"Cat!" yelled Jade, I waited for her to pounce on me like a lion any moment.
"Why the hell did you think that?" Tori snapped with anger yet her face was full of pure confusion. At first I only squeaked, afraid at any moment I would be torn apart by my two friends. I looked between them dumbly until Andre put a hand on my arm and calmly asked me to explain the story from the beginning.
"Okay, it went a little like this…"
Yay, I get to stay after school for singing lessons! I love singing because it makes me so free and its so cheery. I sometimes have issues explaining words and feelings (okay maybe all the time), but when I sing I can get the message across with my voice. Skipping allong through the empty hallway after school gave me time to let my mind wander, that made it easy for me to hear what I heard next. Maybe if I had been focusing on something like if unicorns could walk on rainbows I wouldn't have stopped at the voices I heard coming from the janitors closet, then this huge mess would never have started.
"You, you're so aggravating!" hissed a familiar voice like a posionous serpent.
"Why? Why do you hate me so much still! I have always been nice and for a while I thought you were actually trying to make an effort to be friends, but no. You still hate me." Another familiar voice replied with an effort to sound angry but came off more as desperate.
"Because you have it so damn easy Vega and still you manage to get people's sympathy on your petty problems."
Jade and Tori?
"You're jellous people care about me?" Tori asked in shock, her voice becoming muffled as she lowered it.
"No, I think your pathetic and whine to much, you wouldn't know real problems if they slapped you in the face"
Here is where things became hard to hear.
"…sorry…I'm to whinny… never noticed you…going through problems…your own. I… should… paid…attention."
"I'm sorry to, …been dealing…..stress."
I am starting to get interested in this conversation and I've forgotten all about singing lessons. It's okay, is used to me being late because of distractions. I quietly tip toe through the hall and crouch when I reach the janitor closet door, putting an ear to the cold wood.
"What have you been stressed about? Maybe I can help." Hope filled Tori's voice. Jade huffed at the suggestion.
"Nothing you can help with, it's just my dad. Your parents are so nice and they always approve of you and support you. My parents hate me." Jade sounds vunerable as she sighs.
"They don't hate you Jade. They may not approve of your choices, but they must love you."
There was a pause and then the sound of Jade's laughter.
"Thanks, for a moment there you didn't seem so bad"
"Only for a moment?" Tori gasped, mocking hurt.
"Fine, I'll make an effort" Jade said and I knew she was grinning.
"Yay!" Tori cheered. I heard footsteps near and quickily backed away from the door, a little to soon though. The footsteps stopped and I heard tori speak once more.
"Someday they… support you being a …esbian." There was silence and then the footsteps started again. Being startled, I ran down the hall of the school and pondered the past conversation.
"What's an esbian?" I asked myself as I arrived at my singing lessons.
"Hey Andre, hey Robbie" I grinned as I greated my two guy friends who were seated at our lunch table. I was glad I reached the table before Jade and Tori because I wanted to talk about the conversation I overheard yesterday. It was obvious what they were saying was important and I've never understood important topics, they make my brain hurt. That's why I was going to ask the guys. Maybe then I could help Jade with her problem, I love helping friends. I sat down between the two boys and began to pick at my chicken taco, waiting paitently for them to end the conversation they were having.
"So you don't think it's possible? Even if there was some crazy strength enhancing radiation?" Robbie asked. Andre rolled his eyes and I was starting to become a little excited to aske my question, my paitentance already was now wearing as thin as Trina's new top.
"Now where in the hell would you find 'strength enhancing radiation'?" Andre asked as if Robbie were stupid.
"The government could be keeping it a secret from us!" Robbie exclaimes. Andre groaned and shook his head, his dreadlocks swinging a bit.
"Look, a zombie could never move fast, they are rotting corpses."
"True, but what if-" I cut Robbie off from his argument because of my growing egearness to ask my burning question. I began to do what I usually do when I'm excited, bounce in my seat.
"Whats an esbian?" I asked quickly. Robbie and Andre gave each other looks and then Andre looked back at me, a bit confused.
"You mean lesbian?" he asked. Could she have said lesbian? I didn't hear very well…
"Yeah I guess that's what she said" I shrugged.
"Well, it's a girl who…likes other girls" Andre explained almost uncomfortable.
"I like other girls, don't most girls?" I was confused at this point. Why haven't I heard of a 'lesbian' before? Andre and Robbie laughed a bit and both shook their heads.
"No, it's a girl who likes girls, like a boy likes a girl." Robbie tried to explain to me. Oh I get it! Like my uncle and uncle, except with girls.
"Okay I get it." I blushed.
"Yeah it's just a girl who is gay" Andre added. Wait, I'm confused again…I'm gay, but I don't like girls like that. I'm happy and cheery and joyful, that's what makes up Cat!
"Wait I'm gay but I don't like girls like that" I said. "I mean obviously, look how cheery I am!" I poked Robbie in the arm. He laughed and looked at me like I was stupid.
"A different kind of gay, Cat." He smiled. Oh I guess I get it, there is two different meanings for 'gay'.
"Oh okay" I blushed again at my airheadness. The boys laughed.
"Who was talking about lesbians?" Andre asked. Oh yeah the conversation from yesterday.
"Tori said to Jade something about how her parents will be able to accept her being a lesbian someday." I told them and began to eat my taco as my stomach growled. Hmm I wonder if bunnies would eat tacos… I hadn't even noticed the long silence until Andre broke it.
"Cat! Don't tell anyone what you just told us, okay?" Andre said urgently. I jerked my attention back to my friends and noticed that both had shocked and panicked looks. I nodded but was confused. I was about to ask another question when Beck, Jade, and Tori finally sat down with their food.
"So what are you talking about" Tori asked cheerily. Andre and Robbie gave each other awkward glances and I was the one to speak out.
"I was asking them if bunnies would eat tacos!" I said, pretending to be naïve. Jade rolled her eyes and mumbled something rude. The rest of the day Andre and Robbie acted weird near Jade, I wondered if it was my fault.