Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls

A/N: So this story pretty much follows the story lines from the show. The only AU-ness about it would be anything form season 7. Since I live in Australia I have yet to see season 7 so I can't exactly write to keep it in tact.

Rory/Jess completely. Go the Lit!

I don't have a beta sorry.

So on with the story...

Runaway Groom

Chapter 1: Running Scared

This was completely normal. It was more then normal it was somewhat expected. Everyone felt nervous on their wedding day, this was nothing different. It would pass eventually. Once he was standing in his position and he saw her walking towards him this fear would disappear and be replaced by happiness. The nauseating feeling would leave him and he would feel content. His fingers would stop twitching with un-ease and his heart would stop pounding a thousand times per second. Everything would be fine once it started. This was just pre-wedding jitters, nothing more. Normal, it was completely normal.

Her family believed they were made for each other. That they suited each other like butter and bread. Going by that example he assumed he was the butter. They loved him like the son they never had. He had no idea why he wasn't exactly the ideal guy parents wanted their daughter to date. Most parents would bring out a baseball bat if their daughter brought him home, but not hers. They were interested in his writing and what he liked to do. They had made a great effort to make him feel welcome in their house. He on the other hand had yet to introduce her to any of his family. He had told her that he wasn't very close to them. She insisted she meet them before the wedding and that he invite them, so he lied. He told her he had called them and they had told him they were all to busy. She had been upset on his behalf saying that he deserved a better family then that. He had felt very bad about that. He wasn't sure why he didn't want them to know or come. Well that was a lie as well. He knew why he didn't want them to know. He just couldn't admit it to himself.

His mother knew he had been dating Katie. He had mentioned her a few times on the very few occasions they talked on the phone. He wasn't sure if she had mentioned her to Luke or not. When he and Luke talked on the phone Luke never brought it up if he did know. He was kind of wishing he had told his uncle and that he was here right now. He and Luke had a strained relationship to say the least but in the last few years they had managed to over come it. Now he wished he had someone to talk to about the way he was feeling. A father figure to help him deal with his nerves. His own father Jimmy had turned out to be a big disappointment and Luke was still the closet thing he had to an actual father. He really hoped Luke would not be hurt that he wasn't invited when he found out about the wedding. Jess assumed he would find out eventually.

Katie was beautiful. He had thought so the second he had seen her. She had dusty blonde hair and big bright brown eyes, a slender figure and a personality to much her looks. She was the sweetest girl. Jess often wondered what she saw in him. He was often rude and very guarded. She let her heart hang on her sleeve, she gave everyone a chance. With Jess you had to prove yourself before he would let you in even a little. But he and Katie seemed to compliment each other. When he was around her he was a lot better with being nice and social towards people. She calmed him down when his editor was pissing him off. She seemed to bring out the best in him. Katie was wonderful, sweet and beautiful but she was completely different to Rory.

"Rory" Her name left his lips in a whisper. She was like a giant elephant in the room that he tried to ignore. No matter what he was doing or where he was over the last 10 years she was always there with him. He always figured if he just met the right person her ghost would fade away. Then he had met Katie. The thought of Rory had not disappeared, but he pushed it away. Figuring if he pushed her away for long enough she would some how just be gone. It had worked for a while too. She was still there but only in the back ground. But as the wedding got closer thoughts of Rory also got closer to the surface. He started thinking about her again. He tried to deny it even as he was thinking it. His brain was a river in Egypt.

"Hey man. 10 minutes" His friend Greg told him.

"Okay. I just need a few minutes alone" Jess told him. Greg gave him a reassuring smile before leaving him to his thoughts.

Jess was beginning to feel very cornered. He was finding it hard to breath as his throat started to feel small. Telling himself that this was normal over and over wasn't really helping either. The more he said it to himself the less he believed it. Thinking about another woman on your wedding day wasn't normal. Or at least it shouldn't be. He should be thinking about how wonderful it will be to start a life with Katie. Not about his sadness and regret for never getting that second chance with Rory. Rory was the reason he didn't tell Luke about the wedding. He knew it he just didn't want to face it. He didn't want her to know he was getting married and he knew if Luke knew it would only be so long before it got back to her. It was a horrible thing to do. Not invite your closest family to your own wedding because you didn't want your ex-girlfriend to know about it.

This was so wrong. He felt a guilty feeling in the pit of his stomach. He shouldn't be thinking about Rory. It wasn't fair to Katie. But he couldn't help it. When he tried to see Katie all he saw was her. Her beautiful crystal blue eyes. He shiny brown hair. Her tempting lips. She had full on invaded his mind now and had caused an in-ward war with himself. But it was the same battle he always lost. Weather he liked it or not a part of him would always love Rory and wonder what could have been. Maybe it was because they never had any real closure. He wasn't sure. The last time they had seen each other was at Luke and Lorelai's wedding. It had been very casual and they had not talked much. She had congratulated him on his second book, which had been much more successful then the first. He had told her he was happy she graduated from Yale. That was pretty much it. They didn't talk about Logan or the kiss that had happened in Philadelphia. He had a hundred things he had wanted to say to her but it just hadn't been the right time. And as always he had left feeling his heart ache for a relationship that had been long over.

He knew it wasn't right to marry someone when you loved someone else. He knew that he couldn't go through with this. Not with the way he was feeling at this very moment. He would never forgive him self if he did marry Katie. And he was sure she would never forgive him either. It would never work out. He would end up resenting her because she wasn't Rory. It had nothing to do with her and it wasn't her fault. It was just the way things were. The sad truth of it was he had been using Katie to try and get over Rory. He had not done it on purpose but that didn't make any less wrong of him.

He almost vomited at the thought of her standing there in her white dress smiling happily with her family as the minutes ticked on. He was so angry at himself for letting things get this far. He should have been honest with him self from the very start. He had just wanted to move on from the past so much. He had forced this lie on to him self and now other people were going to get hurt.

He was scared. He had never wanted any of this to happen and now that it was time to stop this he was scared. He didn't know what to say or how to say it. No matter what he did he was now the bad guy. That horrible guy that canceled the wedding ten minutes before it began because he was in love with another girl. He didn't know how he was going to face Katie. How he was going to tell her. She was going to be devastated. She would cry, he knew this. He couldn't bear to see her cry. To see tears that he was the cause of.

That's when he spotted the window. He couldn't. That would be even worse then what he was doing now. He shook his head with inward disgust as he paced around the room trying to decided what to do next. Seconds were ticking by and he was running out of time to do this. He wished he wasn't such a wimp. That he was braver. He wished he could just go to Katie and tell her the truth. He wished he wasn't afraid. He looked at the window again. He moved towards it and felt his very last shred of self respect disappear as he popped it open. He then walked back to the table and picked up a pen and a pieace of paper. He scribbled 'I'm so sorry Katie. I couldn't do it. I never wanted to hurt you and I just hope one day you can forgive me. I'm sorry, Jess'.

He was an idiot. He was horrible. He was an ass and he was a cowered. He was a 27 year old man who was about to crawl out of a window to escape his own wedding. It was most likely the most immature thing he would do during his adult life. But he just couldn't face all the people out there in the church. He had never hated him self as much as he did at this very moment.

"Your an unimaginable prick" He told him self as he climbed out of the window having no idea what to do next or what the future held for him.

TBC

A/N: Thanks for reading and reviews are always appreciated :)