It is an enigma.
How I could feel absolutely nothing the least bit romantic for this kind, gentle man Narim who obviously feels a great deal of those feelings for me.
I thought for a moment that I was imagining that the warmth in his eyes was anything special for me.
Never mind that Daniel said he was asking a lot about me.
Never mind the joy and delight on his face, as he shared with me with the story of how he thought I was an angel when he woke up on his planet.
When I gave him the cat Schrodinger and he teased me about how he would be glad to stay on our planet, if only he could spend more time with me.
When he kissed me, all I could think of was why wasn't this someone else.
A sarcastic, direct, man who was the complete opposite of Narim in every way.
Rumpled clothing and hair that sticks up as opposed to Narim's perfect grooming.
A man that lives with passion in his heart and life, who will always say what is on the tip of his tongue, is full of humour and temper and honesty.
Not diplomatic and well- mannered.
But who can make me laugh, cry, and feel like a woman to the depths of my being.
The one I will always love.
Someday he will know.