What I've Done
Summary: Sebastian contemplates his actions after "Michael." Short one-shot. For LoveMeSomeGlee.
Author Notes: Enjoy :D
Sebastian couldn't stop moving.
His heart flew in a panicked rhythm.
What-
The door to his bedroom slammed shut.
I-it was an accident.
The Warbler slowly slid against it until he hit the floor.
It wasn't meant for Blaine.
It was meant for Kurt.
Sebastian slowly exhaled into his shaking hands.
The police…
They weren't going to drag the police into this were they?
What proof did they have?
He looked up, misery in his green eyes replaced by rapid calculation.
But he didn't have any of the answers.
It was suppose to be Kurt.
The misery resurfaced.
Sebastian liked Blaine.
And now he was in the hospital...because of him.
He wanted to win.
He wanted to get Gay-Face out of the picture.
Permanently.
It didn't used to be like this, he exhaled roughly, it used to be just about singing and dancing.
Then Sebastian became the Captain and...something got a hold of him.
That mean spirited monster inside of him that wanted people to suffer.
That wanted to bring them crumbling down to his feet, no matter the cost.
New Directions was a big joke.
It deserved to be mocked and ridiculed until the cows came home.
Everything about it was funny.
They stuck out like a sore thumb.
His sharp tongue and sense of irony couldn't resist, it was too much.
But it was no longer funny too him.
For the first time, in a very long time, the fifteen year old had found the ugliest and darkest side to himself.
It was angry.
It was ready to viciously lash out at anything that came within its vicinity.
Even if that thing was Blaine.
Sebastian stared at his phone, 31 unread messages.
And It wanted more.
It was strange how he had never felt more alive, more in control than he did in that parking garage...yet at the same time everything spiraling at an alarming rate.
And Sebastian had never gone down this road before.
He didn't know where he would end up.
33 messages.
His lips parted, ready to scoff and ready to mock his fellow Warblers outrage.
He was ready to pass their anger off as an even bigger joke.
Because that's what this all was.
A joke.
And it couldn't cut any deeper inside Sebastian.