Same Mistake

Disclaimer: I don't own any part of the TMI series, they are the property of Cassandra Clare.

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Chapter 1

"Three years, it's been three whole years. I can't fucking believe it." Alec thought to himself.

He was dodging punches and kicks swiftly, his years of training at the New York Institute doing him a great deal of help compared to training the Shadowhunters of the California Institute. Not that they weren't plenty capable. They certainly could handle themselves in a fight, but he found New York Shadowhunters were much more rough and quick in their movements, even seemingly enjoying the battle.

California Shadowhunters had their fun as well, but their attacks were a bit slower, more planned out, almost relaxed. It would have driven Jace or Izzy insane, but may have been a bit better training for Clary. Not that she needed it now. Sure she would probably never be quite on the same level as the Lightwood siblings, but she had made a great deal of progress for her five years of training.

It had been a hard transition for Alec admittedly, going from intense hunts with Jace and Izzy his whole life to fighting alongside some of the most laidback people he had ever encountered. This was saying a lot, considering Magnus… Alec felt his heart clench at the thought of the man and he immediately refocused all his energy back onto the sparring match he was involved in.

Alec was currently sparring with Jasper, a Shadowhunter just a year or so older than him, who had curly brown hair and dark gray eyes. He was a bit smaller than Alec however, and like most Shadowhunters in California, wasn't quite as intense in a training session. Normally Alec wasn't either, but today was different, today Alec wanted, no, needed a distraction and he couldn't make himself distracted by their normal simple sparring activities as he usually could.

"Alec!" Jasper shouted, holding his face after Alec punched him just a little too hard.

Normally Alec would have stopped right there, but stopping would mean thinking and thinking wasn't an option right now. He would do this all day if he had to. So instead of stopping Alec swiftly dragged his leg, swiping Jasper from off his feet and straight onto the ground. Jasper returned the move, leaving Alec sprawled out on his back as well. Jasper, who was quicker than he was strong, quickly pinned Alec down, holding his hands down with his own and doing the same with his legs.

"Alec, please let me help you."

Ugh, that was the worst part of this; Jasper was probably the kindest person there. Everyone else would have either kicked Alec's ass right back (tried to at least, Alec was one of the taller and stronger hunters there) or had left him alone to vent. Not Jasper, nope he was much too nice.

Having none of that, Alec used his height to his advantage, as he had longer legs, and turned the situation around, Jasper's eyes widened in surprise and horror, his gray eyes looked as dark as Izzy's black ones with the emotions swirling around in them.

This time, Alec couldn't stop the memories from flooding his mind at that thought. He saw Izzy's face when he told her he was leaving, a look of sadness and horror, not unlike the look in Jasper's eyes right now. Then he saw Jace, stone faced and angry, telling him running away wouldn't fix things. He remembered yelling some unforgivable things back; unforgivable if it weren't Jace that is, as Alec had long been forgiven. He remember Clary, small as she was, giving him a huge hug, and demanding he write every day- a promise he did his best to keep up with. Simon left him with a pat on the shoulder, and another promise, this time of Simon's end, to watch out for Isabelle, she was more sensitive than she let on. He found out in later letters, phone calls and fire messages that Simon had kept his promise about Izzy as well; in fact they were now an official couple. He thought of how his parents hadn't been there, of course, but remembered receiving the longest fire message he ever had gotten, begging him to reconsider.

The strongest and most painful memory came back in full force, Magnus with his cat eyes, seemingly blank of any emotion. He was devoid of any glitter and his wardrobe was subdued. Alec knew something was wrong from the start, sure Magnus had been known to shed the glitter (as much of it was he could, it was practically part of his skin actually) and not be as showy when there were no clients or it was just a night where they stayed in, but those eyes, they were never blank, it frightened Alec more than he cared to admit. And then, the words that came out of his mouth . . .

Alec was immediately jolted from his thoughts as he felt pressure pressing up against him and realized he was still straddling Jasper, who looked horrified and now had a red flush in his cheeks. Was he trying to stab him? Alec glanced down at what was poking him and his eyes widened with surprise. Jasper, looking more horrified than before, wriggled beneath him, trying to escape the humiliation. Alec however was having none of it, and just pressed down increasing the grip on the other man's hands.

"Alec, please." Jasper pleaded, looking desperate and terrified.

He finally pieced together what he had ignored for so long. When he first had arrived in California, Jasper had been so utterly fascinated with him. Not only was Alec semi famous for being the parabatai of the angel boy, Jace, but he had also kissed a male Downworlder in front of the entire Clave. Yes, Alec was famous in his own right. In an attempt to completely separate himself from the "old Alec" Alec had done his best to joke, and make everyone laugh, telling them all how many crazy encounters he had had in New York and about the battle, leaving out fighting alongside Magnus, of course. All along, Jasper had been the one laughing the loudest, smiling the brightest… occasionally even flirting? Old Alec would have noticed, but those first few months he was way too caught up in everything else to do so.

Alec thought back to when he and Jace used to train together, their positions often reversed from the one he was in now. He thought of how before Magnus, he just wanted Jace to kiss him so badly. Maybe if he had, none of this would have happened, he wouldn't be so damn miserable for three years.

Alec lunged down, engulfing Jasper's lips within his own. The boy gasped beneath him, but slowly and shyly returned the kiss; he then placed his hands on Alec's chest, gently pushing him away. Alec resisted for just a moment longer before lifting his face up, and noticed Jasper's gray eyes were glazed over, his breathing slow.

"I'm not- not exactly out of the closet just yet." Jasper stammered, looking slightly ashamed. While trying to avoid looking Alec in the eyes he glanced down, only to turn redder at the sight of his own erection.

Alec followed his gaze and snickered. "We'll keep this a secret, no problem."

It was better that way, maybe if he had done that with Magnus in the first place he wouldn't have got so hurt in the first place. Alec took his lower lip in between his teeth, knowing what he was about to do was bold, even for the new him. However, Jasper saw none of his worry and when their eyes met, Alec's blue eyes were dark and mischievous.

"How about I take care of that problem for you?"

"What?" Jasper choked, eyes widening again.

Alec just laughed, placed and kiss on Jasper's lips again, shutting up his incoherent stammering, before slowly trailing down to another area of Jasper that needed attention. He easily slid the leather pants off, and not even glancing up at Jasper to get the okay. Alec then took pleasure in the only other activity besides fighting that would be a worthy distraction.

So, I hope I did an okay job. I know Alec and Magnus seem terribly OOC, but that's kind of the point, Alec is trying to be a bit like the old Jace, but I did try and put flashes of the old Alec in there. Magnus also has his reasons for his break up with Alec, but those will come later. So how was it?

Note: In case anyone was wondering, or found this vaguely familiar. I got the idea from Esperons Intuiles by Imogine Jean San Luca. It's a great fic, with the same basic premise- Magnus/Alec break up and Alec leaving NY- but my fic will not be like her exact for the basic idea. I recommend ya'll check that fic out if you get the chance, it's unfinished but what is written in amazing.