Okay, I wrote this mostly on a whim for Rosawyn's "Dr. Seuss Quote" challenge. I'm pretty sure I took this way out of context and went overboard on the angst and drama...
[You ought to be thankful a whole heaping lot]
Ingrate is a word thrown at you a lot. Whenever you are daring enough to be heard instead of seen, or worse, both. Whenever you injure yourself and require care, or request food because the stomach pains keep you up at night. Most blasphemous is when you breath because you require air to live.
The word is an ever-constant presence in your life-accompanying you at your lowest-the slaps and nights spent alone and locked away. It even follows you into the better moments of your life-not spoken by others, but by yourself. "Ingrate," you whisper when you are taken away from your old life, only to be brought back after wishing for far too much.
Hope is not allowed in your life. If you delude yourself into thinking you might be happy, it will inevitably be taken away, and then you'd shatter. You are terrified of being proven right.
You did dare to hope once-put faith in a long lost guardian-but he ends up running away and is long gone, letting you down like all the rest. After that you close your heart off to other people and slowly start to freeze again.
It is not easy to be the hero-all your failures are painfully pointed out-and any successes bare no praise-after all, its part of your job description.
Whenever you despair and sink to your lowest, you recall your Uncle's favorite word, "Ingrate" and remind yourself you don't deserve any of this and are lucky to be alive and provided with any sort of care at all.
You've finally had enough, but sadly your cupboard isn't big enough. You decide on your cousin's second bedroom instead and hope your relatives don't mind the mess.
You are supposed to be a symbol-of hope, kindness, the end of war. But your corpse holds no meaning at all.
Tada. So, is this ok? I've never really done second person before and was nervous about posting this. Usually second person ends up being fantastic or horrible in my experience.
3/14/11