I won't write a story like this again.

And finally, I don't own anything (by the way this is a song fic. 11 chapters and a song to go with each one. I tried to pick songs that weren't too popular so it would be a bigger surprise for everyone! And no, I didn't write a single one. I'm not brave enough to publicise my songs...)

First song: Fire and Ice- Olivia Bray

Chapter 1: First Love

It's funny how such a cold person can give such a heated glance. Natsu wondered this as he bite off the piece of fire from the torch he was carrying. Gray had been giving him weird looks for the past couple weeks. It wasn't like his normal glances of rivalry and annoyance. This time… there was definitely something different.

Natsu stuffed the rest of the fire into his mouth and swallowed, feeling the comfortable and familiar feeling of a hot power swirling in his stomach, he felt energized. He got up and glanced at Gray. Gray looked away quickly. This was getting ridiculous. Natsu marched over to Gray and grabbed him by the shirt collar.

"Let's go fight." Natsu let go of Gray shirt and cracked his knuckles and lightly ran out of the guild hall down to the river. He didn't bother looking back, because he knew Gray would follow.

Down by the river, he turned to see his rival walking towards him, hands in his pockets and looking up at the sky.

"Come on! Fight me!" Natsu lite his fist on fire and swung it at Gray, who sidestepped easily.

"Not today Natsu." Gray rubbed the back of his head sheepishly. "I'm a little tired, I guess." He turned around to walk back to the guild.

Natsu stared at him incredulously. "You're lying." Gray stopped in his tracks and turned his head slightly, yet still not enough for Natsu to see his face. "You've been acting weird. I want to know why."

"What do you mean 'weird'? I'm not acting any differently from what I'm normally like." Gray laughed, but Natsu's sensitive ears picked up a slight shake to the laughter.

"That's another lie. If that's true, then why have you been giving me strange looks? It's not like what you normally do. Something's off with you. Are you sick? Do you need a day off? Are you having problems with a girlfriend? Come on, give me something to go on." Natsu took a step towards him. "We're friends, aren't we?"

Gray turned around, but it looked to Natsu like he was looking over his head rather than looking him in the eye. "I'm fine. Never better. I'm not sick, and I'm not in a relationship with any girl right now."

Natsu folded his arms and raised an eyebrow. It was obvious on his face that he wasn't buying that everything was as peachy as Gray claimed.

"Tonight, come to my place. If you don't want to tell me here, you can tell me someplace more isolated. I'll ask Happy to stay with Lucy tonight." Natsu ordered with a smile on his face, but the hidden look in his eyes said that he was worried about Gray and wasn't going to take 'no' for an answer.

"I really don't-" Gray started, but was interrupted.

"If you don't tell me, I'll tell Erza that something's wrong, and she'll make you tell her. I don't think you want that." Natsu smirked. He knew he cornered Gray.

Gray looked away, a slight scowl on his face. "Fighting dirty, eh?"

Natsu shrugged. "I don't care as long as things go how I want. Besides, you made me fight dirty. I wasn't going to resort to that, but you're just so damn stubborn." Natsu turned around and walked away, waving over his shoulder. "You have until tonight to work up the courage to tell me what's wrong. See you later!"

That evening…

Gray stood outside the small house that the dragon slayer and Happy called home. He considered not going, but he didn't doubt the fact that Natsu would live up to his threat and talk to Erza. He knew that if he simply refused to speak with her, she just might resort to beating it out of him.

He needed to come up with a lie to tell Natsu. He'd been trying all day, but hadn't been able to come up with anything good. Now he was just going to have to rely on his ability to come up with these things on the spot, because there was absolutely no way in hell that he was going to tell the truth. The truth that Gray was struggling with romantic feelings towards a certain dragon slayer.

The fact that they were both guys wasn't the problem. In fact, Gray didn't really care about what sexuality he classified under. To him it was just a minor detail in a sea of many and not really a defining factor as to who he was as a person. He just kind of went through life waiting for who would spark something for him and that would determine things for him. Natsu didn't just spark something in him, he lit an entire inferno in Gray's soul. He fell in love so deep for Natsu that it almost physically hurt.

The problem was that he was the one person who Gray just was not allowed to love. He was his best friend, his childhood rival, and his polar opposite in magic. Nature even said this was taboo. Fire and ice don't mix well, they only destroy each other. If he were to tell Natsu, he would surely lose a friend and a teammate.

Even if Natsu were to except it, he would never return his feelings. Though he knew that Natsu would say that things will stay the same for them, he also knew that that would be a lie. Natsu would forever remember Gray's true feelings, and Gray would always remember how Natsu will have turned him down.

The sky above his head started to rumble. He looked up and felt a raindrop hit his forehead and slid its way down to his chin, leaving a wet streak across his face. He sighed. Guess this is my cue to go in.

He just made it to the door when the rain started to come down. He knocked quietly, almost hoping Natsu wouldn't hear and he could use it as an excuse the next day, but no such luck. The dragon with his sensitive ears swung open the door and stepped aside as a silent come on in.

If Gray could describe the house in one word it would have been suitable. It was just as chaotic and disorganized as the dragon slayer himself. Though he'd been here before, he seemed to remember it being hotter than what it was now. He looked around and saw a window opened.

"I thought you liked your house hot." Gray gestured towards the window.

Natsu tilted his head and shrugged. "I like the smell of the rain. It makes everything smell fresh and cleans the air."

"You know you could clean your house and things will smell fresh and clean in the air." Gray glanced at a full garbage bag leaning against the wall.

"I don't have time for stuff like that." Natsu walked towards the kitchen and pulled out two glasses and poured water into each. He took out a tray of ice cubes and plopped a few into one of the glasses. He handed the glass with the ice to Gray.

Gray took the glass, surprised by the consideration. "Thanks."

Natsu walked over to the couch and sat down. He motioned for Gray to sit beside him. Gray instead pulled out a chair from the dining room and sat across from Natsu. Natsu sighed at the action.

"Oh come on, it's not like a bite." Natsu said, a little exasperated.

Gray blushed slightly at that. "No, it's just…"

"Whatever. Now come on. Tell me what's been eating you." Natsu leaned forward.

Gray took a sip of his water nervously. "Well you see… Lately I've been questioning things."

"What things?" Natsu pressed.

Another sip. The ice bumped against his teeth. "Things about myself." Gray decided he would tell Natsu a partial truth. That way, he wouldn't be lying and Natsu won't be able to catch him in a lie.

"What things?" Natsu asked again. It was obvious he was searching for details.

"Things about who I am, and about how I feel about the people I'm with." Gray sighed. He was nearing his limit as to how far he could go with this explanation. He only hoped Natsu wouldn't press further or tell Erza or Lucy about this.

"What do you need to know about who you are? You're still you. If you forgot anything about yourself, I'll remind you. And what's this about the people you're with? Are we not good enough anymore? You better not be thinking about leaving the guild!" All of a sudden, Natsu stood up, arms on fire. "You're not allowed to leave the guild!"

"Jeez. Chill. Who said anything about leaving the guild? Relax. I'm not going anywhere." Gray motioned for Natsu to calm down. "Damn it Natsu, I'm questioning who I'm sexually attracted to." This was it. This would be as far as he could go with the truth.

"Who you're…" The flames stopped and Natsu looked at him surprised. "You think you might be gay?"

"Well… maybe. I mean, I could be bisexual or pansexual. I think I'm bisexual." Gray put his head down and stared at the floor. He grabbed at his dark locks and pulled slightly, hoping that the sensation would wake him from the nightmare he was having. No such luck.

"That's when you like guys and girls, right?" Natsu asked. This was his first time having a conversation like this with somebody. He wasn't sure what he should say.

"…Yeah. But specific kinds of males and females. Females that consider themselves female and males that consider themselves male." Gray sighed. "You know, even I didn't really understand the different sexualities until just recently, so it's okay if you don't get it."

"I get it… I think." Natsu sat with his brows pressed together in a hard line. "You know… I might be the same."

Gray stared at him, surprised. "What?"

"Yah, so um… You shouldn't worry about it too much. You're not alone in being… confused about yourself." Natsu rubbed the back of his neck, ears red.

"Well, sexualities aren't really important to who a person is anyway." Gray smirked slightly. It looks like Natsu completely misunderstood what his problem was, which was exactly what he wanted, yet he had to sigh a little to be rid of the depressed feeling inside him forming.

"Yeah, you're right. Just know you're not alone." Natsu shrugged, but looked away, slightly embarrassed.

There was a moment of silence. The only sound was the rain outside gently hitting the up against the small house. Natsu stood up suddenly. "Do you mind if I turn on the radio?"

Gray blinked. "Yeah sure, I guess." He could understand why Natsu felt awkward. They both shared something very personal with the other.

On came the radio, and pleasant sound of a piano filled the house. Natsu sat down on the couch again, and patted the seat next to him. This time, Gray didn't refuse. He sensed the questioning was over.

As the soothing melody calmed his stiff shoulders, he looked at Natsu questioningly, "Didn't think you listened to anything like this."

"I do when it rains. It fits the mood, don't you think." Natsu's shoulders were slightly making contact with Gray's cold ones.

Gray blushed at that, for it fit more than just the mood of the rain.

"Touch, light as a feather

Thought I knew better.

He puts fire in my veins."

Natsu looked sideways at Gray, who was still and seemingly very self-conscious about the space between them. He smiled. Gray was too cute and beautiful, and he felt very special that Gray was able to talk to him tonight.

"Quick glance, swift as the ocean.

But now I am frozen.

He takes my breath away."

All Natsu wanted to do was to make Gray happy. That's why he was so worried about him. He truly cared for this ice make wizard, in the strangest way. Perhaps he shouldn't have these feelings towards him, but that's not the kind of thing you can help. He wanted Gray to be with him… forever.

"But I'm not supposed to love him.

Not supposed to think about his touch, when I'm alone.

The love was brand new.

Now has a dark hue.

I'm still as a statue.

But he brings me to life.

Don't care if it's right."

Gray fidgeted slightly and listened to the radio. The words were so perfect to his feelings. Maybe there was something wrong with this love of his, but at the end of the day, he didn't care if it was right. What he really wanted was to be with Natsu and be able to freely love who he wanted.

"Clip my wings.

Take everything.

Don't know what's right.

Fire and ice.

Keep your blue eyes away from me.

I'm mesmerized.

Fire,

And ice."

Natsu looked at Gray and for a moment, their eyes locked. Natsu looked into Gray's eyes as he listened to the song. It's true, the blue eyes really do mesmerize. He got lost in the deep pools of blue and leaned a little closer, ever so slightly.

"Longing sits behind his eyes,

Sits behind my eyes.

We're like clockwork, just in sync.

I wanna run,

And jump in his arms.

Let his calloused fingers,

Run across my cheek.

Now I'm weak."

Maybe the song was getting to him, but Gray was very conscious of Natsu right beside him, staring at him. All of a sudden, Natsu leaned up against Gray cold shoulder and rested his head up against Gray's. Natsu was snuggling with him!

"Ummm… Natsu?" Gray started.

"Shhhh. Just listen." Natsu closed his eyes and inhaled the fresh scent that was Gray.

"Clip my wings.

Take everything.

Don't know what's right.

Fire and ice.

Keep your blue eyes away from me.

I'm mesmerized.

Fire,

And ice."

The melody continued itself, and as it did, Gray slowly rested his head against Natsu's as well, sinking into the moment. His breathing was quiet but fast, yet he was surprisingly calm. The feeling of this being so foreign yet so familiar had his mind all mixed up.

"Heart beats,

Slowly.

He's draining me of energy,

Of everything I've known.

Is it possible,

To need something,

That's not right for me,

But he's everything I've known.

He's everything I've known."

'So True' Natsu thought. Some may say Gray's not right for him, but he's the one who'd been there since the very beginning, and Natsu loved him for that.

"Clip my wings.

Take everything.

Don't know what's right.

Fire and ice.

Keep your blue eyes away from me.

I'm mesmerized.

Fire and ice.

Melting right at his feet.

Let him into my life.

Feels so right.

Walls are crumbling at his feet.

While he stares into my eyes.

We're mesmerized.

We're fire,

And ice."

"Gray can I tell you something?" Natsu asked softly.

Gray furrowed his brows in confusion. "Sure, I guess."

"I love you Gray." Natsu whispered, leaning further into the cold body.

"Touch, light as a feather.

Thought I knew better.

He puts fire in my veins."

Gray froze and stared at him. Natsu nonchalantly got up and turned off the radio. "Natsu…"

"What, you think I'm lying?" Natsu gestured in a 'who do you take me for' kind-of-way. He reached out his hand to Gray and caressed the smooth cheek of the ice wizard.

"Ummm… Well… you see…" Gray wasn't sure if Natsu was joking or not. He was almost tempted to tell Natsu how he felt. If Natsu felt the same, surely there was nothing to lose, right?

"I'm not kidding! I love you Gray! For the longest time, I've had these feelings for you. You're the only person I want to feel this way for." Natsu sat down on the couch again, but directly facing Gray this time, and pulled him into his arms. "I'm sorry, you probably don't feel the same, but I thought after all this time, you should know."

Gray and Natsu sat there for a minute. The ice mage wrapped up in the fire mage's arms. Fire and ice. Two extremes constantly at war with each other. Nature said they really weren't right for each other. But on the other hand, there couldn't have been anybody better suited for their counterpart. They were the only ones that could handle the other. Gray slowly put his arms around the Natsu's back, pulling him closer.

"Gray?" Natsu said, confused.

"What I was going to say was… I… Love you too." He buried his head a little into the side of the dragon slayer's neck.

Natsu sighed, and Gray looked up, scared that there was going to be a reason as to why he should now stay away from Natsu. "Well that settles it." Natsu took so long to finished his thought that Gray started to think furiously 'settles what!?' "You're my boyfriend now."

"You're… what?" Gray was shocked. That was not what he was expecting to hear.

"So you're off tomorrow, right?" Natsu asked, releasing his arms from around Gray and settled for Gray's hand.

Gray could only nod.

Natsu smiled largely. "Tomorrow, we're going on our first date."

I know what you guys are yelling... "WHY HAVEN'T THEY KISSED OR HAD SEXY TIMES YET!"

In good time. In good time.

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