Playing With Fire
NAGISA
'Just take a deep breath, calm your electrical signals and blend', I just kept repeating that over and over, not that it helped much. All I was doing was walking through doors of my new school my first day of my senior year, no big deal it was only a school for troubled teens. Except for the fact that was not only new school but the new city as well, what could possibly go wrong? All I have to do is stay quiet and stay out of everyone's way.
Can't be that hard it's what I always do, it's how I get through life be invisible. That's how it was at my last schools and that is how it will be at this one too. Just hopefully this time the teacher won't completely forget I even exist. Thanks to my invisibility the dumb teacher marked me away for a whole term due to the fact that he thought I was just a kid who never showed up or dropped out and thus ignoring my name on the role. It was all thanks to that as way I ended up in this school in the first place
Luckily the layout of the school was pretty simple thus eliminating the need to ask directions and therefore helping to keep me invisible for longer. Not that people would remember who I am even if I spoke to them, I tend to leave that little impression. Once I got in to the classroom I looked at the set out six rows across and five deep, now I needed to decide where to sit. Front row made you seem a little to eager but back two rows gave the opposite effect so second row should do pretty well.
Next was which side of the room? Against the window screamed 'pick me, I'm not listening' and on the door side it had a similar effect, however you don't want to sit right in the middle because that would mean that if people wanted to sit in the same row I would be in the way of that thus drawing attention. Then factor in that I didn't want to get caught up in the rush of leaving therefore the best place for me to sit was second row, second seat in from the window.
There was still another 15 minutes till class started and most people was still in the hallways or in the yard but that were at least seven in the room with me. Meaning I won't stand out as the first or last person in the room. Had to say as in quite well today which meant something was going to fuck it up to an epic scale. Before I knew it the bell has gone and the room is filling in and so it started. I had a girl in each side of me great, just great and to think I have not even made it into the first break yet. See I had unfortunate luck in life to have quite feminine looks and I was shorter than average for a guy my age as well as the fact that my mom made me grow my hair long.
She always wanted a daughter however she ended up with me not that that changed things she dressed my up as a girl as long as she could and only started letting me wear guys' clothes when I was older enough to voice my opinion and even then sometimes she would blitz out and the only way to silence her was to indulge her fantasies. All of this built up to the fact the when I was noticed I was more often or not confused with being a girl and now that I have two girls next to me that will only make people think it more.
to Hearing a commotion at the door I looked over in time see three guys walk in a short guy platinum blonde hair, wearing a bandana and really light blue eyes as well as an DON'T FUCK WITH ME look, a big muscly guy about six foot with two tone hair that gave off an air of BULLY and last a guy with short red hair, pale-ish skin, about two inches short than the big guy making him around five foot nine inches and these soul piercing golden eyes.
God he was gorgeous, and his air it was hard to read it was so complex there was smart, trouble maker, superiority, violent, manipulative just to name a few but the one that seemed to stand out the most to me was the one that screamed SADIST. There was not other way to say it than that he looked like he would take great pleasure in harming others.
Something had to be wrong with me even with all these waring signals I could not help be fascinated and want to know him, I simply had to be a total masochist to be acting the way I was. Nothing good could come of my interactions with him, luckily the three of them moved to the back of the room sticking to the door side. Against the wall was the tall guy next one in was the little light haired guy and in the third was the hottie. Even if I managed to talk to him let alone get to know him there was no way he was into guys, oh well out of sight out of mind that was the best motto for this situation.
All I had to do was get through the first two weeks and then I would slip into the background out of focus not to be noticed again. It was soon quiet as the teachers for the year walked in our main teacher was a tall guy with dark shaggy hair and dark eyes, the gym teacher was a guy with spiky black hair and piercing eyes, he was a tall and muscular build and dresses professionally in a black business suit with a white shirt and a black tie and last was our female teacher she was a young tall blonde haired blue eyed bombshell and she was there to boost the literature curriculum.
After a couple of days, I had learned everyone's names and to add insult to injury the hottie from the first day's name was Karma. What a fucking joke karma was a bitch after all not that I had done anything to deserve it that I know of at least. The two girls next to me were Nakamura in the inside and Kayano against the window and that was only due the girls introducing themselves seeing as I had no plans to do so. Nakamura had at first though I was a girl, no surprise there, but that was soon clear up although she still tends to joke about it at times. Kayano is a nice girl, she is sweet, smart and given time we may become friend.
Karma what a fucking name not only does it suit he it adds to his whole appeal. Luckily I had managed to fly under his radar so far which saved me from dealing with that ball of anxiety for now at least. However, as I would soon discover it was not something I could avoid forever but for now at least I was safe to keep that whirling ball of stress to my self.
That was fine till the universe decided to screw me over yet again, the teacher had us pair up which would have been fine there were 29 in the class. Unfortunately, there was a girl in the back row called Ritsu who did most her classes online and just videoed in when needed. I think both Karma and I were thought we could get away with out having a partner which lead the both of us to not have partners and his friend with the tow toned and and the platinum blonde hair partnered up. For me both Kaede and Nakamura had both chosen other people to be with leaving me on my own.
I thought that if I just sat and controlled my electrical pulse I would go unnoticed but today was not my day. The teacher we had was crazy good he captivated us all and he definitely knew I who I was in the class. All of this meant there was no escape and so both Karma and I were singled out by the teach and were partnered together for the project. There must have been some luck for me out there because gym class was about to start and it finished at the lunch break, meaning we would start the project after the break give me stew in my current circumstances.
Most would expect that I would be SHIT at gym class, however that is not case. You can't be invisible if you're being singled out as the worst in any given subject. Although I may not be the best I still like to be fairly fit, it was something I could take pride in. I studied a few martial art and weapon handling classes but my favourite had to be my ability to free run which meant using momentum and its speed to get around a course. I have no need to do anything fancy to let me stand out all I needed to do was blend in with the top middle tear of the class in gym and all would go well.
Gym class was not overly difficult, we started with a run as a warmup, then moved on to a game a badminton finished off with another run. When we were done with our run we went and changed out of our gym gear. There were only about eight of us in the locker room when I finished running so I went and found a corner and changed as fast as possible and got the fuck out. For the lunch break I found a nice quiet spot under a tree in the yard and got to eating my sandwich and muesli bar.
"Hey your Nagisa right? Why aren't you with the girls' form class?" the voice scared me stiff and wide eyed. Fuck me, not only had someone found me but they also thought I was a girl. I was in no mood to deal with this person … you had to be kidding me there was not only one but three and something was telling me that it was Karma and his two pals from class. The universe seamed to really like fucking with me. "Ahhh yer … it's Nagisa and is there a um reason why I should be with the a girls from class?," was all I could get out and it was most likely to get me bashed because of it. The three of them had moved around from the other side of the tree and my suspicions were correct it was the trio.
Fuck, Karma look amazing with the sun coming from behind him like that. It gave him this glow that screamed POWER. It was Karma who had spoken to me the first time as his voice was the same one that spoke again. "Good I was right," shit he sounded really cocky, "No reason really it's just that … well they're only ones you've really talked to so far," did that mean he was watching me, no that couldn't be it he should not have even noticed me and yet here he was. He leaned down a reach his hand out to me like he was expecting me to take it, was it rude not to take it or would he not care.
"Come on Nagisa, class is about to start and if I'm correct we are partners in the project this afternoon," the way he spoke to me was like talking to and old friend but one you had not seen in sometime so there was is stand offish politeness about it. The tone you soon become how we communicated. Taking his hand and using him as leverage to get up, it was weird when I grab his hand there was this odd change in the electrical signals one that I had never felt before. Shaking it off I let go of his and and we made our way to the room.