Spirit in the sky chapter 1
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I had never been so happy in the entire life; I had my mate, my imprint. Today was our three year wedding anniversary. I know I sound like such a pussy when I say it was the happiest day of my life, but in truth I could never envision a better day to be alive then today.
I looked over at my imprint as we drove down the road. She smiled at me taking my hand. I raised her hand to my lips and kissed it while keeping my eyes on the road. It was dark and the snow was falling in heavy sheets making it difficult for even my sharp wolf eyes to see the road.
"Sam tonight was wonderful, thank you."
"Anything for you love, I'm just glad that nothing has gotten in the way of us taking tonight to ourselves."
"I know, I was so worried that there was be another vampire that would come in between us."
"Well it didn't and we had a great time sweetie."
"Very true, of course I always have a great time with you Sam."
"Like wise my love." I laughed as I tightened my grip on the steering wheel. I looked over at my imprint as she laid her head against the glass of her window closing her eyes.
I was jolted back to the road as lights shot right in front of us. I don't remember much of the next few minutes. I remember hitting the brakes, the sound of metal crunching, glass breaking and my imprint screaming before it went dark, I heard nothing and my world went black.
I woke sometime later still strapped to my seat. I could hear people talking all around me. Every now and then a light would flash across my face as rescuers tried to get to us. I knew I was hurt, but I also knew I was healing faster than humanly possible.
"Emily...?" I asked as I growled in pain.
"Sam, Sam honey?" Emily's sweet voice came out in a raspy tone.
"Are you okay honey?" I asked looking over in her direction, even though I was healing it still hurt to move too much.
"I don't know Sam I'm hurt, what happened?" Emily asked, her voice filled with fear. I wanted to comfort her, to take her pain away. I felt desperate to get to her as I sat there trapped in my seat. She needed me and there was nothing I could to make her feel better.
"Wish I could remember, all I remember is a light coming at us." I groaned as my legs tingled as they healed.
"I hurt so bad, I can't take the pain anymore." She whispered her voice filled with pain.
"No baby, please don't talk like that everything is going to be okay." I told her, my voice cracked as my eyes filled with tears. I could hear her heart rate slowing as the smell of blood filled the cab of the truck. I moved my arm as far over as I could in the twisted metal of our explorer. It was just enough room for me to reach her arm, which was covered in blood.
"Baby keep talking to me, I love you so much I need to hear your voice beautiful." I said as I continued to stroke her arm. I couldn't lose her, I would die too if I lost her.
"Sam, I hurt...but I'm so tired at the same time." she whispered.
"Don't think about being tired, think about anything but that. What was your favorite thing about tonight baby? Tell me about that." I asked as tears slipped from my eyes, and sadness filled my voice.
"I loved how you held me...as we danced. I felt like...we were the only...two people in the world." I knew she was in pain but I had to keep her talking.
"I felt the same way love, can you see the rescuers?"
"Yeah...they are right...outside my door."
"Good they will get to you first, promise me you will fight Em, I need you." I said trying to stay strong.
"I'm trying Sam...I'm so tired." she whispered her voice growing softer even for my wolf hearing.
"Please don't leave me...I need you...I want you to have a family with you. There's still so much I want us to do together." I said as tears were now falling freely down my face.
"I know Sam." She said her voice growing weaker by the moment. "Sam I wish...you could hold me...all I want...is to be in your arms." I wiggled as much as I could till I was closer to her; she was shivering as I put my arm around her.
"I love you...so much Sam. Please...always remember that. You always told me...an Imprinter was whatever...the imprintee needed him to be. Sam...I need you to continue on...without me." I couldn't believe my ears at what she was saying. I wanted to tell her no but I couldn't. "I need you...to love again...and be happy. Find someone...who will love you for you...and give you all the beautiful children...you deserve. Sam you will be...such a good father, I can see that...I just wish...I could be around to see it."
"No Emily I don't want to live without you. I want you to be the mother of my children. I want to hold you every night as we fall asleep. I want you to be there when I come home from patrol."
"I know Sam...but you'll be okay. I love you Sam...I'm so sorry for leaving you...so soon."
"No Emily don't leave me none of this is your fault. I should have done something different." I squeezed my eyes shut trying to clear my vision of tears.
"You did...all you could, I love you Sam...Always and forever. I'll be watching...always, be happy." She whispered as her heartbeat slowed and soon came to a stop.
"Emily? No please don't leave me!" I panicked as I tried to pull her closer to me. I screamed with sorrow as the door by Emily was finally pulled open.
"No!" I held on to her as someone tried to remove Emily from my arms.
"Sam let her go, she's gone son, she said she wanted you to go on. You can't do that till we get you out of here." I laid my head back and cried as Emily was pulled from my arms. How had we been together only two hours ago dancing and laughing and being happy?
"Sam, its Charlie Swan. We'll have you out in a few minutes. How bad are you hurt man?" I said nothing as the grief swallowed me; I didn't want them to pull me out alive. I wanted them to lay me to rest next to my wife, so we could start our grate walk to the west together. Finally they pulled me from the truck. I was dizzy as I stood. I said nothing as I was set on a gurney and loaded into a waiting ambulance.
"What happened?" I asked even though I really didn't care at the moment.
"The driver of the tractor trailer lost control. He slammed into the guard rail, flipping the truck. The trailer slammed into the car ahead of you spinning it back towards caused your truck to roll." Charlie explained in a sympathetic
"Did anyone die, beside my.." I couldn't even say her name right now. Fresh tears sprang from my eyes as I lay back, looking at the roof of the ambulance.
"Yeah the couple in the car in front of you didn't make it." I couldn't help but think how lucky thay couple was to go together.
"I know things seem impossible right now Sam, but you will be okay."
"How can you say that to me right now? Her body isn't even cold yet." I growled letting my wolf peek out just a little bit. I know it wasn't right for me to scare him, but right now I didn't really care.
"I'm sorry Sam; if you need anything let me know." Charlie said as he left the ambulance.
I closed my eyes relaxing into the blissful blackness for a moment. I opened my eyes lifting my head enough to see what was going on around me. The door to the ambulance was open just enough so I could see what was left of our truck. The looked like it had been rolled, the roof smashed in along with the front end. If I hadn't know better I would have thought the truck had hit a brick wall. This was one of those time that I wish I did not have the wolf gene. Any normal human would never have survived that crash. Now I am forced to live a life stuck as a wolf without an imprint. My heart fell as I thought of my Emily; I didn't care if anyone saw me cry at that moment.
"Sam I'm sorry for you loss, I know nothing I can say to you can make you feel better, but if you need anything, anyone to talk to I am here for you Sam." I nodded not really hearing the words of the person who spoke beside me. I knew it was someone I knew but I wasn't paying attention, I hated all the people now crowding me, checking my vitals, telling me I was okay. Right now that was the last thing I wanted to hear.
I wanted to get away from them, I wanted to find my imprint and hold her before I had to lay her to rest.
The next few days flew by in a blur; one moment seemed to blend into another. The pack surrounded me trying to help keep me sane. The tribe also was there to lend their support to me. Even though I had so many people around me I never felt so alone. Nothing made since without my beautiful Emily in my life, she had been my rock my cherished one.
The worst part was being home. The pack had spent the last few nights with me but even their company could not keep the shadows away. Everywhere I looked I saw my Emily.
I lay in our bed with her pillow snuggled to my chest for the last time; I knew what I had to do to keep myself sane. I had to leave La push for now, maybe someday I would come back but right now it was just too painful to be here where I had been so happy with her.
The next morning the pack watched me as I packed a small bag. I didn't need much just a few change of clothes. The house would still be here when and if I decided to come back, the pack would see to that. For that I was thankful they understood why I could not stay, well some of them did. The ones who had imprinted had an idea of what it would be like to live without an imprint.
"Sam are sure about this?" Jake asked leaning against the doorframe.
"Jake remember when Bella left you for the Leech, you took off to Northern Canada. Well it's kind of like that, I just need to be alone for a bit."
"I hear you there Sam. If you need anything from any of us don't hesitate to ask."
"I will Jake and I'll phase every now and then to check up on everyone. You'll do fine as Alpha; it's your birth right." I knew Jake wasn't happy with me for placing him in the role of alpha, someone needed to do it and right now I couldn't.
"I hope you are right Sam." He sighed crossing his arms over his chest, not looking any happier then when I had first explained his new role to him.
"But there is one thing I could use from you right now." I said as I finished packing my bag and turned to him.
"Name it Sam." I could see in his eyes that he would happily do anything for me right now. That thought did bring some joy to my heart but it still was not enough to keep me in La Push.
"I need a ride to the bus station."
"No problem Sam."
I looked around the room I had shared with the love of my life. She wanted me to be happy again, to fine love. Fat chance there, she was the only one for me. At one time I would have said it was Leah but once the imprint took over, that was it.
The ride to the bus stop in Forks was fairly quiet. I closed my eyes as we passed the place where we had crashed. I wish I could just forget, forget everything that had ever happened in my life.
I traveled for weeks traveling from state to state, but everywhere I went my problems were still there. I wasn't sure what I was looking for, or if I was really looking for anything. I knew I was just running away from my problems but there was nothing I could do. Finally I got off the bus; we had stopped in the Keweenaw of Michigan. It was pretty as far as scenery goes, kind of reminded me of back home without all the rain.
I walked for hours with no destination in mind. When I was finally able to get away from people, I stepped into the woods and phased. It felt good to be on four paws again I had not phased since before the accident.
"Sam? Buddy where are you?" Jared asked excitedly.
"Somewhere in Michigan." I said as I showed him the scenery around me.
"When are you coming home, we crossed a new leech trail." Seth asked worriedly.
I growled as I thought of what my brothers were up against. I wanted to go back but I wasn't sure If I could live with the memories that were every were I went.
"Sam we are fine, don't rush back. I want you to come back because you want to, not because you think we need the help." Jake said in a voice that I was not used to. It was the voice of an alpha. I knew he would step into the roll, but I never thought how weird it would be.
"Thanks Jake, I'll talk to you guys later." I said to them. They said their 'goodbyes before backing out of my head as far as they could.
I ran through the thicket of the bushes as my brothers continued to argue. I tuned them out as the woods thickened. I slowed bringing myself to a slow trot. I poked my head out of the tree line as the trees began to clear. There sat a small rustic style cabin, the yard was a bit over grown and no one had driven on the driveway in a long time.
It would be a great place to hang out till I decided what to do. It was dark by the time I retrieved my bag and made it back to the cabin. There was not another human for miles, just the way I needed it right now. It didn't take much to get the cabin door open. It wasn't even locked, but the door had not been opened in some time.
The cabin itself was pretty simple. It had a small kitchen and living room with two bedrooms off of the living room. I sighed laying my stuff down in the living room. I felt bad about breaking into someone's place, but this seemed like the best option at the time.
Now I was alone as I felt, I looked around the dark cabin. I really had no desire to stay in here; I walked outside staring at the beautiful stars. It brought me back to a time when I used to lay next to Emily on the beach, how I missed those days. I knew I was close to the lake here I could smell the sweet pureness of the water; maybe it would help me feel closer to her to be out there watching the waves of the mighty lake.
I walked through the over grown yard to a steep flight of stairs that led down to the rocky beach. I sat on the rocky beach staring out at the lake. I wanted to feel closer to her but it didn't help. I felt new tears forming in my eyes as I drew my knees up close to my chest laying my head on my knees.
"Emily, why did you have to leave me?" I cried. I let myself break down for the first time in weeks. I have no idea how long I sat there, but when I looked up I saw one of the most beautiful sights in the world, the northern lights. Emily and I had loved to lie out on the beach and watch them together on one of those rare nights when I didn't have responsibilities of the pack. Emily used to love hearing stories of the great lights of the spirits, watching over us.
"Emily, I miss you." I said as I watched the lights dance across the sky; I smiled as I felt a breeze hit my face. I felt her then, for a moment I felt like she was there with me. I smiled as I leaned back at watched the lights dance across the sky.
After I while I stood building a fire, I felt better standing here, not fixed but I felt better. Almost like part of the hole in my heart had been filled. When the fire was finally rolling, I sat there watching the flames dance. I had always loved to sit in front of the fire, like my ancestors had done for hundreds of years.
"Hey what the hell do you think you are doing down here, this is private property?" I looked up as a beautiful woman with brown hair walked towards me from the stairs, her arms crossed over her chest as she gave me the look that all women could give a man to make the squirm.
"I'm sorry; I wasn't trying to cause any problems." I said as I stood up grabbing my bag.
"I should call the cops on you for trespassing, who the hell are you anyway?" She said her hands on her hips. I couldn't help but think how cute she looked as she glared at me. What the hell was I thinking? She was not my imprint and I had just lost Emily a few weeks ago I shouldn't be able to feel anything but sorrow.
"My name is Sam Uley, I'm from La Push Washington. I'm sorry for trespassing; I wasn't trying to cause problems. Please don't call the cops, I'll leave I don't want any problems."
"Why are you here Sam? Is that even your real name?" She questioned me.
"Yes my name is Sam. I'm here because I needed to get away from everything and there was no one around here." I know I was presenting myself didn't sound good, she probably would think I was some criminal on the run from the from law.
"Are you running from the police?" Yup I knew that would be the first thing she would think of.
"No I lost my wife a few weeks ago in a car accident; I just couldn't stay in a place that reminded me of her." She looked at me sternly probably trying to decide if she believed me. I grabbed my bag up swinging up on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry, I won't be a bother to you anymore, I'll just be on my way."
"Wait Sam where are you going?" I smiled as the frown on her face turned into something else making her face look much softer.
"I don't know, but I'll be okay." I said as I started to walk away.
"Wait why don't you stay tonight? I don't feel right kicking you out in the middle of the night." I looked at her as she came closer to the fire.
"Most women wouldn't invite a strange man to stay." I saw something flash in her eyes it was there for a moment then replayed by the same hard look she had given me from the moment she had walked onto the beach.
"Do you plan on hurting me Sam?" The question caught me by surprise, did she really expect me to say anything but no.
"No." I answered seriously.
"Fine I believe you won't hurt me, I would tell you why but you would probably think I am a nutter."
"Try me." I said cocking my head to the side a bit. After everything I had seen in my own life it was understandable that there were many things in this world that we couldn't understand
"I can...read a person's aura." She said hesitantly.
"Really? What can you see that makes you so sure I'm not a bad person?" I asked her.
"Yours is a rainbow of beautiful colors, I see mostly blues and greens, small amounts of orange and yellow. I also see a lot of pink meaning you have a lot of love in your heart for someone. But I also see a color that dark it tells me you have a lot of sorrow in your life and hurt." She paused for a moment then smiled.
"I'm Hannah by the way." I smiled shaking my head as I watched her.
"It's nice to meet you. That sounds like it would be a pain looking at someone like that all the time." I watched the look on her face as she saw I wouldn't call her crazy or a loon.
"No I only see people like that if I want to, I see only you now." I watched as she sat on a log across from me.
"Sit down Sam." She smiled as I sat back in the same place I had been.
"So what was your wife's name?" my breath caught in my throat as she asked me about Emily.
"Emily, She meant the world to me." I said as a sad smile crossed my face as I thought about her.
"If you don't mind me asking what happened?" She asked looking at me seriously.
"A car accident, I was driving us home from our anniversary date and a tractor trailer jack knifed hitting the car in front of us causing them to hit us. Emily died in my arms while we were both pined in the car."
"I'm sorry." I could tell she was being sincere.
"Thanks, so what are you doing up here all by yourself. This place looked pretty over grown?" I asked wanting to change the subject. Not that I minded talking about my imprint but the pain was just too fresh.
"This was my grandparents place. My parents decided I'm not successful enough in life like my brother so I decided to come here and get away." She said with a sigh.
"I see, Seems like we're both trying to hide from people."
"Who are you hiding from?" She asked looking at me with concern in her eyes, I smiled then it was nice knowing there were still people in the world that could care about someone else.
"I don't really have any family, but there are a lot of people from my tribe that kept asking me if I'm okay and telling me I'm going to be okay. Then everywhere I go I see Emily or I should say the memory of her." I said looking back into the fire trying to keep tears from spilling from my eyes.
"Wow that sucks." She said looking up at the northern lights as they danced across the sky. We sat out there for hours making small talk as we talked waves had started to pick up coming closer to us, we watched as the northern light disappeared as a storm started rolling in across the lake, Hannah looked down at her cell phone then yawned.
"I'm going inside; I hope you are planning on staying with me. This place is creepy as hell. Besides I don't feel like staying by myself in a storm."
"I don't have anywhere else to go; besides I don't like the idea of leaving you alone out here." We threw sand on the fire pit to put it out.
"Thanks Sam." She smiled as we headed up to the over grown cabin
"I haven't even been in here yet, I don't know if we can get the door open with the grass so high."
"I checked it out earlier; I got the side door open." I said making my way to the side door.
"Sweet" She said as she followed me.
I helped her pull open the still sticky door as the rain began to fall in big drops; she grabbed her back pack that had been lying next to the door. I sat my stuff next to the sofa.
"Do you know anything about fuse boxes, my dad told me I only I only need to flip on the main breaker to turn on the power."
"Yeah that's no problem; I own my own construction company so turning on the power shouldn't be an issue." It was as easy as I has said as Hannah led me to the fuse box, as soon as I flipped the fuse the cabin came to life.
"Awesome, I would have been freaking out figuring that out myself." She smiled as we made our way back into the living room.
I plopped down as the rain began to pelt the outside of the cabin. Hannah sat her stuff in the bedroom before coming back out. She stopped in the hall closet pulling out a thick blanket and a pillow. She smiled as she handed it to me; I shook my head as I watched her. She stood in front of the large pitcher window watching the storm as it moved closer. The lightning was now flashing across the sky lighting up the trees and yard. She stepped back as hail began to pelt the window, which was probably a good idea.
"It's okay Hannah; I won't let anything happen to you while I'm here." She turned smiling at me.
"Thanks Sam." She smiled as she began to walk towards the bedroom.
"No problem. Thanks for letting me stay tonight, wouldn't have been a grate night to be stuck out in this." Even in my wolf form being in hail would still have been miserable.
"I'm glad you came here, I hate storms. I would be freaking out if I was here alone right now."
"You can sit out here with me for a bit if you want to, you know till the storm passes."
"I think I'll be okay for now as long as the storm doesn't pick up any more." She said as she leaned on the door frame.
"If it does I'm here, you can wake me up if you need to I won't mind." I smiled back.
"Thanks Sam." She smiled once more before disappearing into the bedroom.
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