Jacob breathed heavily as the sharp fangs hovered centimeters from his neck. He felt his heart racing his blood rushing through his veins. The feeling of the icy breath ghosting over his neck. Jacob's mind buzzed and rushed with panic. Fear building inside of him as the fangs neared his awaiting flesh. And then-

"I can't do it!" Jacob said Edward groaned slightly resting his head down against the others shoulder. He lifted his head up again looking at Jacob. "I'm sorry Edward..ghh i can't fucking do it though!" he said.

Edward sighed, "It's okay Jacob really letting a vampire bite your neck isn't exactly the easiest thing to do," he reassured. For awhile now Jacob had tried to let Edward bite him..but he just could never go through with it.

"Yeah but," Jacob paused again. Edward looked down at him.

"Jacob...relax its okay you do know that our venom won't hurt you right?" he asked. Jacob nodded.

"Yeah I know..I'm sorry I just..i don't know i keep freaking out just before you do it." he admitted shamefully.

"Jake don't beat yourself up about it..do you honestly think that its easy to just lay back and let a vampire bite your neck...no. It's a hard thing to do Jacob..it takes time." he reassured.

Edward rolled off of the boy to let him sit up. Jacob sat up rubbing his head. It was about a month ago that this had all started.

It was a tough secret to keep after all, hiding it from the pack and the Cullen's. They had to very careful about when and where they met.

Jacob glanced over at Edward, "Hey...have you heard from Bella at all?" he asked. Edward looked at him and sighed.

"No..Jacob I wish you'd just let it go..you know how she feels about us now. Ever since I broke it off with her she's been like this..she's a lost cause Jake." he tried to explain. But he knew Jacob wanted Bella to be his friend still.

But ..they weren't good friends anymore..Bella was sore and angry at them. At Edward for leaving her and being with Jacob. And at Jacob for stealing Edward away from her. Plus the fact she was disgusted with them being together. You know being...gay.

Apparently Bella was not a supporter of the homosexual orientation...who'd have guessed.

Jacob frowned, "Yeah..I know." Edward hated seeing Jacob unhappy. After all when they had started meeting that long time ago. Every time he saw Jacob he was sad and in pain. Thats why Edward loved to make him happy.

After all that time and after that whole ordeal, after having to see Jacob crying and in pain. Edward only wanted Jacob to be happy now..he didn't want to see him sad anymore.

"Jacob...if she doesn't want to hang out with us..then we shouldn't want to hang out with her. Don't give her the satisfaction of knowing that after all of this that your still chasing after her. And that she still has a hold on you."

Jacob looked at him, "Yeah..I guess your right," he replied. "Hey Edward what time is it?" he asked. Edward looked at his watch.

"Um..it's about 2:00 Pm...why?" after all Jacob hadn't said he was going to be late for anything.

"Oh..we should probably get going," he said. Edward looked at the younger boy oddly.

"Oh really..and why's that?" he questioned.

"Well because I looked on the weather channel and its supposed to rain soon," he replied. Edward rolled his eyes..of course it was going to rain. Was there one day in Forks that it didn't rain!

"Lets go I don't want to get caught in the-" Jacob started to say when a loud crack of thunder broke his sentence. And rain poured down successfully soaking both of them within seconds.

Jacob sat there and looked up.

"Rain.." he finished. He looked around squinting through the rain. "Yeah..this is my kind of luck," he said. Edward smirked standing up.

"Yeah I guess mother nature hates you," he said sarcastically extending his hand to help the other up.

"She does!" Jacob exclaimed. Grabbing the others hand and pulling himself up, widening his eyes when the ground below him became soaked from the rain, thus turning it into mud. He slipped falling backwards and yanking Edward down as well.

Jacob grunted as he fell down with a loud thud. He groaned.

"Thats it something must hate me..either that or I am not eating enough Lucky Charms," he said. Edward picked his head up looking at Jacob. He smirked at him.

"Lucky Charms?" he asked. Jacob frowned.

"What I'm allowed to have a favorite cereal!" Jacob argued although no real aggression was held in his voice, he shoved the others chest off of him.

He groaned as he sat up, he made a 'yuck' face looking at himself.

"Fantastic...I'm wet, cold, and muddy!" he complained. Edward stood up again.

"Alright then lets get back quick okay?" Jacob nodded and stood up as well.

"So we're going back to our separate houses then?" Jacob asked with a slightly disappointed tone. Edward smiled at him slightly.

"Jacob..you know that we have to..they still don't know," he reminded. "God knows how they'll react to it.." he trailed slightly at that thought.

"Well...I don't know how your family would react..but I have a damn good idea of what my pack would do," Jacob replied. Edward looked at him signaling him to go on. "They'd flip out..Paul would probably go out on a rampage, Sam would have a huge argument with me..Hell they might even start a war!"

Edward would have made a joke at that...but..that probably wasn't far from what would happen. "Yeah you could be right...my family however I think might be more accepting...singling out a few members," he said.

"Rosalie?" Jacob asked not bothering to look at him.

"Exactly," he replied. Jacob shook his head..he didn't like that girl. Yuck!

"I hate snooping around like this though...my dad and my pack are still suspicious of why I was in that depression." Edward frowned again..again he didn't like Jacob to be sad..and it always stung when he thought back to what Jacob had been through.

"I know Jake..but what else can we do, right now we just need to play it safe alright?" Jacob frowned.

"Geez..play it safe how old fashioned are you?" Jacob asked. Edward smiled.

"Well..Jacob I was born in 1901..I may be a little old fashioned compared to you."

Jacob looked at him for a second, "You know..that makes me think. If you were technically born in 1901...and I was born in 1990" he said. He trailed off for a few more seconds. "That would make you like... 92 years older then me!"

Edward looked at him, "Yeah..so?" he asked Jacob grinned.

"Edward..wouldn't that make you a pedo?" he asked. Edward looked at him and rolled his eyes shoving his shoulder.

"Very funny," he said. Yeah Jacob was defiantly a child, well at least he acted like it. Edward stopped then.

"Alright..we should go to our houses now...we wouldn't want your pack sniffing me out," he said. And leaned over kissing him before parting separate ways.

Jacob groaned as he trudged to the Reservation. As he got more and more drenched by the rain.

He finally arrived at the Reservation and walked up to his porch and inside.

Billy looked over at him, "Jake what happened to you!" he asked noticing how dirty he was.

Jacob shook his head of the water, "Oh I got caught in the rain...ya know slid in some mud when I was walking back here," he said.

"Well go take a shower your tracking dirt everywhere," Billy said. Jacob looked at himself realizing he was tracking everywhere.

"Yeah kay, I'll go do that now dad," he said walking to the bathroom and looked back at the tracks he'd left. "I'll clean those up when I get out," he said running to the bathroom.

Jacob shut the door and stripped out of his clothes and turned on the water. He was upset that it had to rain..the rain ruined everything! Well...actually many things ruined their meetings. Yes it wasn't the smoothest of relationships but it was something.

Jacob stepped into the shower and sighed as the warm water hit him. He looked at the water for a moment before adjusting the temperature to cold instead. He shivered slightly when the icy water hit his bare skin but let out a contented sigh. You could say Jacob had acquired a liking to the cold.

After Jacob got out of the shower he dried himself off putting on some boxers, a pair of black shorts and a green t-shirt. He threw his dirty clothes in the washing machine and proceeded to start cleaning the mess he'd made earlier.

"So Jake what were you doing out?" Billy asked. Jacob was currently on his hands and knee's wiping off all the water and mud. He looked down again.

"Oh ..um I was really just going out to think," he replied standing up. "I'm going to go lay down in my room alright."

Jacob sighed as he walked into his room sitting down on his bed. He looked at the ground a few seconds before reaching over and grabbing his cell phone. He flipped it open scrolling down, and looked at Bella's number.

He found himself slightly disappointed to see he had yet to receive any texts or calls from her. He didn't know why he kept waiting for them. After all...if she hadn't replied for a whole month...you'd think he would have gotten the hint.

And yet he still sat there...waiting.

...

Edward meanwhile was sitting on his own bed thinking. He was thinking about Bella too...he did that when Jacob brought her up. He wished he would except it like he had. He looked over at the picture frame on his bookshelf.

It was of himself and Bella, it was the one Alice took of them at Bella's eighteenth birthday. He stood up looking at it and remembering what he used to have. Thinking about when she used to like them...when she wasn't disgusted with their presence.

He stood in front of the picture and looked at it, and then closed his eyes shaking his head slightly. He opened them again.

"Like I said Jacob..," he said and lifted his hand up and gently turned the frame over so the picture was now facing downwards. "She's a lost cause."

TBC

YAY i know i didn't expect to write it so soon but i had the beginning in my head and i was like...i have to write this down and then i started writing and viola-again..don't know how to spell- but lol I hope you like it ...I really had no idea were i got lucky charms from

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