A/N:So this book has sexual stuff in it and it has a lot of depressing stuff in it. I'll put warnings at the beginning of each chapter.

Warnings: Masturbation, Sad thoughts?, Angst and hurt

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Lucifer walked around the room and checked all the rooms. It seemed like everyone was gone. His father and brothers were at church. He's finished all his chores as well. He didn't think anyone would be home anytime soon, so he walked upstairs into his and Michael's shared room. He got undressed and layed in his bed. He got under the blanket and grabbed his laptop. He turned on some gay porn and began to have his fun. "Fuccckkk... Michael..." He moaned softly.

Michael looked over at his Father when his name was called. "You may go home now, Michael." Chuck said, nodding.

Lucifer continued in his actions. Part of him felt so dirty at having such impure thoughts about his brother. But the other part felt like it was okay. If anyone were to find out he didn't know what he would do. "Michealllllllllll..." He groaned out.

Michael was happy to be able to go home, he quietly ducked out of the church and started home. Meanwhile Lucifer tried not to be too loud in case anyone happened to come home while he was doing this but it was hard. He really loved his brother but he couldn't show it the way he wanted to.

Michael crossed the lawn to the house and opened the door, walking inside. Lucifer didn't hear the door open, he was to occupied with other stuff. He had his eyes closed and his breathing was off. "Ugh... Michael..." He groaned.

Michael hung up his coat when he heard his name, "Lucifer?" He called quietly. Lucifer didn't hear Michael call his name. He did however hear it in the back of his mind and groaned. He thought it was his imagination and pictured Michael underneath him as he fucked him into the bed.

Michael wandered back towards there room, "Lucifer? Are you here?" Michael called out. "Michael..." Lucifer groaned out and then he heard his brother's voice. Was he here? What? Then it hit him like a ton of bricks. His brother was home. He stopped moving altogether and froze in fear. Did his brother hear what he was doing?

Michael knocked twice on the bedroom door, "Lucifer? Are you in there? Are you alright?" He asked gently. Lucifer slammed the laptop closed and put it under the bed. He got up and put on some boxers quickly before sitting down and putting his pillow in his lap. He tried was partially covered in sweat and looked at the door. He wiped his face a little. "Yeah everythings fine." He said trying to keep his voice even.

"May I come in?" Michael asked, even though it was his room too. Lucifer kept his pillow over his lap and tried not to look to suspicious. "Y-Yeah of course you can." Holy Shit. He was screwed. He still had a problem.

Michael opened the door and walked in, "Father let me go early." He said. Lucifer nodded some and looked at him with a small smile. "That's good." He said and tried to keep the image of Michael's naked body out of his head.

Michael walked over and sat down on his bed, "Have you been home all day?" He asked. Lucifer nodded some. "Yeah I've been outside all day. I was working on the farm and taking care of the animals." He said looking at him.

Michael nodded with a smile, "Sometimes that seems better than working at the Church."

"It's really not. It's a lot of manual labor. Though I don't mind and really like it." Lucifer said smiling back at him. He held back a groan at the sight of him smiling. Dammit his brother was amazing and his smile was beautiful.

Michael snorted, "The Church is so boring, to be honest. I wouldn't tell Father that, but between you and me, I really don't like it."

Lucifer nodded some. "I can see why. Nothing ever really happens there. Unlike here. I mean about an hour ago I had to reach my hand up a cow's ass and help it give birth. I took a very long shower after that." He said laughing some.

Michael wrinkled his nose, "That sounds gross, but at least you got to shower after." Lucifer laughed some. "It is very gross. The inside of a cow's ass is really warm and I childbirth all over my arm."

Michael faked a gag, "Disgusting." He said chuckling softly. "Continue to say that and the next time one gives birth, I'll make you help." Lucifer said smirking at him.

Michael snorted, "False."

"Not false. Truth. I'll make you reach your hand up it's ass and grab it's baby and pull it out." Lucifer said chuckling softly.

Michael shook his head, "No, thank you, I would not like that."

"I know you wouldn't. Don't worry. I can't make you anyways. You're too busy with church anyways."

Michael flopped down on his bed, "It's so boring."

Lucifer laughed. "Ha! I know it is." He said laying down on his bed. He made sure the pillow stayed on his lap.

Michael turned to look at him, "So, what were you doing before I came in here?" He asked, "I heard my name."

Lucifer blushed and sat back up. He looked away from Michael and tried to come up with an excuse for why he heard his name. "I-I wasn't doing anything."

Michael looked unconvinced, "Hmmm... Alright."

Lucifer leaned forwards and grabbed his towel from under this bed and wrapped it around him. "I-I'm going to take another shower." He said standing up and making his way quickly to the bathroom.

"Didn't you already take one?" Michael asked with a tilt of his head. Lucifer poked his head out some and looked down. "Yeah I did... But uh... I-I..." He trailed off not thinking of a good enough excuse. Michael snorted, "Whatever, Lucifer, do what you please."

Lucifer almost stuck his tongue out at him but didn't. About 4 years ago he got surgery done on his tongue to make it a forked tongue and he never told anyone. Instead he just flipped him off before closing the door. He wanted to finish what he was doing before Michael showed up.

Michael scoffed and layed back down and closed his eyes.

Lucifer started the water up and took his boxers off. He got in under the water and grabbed onto the little railing in there. He leaned against it as he gripped his length knee again. He bit his bottom lip to keep any noise from coming out. As long as Michael never got on his laptop and saw all the gay porn or little digital diary that told of his feelings for his brother then his secret was safe.

Michael thought about what Lucifer could have been doing, but he stopped himself when his thoughts wandered south.

Lucifer let out a low groan. His breathing was once again off and he went faster. He made sure not to say Michael's name in fear of him hearing him.

Michael rolled over onto his side and closed his eyes. Lucifer was close to the edge and it was getting harder to not scream Michael's name. "Fuckkk..." He groaned softly. Hopefully Michael didn't hear. He would die of embarrassment.

Michael thought he heard something, but he ignored it. Lucifer came with a soft moan of Michael's name. "Micheal..." He moaned ever so softly. He quickly put a hand over his mouth and cleaned himself and the shower up. Leave no evidence behind. He got out and dried his hair.

Michael turned back over onto his walked out of the bathroom after getting dressed. He left his shirt off though. He looked at his brother and bit his bottom lip a little. "I'm going to get a drink. Don't touch my stuff. You don't need anything from them. Especially not my laptop." He said walking out of the room.

Michael tilted his head, "Why not your laptop!?" He called.

"Because there's nothing on there for you!" Lucifer called upstairs. He never told anyone he was gay and pretended to be straight as best he could. He even brought some woman home sometimes but he never slept with them but if he did which has only happened once he made sure to hit her from the back and he pretended it was Michael underneath him.

Michael smirked, he was tempted to look, just to annoy Lucifer.

Lucifer silently hoped he didn't look. He didn't want him to see the gay porn or the notes on how he loved him more than a brother.

Michael stood up and picked up Lucifer's laptop and sat down and opened it. Lucifer opened the fridge and pulled out a monster drinking some of it. He'd have to remember to get on his laptop and close the porn. Especially since it was two brothers Fucking that he happened to be watching. That would be bad if someone ever disobeyed him and got on his laptop anyways.

Michael wanted to close the laptop as soon as he opened it, he didn't quite understand how to feel.

Lucifer opened the pantry and got a bag of chips out as well since he was usually hungry after doing what he did. He opened the bag and ate some of the chips.

Michael slowly closed the laptop after reading through everything. Lucifer walked back upstairs slowly with the bag of chips in his hands. He opened the door to the room and ate some more of the chips. He was looking at the bag so he didn't notice Michael with his laptop.

Michael placed the laptop down looked up at his brother and raised an eyebrow at him. "What are doing on my bed?" He asked eating a chip.

Michael smiled, "Nothing." He managed smoothly. "Okay then." Lucifer said chuckling softly and continued to eat the chips. He sat down on the bed by his brother and put the chips down. He wanted a Popsicle now so he opened the small freezer / fridge he had by his bed and pulled one out.

Michael cleared his throat and stood up, "If you would excuse me, I need to use the restroom."

Lucifer looked at him weirdly. "Okay then have fun in the bathroom. Don't know why you told me though." He said opening his Popsicle. He usually ate it with his tongue behind it and sucking on it so no-one ever noticed his forked tongue.

Michael mentally slapped himself, 'Dammit, Michael! Get it together!' he silently scolded himself. When Michael left Lucifer openly licked his Popsicle without trying to hide his tongue. Man this was harder than he thought it would be. When he was done with it he stood up and walked over to the bathroom door. He knocked on it some. "Hey Michael. If you need me I'll be outside in the barn. I have to milk the cows so we can have milk tomorrow." He said before walking off.

"Alright." He replied, he stared at himself in the mirror, trying to process what he had seen and read.

He walked outside and out into the barn. 'Michael's acting weird. I wonder what's up with him.' He thought bending down. He began to milk the cows so they had some milk for tomorrow's breakfast and to sell at the market. The entire time he kept thinking about Michael though and why he was acting different than usual.