Hey all! I wrote this story weeks back but was too lazy to post it...and there were my EOY's too. This is super angsty in a way. I don't think it will make you cry, but I think it'll cling to the ends of your heart. The structure of this prose is kind of awkward...but if you get the way this prose is structured, *HANDS VIRTUAL COOKIE^^* This is pretty much inspired by what I see around in my life and well, I can't stress more about the importance of paretnal love, so if you are a parent, please do not do this to your kid. And if you experience stuff like this, do know that you are not alone. So, please enjoy^^
Disclaimer: Shino and his dad are owned by Kishimoto. I only own Shibuya (Shino's older brother in the story) and Shino's mom.
Forgive me…
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Dirty… Dirty blood.
It burns my hands… My pure hands…
Disgusting… Get it off me…
I hate it.
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Forgive me…mother…
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Is there such a feeling called pain?
Maybe there is…
When I pull the trigger,
Will it end it all?
Most probably…I think
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For killing him,
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Dear trigger,
Will you help me to end my suffering?
Kill the guilt and hurt?
Really?
I'm thankful…
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Your precious son,
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I feel light…
Am I dying soon?
Trigger,
Have you done your job?
I can hardly catch my breath now.
Good job.
Sorry, But I won't be able to celebrate with you though…
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Shibuya.
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I never thought I had to end my life like this…
Not even once…
It's all because of him…
He is my curse,
My eternal thorn.
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You only love him,
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A cocky grin covers his ass-hole face
It taunts me like hell.
I hate him.
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And will never
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He looks far worse than me…
Probably already dead…
Common villagers won't survive a short stab,
Unlike us ninja.
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Love me,
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Someone's coming.
Probably you.
You're going to scream when you see what I've done…
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The way you love him.
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Urgh…Your voice is too shrill
You're going to make me deaf.
You are only shaking him…
What about me?
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Since young,
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Father's here too.
He's walking towards me.
He knows.
He knows everything.
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He was your precious jewel.
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Father is lifting me up.
He places me across his back.
It warms me.
His back, that is…
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Your only son.
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This is so nostalgic.
I can live with this forever…
You are walking my way now…
Highly likely to beat me up.
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He whines to you like a baby,
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You start beating me,
Even though I'm assumingly dead.
That son of yours is your life.
I'm dying yet you don't care.
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For the stupidest reasons.
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You scream and shout,
Demanding me to bring him back.
Do I look like I care?
Not even one bit…
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He pushes every single mistake to me,
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Father is now rushing me to the hospital.
"He is not dead" He says.
You become more agitated,
And tell me that I deserve to die.
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And you punish me for it.
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"You are not my son!" You seethe,
Walking away,
Continuing to mourn for his death
Your words shatter my last will power…
It's getting dark…so dark…
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You never loved me. Not even once. I was never yearned for, always ignored.
I am an unwanted child.
After you had him, having me was just a nuisance.
You were going to abort me, but father managed to stop you.
I was never your pride or joy.
I was a curse,
A clinging curse.
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Maybe in my next life you'll love me.
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I hate you so much that
I love you
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So much,
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I'm even giving my last breath,
To you.
Do you or any one you know experience this? Hope you guys enjoyed it ^^ Please review and tell me what you think.