BLUE_: I'M NOT HATORI BISCO.

When You're Gone

Wheeew…

I never thought I could be this huge. I am now in my seventh month of pregnancy and my tummy's really big. Man, I could not even see my toes. Indeed, it is never easy to carry such weight.

Maybe that's why he left me…

It has been a while. I haven't seen or heard anything from him for a month now. Kaoru's not yet ready to be a father. And I perfectly understand. We are both young and we have no any idea on how it is to have a baby.

"Haruhi," It was dad's voice knocking from the outside. "Haruhi, I'm kind of worried. You've been in the bathroom for almost two hours now…Haruhi?"

"Dad, I'm okay. I'm done actually." I opened the door and stepped outside. And there, I saw Dad standing near the tiled sink with both arms locked across his chest. He has been with me since my husband left.

"Haruhi," I felt Dad's thumb caress my face. "Don't cry, my baby. Daddy's here. I will never leave you." He gently wrapped his arms around me.

Great. I'm crying again and I didn't even notice it this time.

"I hate that man," I felt his arms tightened. "I should have not given you to him."

"I love him, Dad. And despite of what he did, I'm still deeply, madly in love with that jerk."

"He doesn't deserve you, Haruhi. He ran from his responsibilities. That's exactly what a first- rate idiot would do."

Dad has been really mad with Kaoru ever since he ran away. Bu he knows how much I love my husband and that's the only thing that keeps him from hunting Kaoru to death.

I freed myself from Dad's embrace. "I want to rest, Dad."

He let out a deep sigh. Probably to cool himself. "Okay, let me walk you to your room."

I never dared to talk again when we're on our way to my room. Daddy either. I understand.

"Don't stress yourself too much, darling. It would do no good to your baby." I didn't know how he managed to smile like that. "Goodnight."

I only nodded in response. After gently patting my head, he turned around and walked straight to his room. I, too, entered in my room and dropped myself to bed.

I couldn't help but cry again. It has always been like this. I cry myself thinking of him until I fall asleep.

"Where are you, Kaoru?"