Disclaimer: Sesshy and me havent married yet (only because i think hes cheating... if he werent youkai i'd slap the Baka)
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Chapter 1- Meet my Mind
Meiikai's POV
He did it again and I dont blame him, it's easy, too easy. I don't fight, not this time because I know that this will be the last time he sees me. I know this will be the last time he'll hurt me. He finally cums and wipes the sweat of his face with his hands. "You never get boring." my father smirked as he pulled up his pants.
I waited until he left the room until I ran for the door. I had to do this now, before I lose my nerve. I had to find someone who would kill me, slay me in any way. Why live a life that's not worth it, why live a life of pain when there's the bliss of death? It was calling me, I had tried to answer many times but in the end I realized I couldn't do it myself. as much as I hated the help of others I needed this more than anything. There was nothing else i desired, not even love.
My feet began to ache from my running, I was far from my village so I stopped and looked back at what was my housing, I couldn't call it a home. Mother had died long ago and now her face haunts my dreams, my father in his pain looked to me for satisfaction, claiming I was my mother's spitting image. I continued to wander, no place in paticular.
I decided that the first person that crossed pathes with me would be the last one I see. Since I refuse to ask for help and even if I did they would surely refuse to kill me I decided to trick them. I would get them so enraged that anger would their judgement and I would no longer be of this world, one that dispises me so...
I wondered who it would be, than I wondered why I cared. My twisted mind can even torment myself adding tho the the already existing angish. I longed for death.
(AN) dont ask i came p with this out of the bluea and was curious as to how people would react. R&R please and thnx
InaShioriInuyashazgurl (ya i no it's long)