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Summary: A certain Degrassi couple and their musings of each other. Not your typical pairing. Rated PG 13 for the type of pairing.
I can't believe that she could sleep so easily there. Being next to her like this kills me inside there is so much I want to do with her, to tell her, and to hear her words caress my ear. She'd probably go on with stupid stories about her and her dumb boyfriend. How he just bought her the perfect anniversary gift. Maybe the biggest reason I can't stand him is the way she talks of him and those gifts he gets her. Have I ever heard her speak of anything I've given her the same way? No all I get is this smile from her and a thank you. As much as it hurts maybe I have brought this all on myself.
I never complained much until sophomore year when I just couldn't hold it in any more. Her boyfriend at the time and her were on the rocks. But still I had to hold it all back from her. Other things were going on for both of us. I think I discovered that there were other people in the world than her. But some how I couldn't keep myself far from her.
By the end of the school year I was back to her. Then he had to go make everything screwy again. She was never the same after the whole incident. People she cared about left town and that made her fall in on herself even more. Someone at Degrassi saw her weakness and decided to play that up on her. And I could hate him for everything he did to her. I knew she was a good person but she was hurting. But even through all that she still didn't notice me. I had to move on again I found myself a temporary fill in for the space she left in my heart after that but it just couldn't work I wasn't in love with him. He thought that it had to do with someone else but how could I tell him that it wasn't about my ex but my best friend? That it was about what he could never be in his life?
Last year I went through my whole drama we were friends again and things seemed to be perfect again till dumb boyfriend came into the picture. He wronged me and she couldn't keep away from him even if to save her own life. I felt hurt I really did. I could sense something was up even before she confessed the transgression to me. That's why I was happy for a while that she gave me so much attention that the two of us had a secret.
Our lips were sealed with our secret. And for a while things were perfect we only had each other. A small bit of my fantasy had come true. But then I broke and saw that this secret was killing her. I couldn't be selfish and let my own wants and desires come before her health. I came out with her secret to her parents. It made things awkward in our bed for a while after she came back home. But still it was better with her back and healthy. It made up for the lonely feelings I had felt while in bed alone. I'm not sure if I could ever sleep alone with out her any more. A part of me wants to tell her what my boyfriend wants from me. He wants a solid commitment from me when he gets back from U.S.A but how can I do that when I don't love him, when I'm using him to cover up my feelings from the person in bed right besides me? She stirs a little and her hand some how so gently inadvertently caresses across my skin. A slight sensual sensation creeps up and down my spine. My boyfriend tries to do the same for me. I mean he keeps on trying with all his might when he visits but somehow I can't fake it much any more. I hope he doesn't figure out that I'm lying through my teeth now about how his touches affect me.
I hope she doesn't figure out what she does to me above all else. That I love her and want her, that I want to be with her above all other people in the world, that I want her to dump her boyfriend and give me attention already. But I know she loves him too much it's apparent.
We have class in less than four hours I need some sleep desperately. As I begin to fall into the darkness of sleep I think my last thought of the night. I love you Emma Nelson. Next Chapter: Emma's thoughts. AN: I know that this isn't a cannon couple at all but I love it all the same and it can work. And I don't mean for this to be any thing dirty just to get male attention. It's about love people. Depending upon reviews I can make this more than just a two chapter thing.
I can't believe that she could sleep so easily there. Being next to her like this kills me inside there is so much I want to do with her, to tell her, and to hear her words caress my ear. She'd probably go on with stupid stories about her and her dumb boyfriend. How he just bought her the perfect anniversary gift. Maybe the biggest reason I can't stand him is the way she talks of him and those gifts he gets her. Have I ever heard her speak of anything I've given her the same way? No all I get is this smile from her and a thank you. As much as it hurts maybe I have brought this all on myself.
I never complained much until sophomore year when I just couldn't hold it in any more. Her boyfriend at the time and her were on the rocks. But still I had to hold it all back from her. Other things were going on for both of us. I think I discovered that there were other people in the world than her. But some how I couldn't keep myself far from her.
By the end of the school year I was back to her. Then he had to go make everything screwy again. She was never the same after the whole incident. People she cared about left town and that made her fall in on herself even more. Someone at Degrassi saw her weakness and decided to play that up on her. And I could hate him for everything he did to her. I knew she was a good person but she was hurting. But even through all that she still didn't notice me. I had to move on again I found myself a temporary fill in for the space she left in my heart after that but it just couldn't work I wasn't in love with him. He thought that it had to do with someone else but how could I tell him that it wasn't about my ex but my best friend? That it was about what he could never be in his life?
Last year I went through my whole drama we were friends again and things seemed to be perfect again till dumb boyfriend came into the picture. He wronged me and she couldn't keep away from him even if to save her own life. I felt hurt I really did. I could sense something was up even before she confessed the transgression to me. That's why I was happy for a while that she gave me so much attention that the two of us had a secret.
Our lips were sealed with our secret. And for a while things were perfect we only had each other. A small bit of my fantasy had come true. But then I broke and saw that this secret was killing her. I couldn't be selfish and let my own wants and desires come before her health. I came out with her secret to her parents. It made things awkward in our bed for a while after she came back home. But still it was better with her back and healthy. It made up for the lonely feelings I had felt while in bed alone. I'm not sure if I could ever sleep alone with out her any more. A part of me wants to tell her what my boyfriend wants from me. He wants a solid commitment from me when he gets back from U.S.A but how can I do that when I don't love him, when I'm using him to cover up my feelings from the person in bed right besides me? She stirs a little and her hand some how so gently inadvertently caresses across my skin. A slight sensual sensation creeps up and down my spine. My boyfriend tries to do the same for me. I mean he keeps on trying with all his might when he visits but somehow I can't fake it much any more. I hope he doesn't figure out that I'm lying through my teeth now about how his touches affect me.
I hope she doesn't figure out what she does to me above all else. That I love her and want her, that I want to be with her above all other people in the world, that I want her to dump her boyfriend and give me attention already. But I know she loves him too much it's apparent.
We have class in less than four hours I need some sleep desperately. As I begin to fall into the darkness of sleep I think my last thought of the night. I love you Emma Nelson. Next Chapter: Emma's thoughts. AN: I know that this isn't a cannon couple at all but I love it all the same and it can work. And I don't mean for this to be any thing dirty just to get male attention. It's about love people. Depending upon reviews I can make this more than just a two chapter thing.