A/N: Don't ask how this came to mind.
His smell, his touch, maybe it was his icy blue eyes. I don't know but there was something about him that made me do the worse thing that I can think of. I cheated on my boyfriend. My boyfriend is one of my best friends. At least he was my best friend until I kissed his beautiful lips. Until I ran my fingers through his long, flaming red hair.
My dear Renji. God I hope he never finds out about me sneaking out at night. I'd never want to hurt him. I know what you're thinking, "You don't want to hurt Renji but you seem to sneak out at night with someone else." But I want this, no I seriously need this. This guy gives himself to me. To me, even though I'm the enemy of the Arrancar. He doesn't care about that at all; he hates that side of me.
Don't get me wrong, Renji treats me just like he does. The love of his life. He comforts me when I get scared of the nightmares that wreck my sleep. He holds me and comforts me. He makes love to me. He protects me. I love being cared for; I love to be made love to. I feel safe when I'm around him all the time. I would, could and want to spend the rest of my life with Renji. As soon as this war was over I want to find a place to live in and share it with him. I wanted to marry him.
Before we can even do that I need to see what it would be like to have someone other than him. That's why I'm sneaking out. This guy, like I said earlier, gives himself completely to me. I mean when I meet him in the empty room, he is bound, blindfolded and gagged. His wrists are tied with pieces of silk, so are his ankles. He is blindfolded with the same type piece of cloth and a ball of cloth stuffed roughly in his mouth. He is totally nude, on his knees with his head down. I love how his hair goes down in front of his face. He should wear it more like that often.
He is so responsive. He listens very well, moving his head with each footstep I make. I slide a finger down his entire body. He shivers under my touch. "Can you be a little sexier?" I whispered into his ear. I pace around him a few times. I just don't know where to start; everything is so delicious and can take me to wondrous places. I must go to his lips; so I draw the gag out of his mouth and capture his lips.
He groans, wanting to be free from his bounds. I lick at the crock of his neck, down his lean chest to his belly button. His arches up to me. Pleading, "Untie me please I need to reach out and touch you. Please, just you."
He knows I can't stand his pleading. But I needed some control over myself. He is the only thing in my life that I can control. I tease him for who knows how long but I can't stand it any longer. In a rush of taking restraints off, I fuck the little bastard. Hard and fast, the way I've always wanted to.
He gives me a quick kiss before he leaves. "We'll have to do this again sometime." I muttered to him as I head back to Renji. Good, he didn't wake up.
"Ichigo, where did you go?" I hear him whisper as I slid into bed.
"I went for a midnight walk. Don't worry my love, I'm alright." He moves over so I can get in. I snuggle into his warmth. He soon falls back into his peaceful slumber.
I love this guy and I always will. And when this war comes to an end, I want to make a life with him. Maybe I'll be able to stop cheating on him by the time it ends. I highly doubt it. As long as I have that icy-blue-eyed guy, my intoxication, I won't be able to that. I hate hurting Renji. My intoxication is to blame for this. Damn you Grimmjow Jeagerjaques.