All That I'm Living For

by Lilysofheaven

What would happen if our dear old Kagome had more to deal with than just Inuyasha's disappearence? And where exactly is Kagome to begin with? InuXKag MirXSang I promise no smut..well only if you want..Reviewers are ALWAYS welcome!

I sat in front of the window, watching the last golden rays of sunlight shine in. Golden… Yes, I was one of those; I breathed the breaths, talked the talks, walked the walk, sang the songs, danced the dance, played the play, acted the act, and thought the thoughts… yes, the thoughts. The thoughts that haunted me where ever I went.

Where was my life going? Nowhere. Why was I alive? Because he loved you. Heh, loved. What was the meaning of it? '…' WHAT WAS THE MEANING OF IT? '… ' that was the only question I could and would never be able to answer. Why was their love? What did it do? Oh. Oh oh OH how easily I could answer that one. Heh, it revenged hearts, ate them from the inside outside out. Spoiled your days, weeks, months years! Filled your days with longing, hoping, prayers, tears! Oh god how many tears I have shed! And for what? Love. Yes love… but y? y did I ever fall into love's deceiving heartless trapping embrace? Why couldn't I have just said no that one night? If I had, then… then maybe… forget it, I know one thing for sure… if I had said no that one night, then I wouldn't have to deal with those two deep golden pools of laughter that stared at me lovingly, dependently, and in wonder, not that unruly silver hair, not that giddy little laughs, not those white satin ears that I always long to touch not the… not the.…, Tears started their way down my cheeks and proceeded to dribble down my neck…

My neck… he never let them reach there… he would always wipe them aside with a single caress of his thumb before they reached my neck… why? Why? Oh why?! Why was I thinking of him when it only causes me pain? Why do I do this to myself? I love him.. I love him so much… but what's' the point when loving won't bring him back to me… Anyways, all I know is that if I had said that simple two letter word, that word that would normally roll off my tongue with perfect ease, then I certainly, no DEFINATLEY wouldn't have to deal with what was sleeping soundly, just as He had countless times, in the middle of my bed… and I also know, that I'd be dead.