Hey guys, so this story basically wrote itself.. it's based on 5x05 so if you don't wanna be spoiled don't read... there is more to this if you want it just let me know, or it will stay as a one shot :)
There once was a time when I would've loved this moment, another story to tell my buddies over poker, hell it was the reason we first met; me, being a suspect for a murder. The first time it was fun, there was an element of excitement even in the beginning, during this first case there was still a small glimmer. Yet now, as I sit in a prison cell, my partner having just left, I'm stuck here unable to follow. How am I going to protect her, especially when her friends think I'm guilty.
Kate's on her own, out there, trying to save me, to keep me from prison. Because prison I've realised I could survive, but surviving losing her, that I couldn't survive. Luckily, I haven't experience losing her trust, or faith, or love? There was that case years ago about a couple, and the lengths a partner would go to free another from a sentence they didn't deserve… Well, Kate Beckett was going to great lengths to get me off the prime suspect list. But, I don't know if even her love, our love, is enough to get me out of this messed up situation. I keep thinking back to that moment, the moment when this wasn't a joke anymore, where this became too serious, the second I saw Kate break down in front of me.
My lip tugs at the corner, remembering back to last month, to when me and Kate were both in lock up, back at the Hamptons. When being in prison was nothing but an inconvenience to our sexcapades. Now, it still was, but more so, it was damming to my life existence. Hell, I could survive prison, I'd charm my way through it, I had enough connections to keep me protected, hopefully.
I always thought that if anything like this were to happen the guys would have my back, that I'd be out within a matter of hour's tops, just like last time. This isn't like last time. Last time I had a solid alibi. Last time I hadn't met the victim, didn't have a history with her. Last time, I wasn't hiding a secret relationship from the lead detective on the case. I never thought keeping mine and Beckett's relationship a secret would come to bite me in the ass like this. Javier Esposito, a friend, a college, doubting my innocence, and on a one man mission to get me to confess to a murder, a murder I didn't commit. If Javier knew about me and Kate, like Ryan, I've realised, maybe he wouldn't be gunning for me as much.
Telling the truth now though wouldn't accomplish anything, it would only make matters worse. Worse for me, as Kate would be off the case, and for Kate, well she'd be a victim. Everyone would see her as the girlfriend of a murderer. She'd be pitied, and doubted. Because how could a top class homicide detective not know her boyfriend and partner of four years was a murderer. Her career would never be the same, her life, never the same. All because of me, because I was keeping something from her, something I've still yet to tell her. Even as she is on a mission to clear my name, I'm still holding back, but for good reason. If I told Kate the truth now, it would inflict a worse pain than me going to prison for a murder I didn't commit ever could.
"Where were you Friday night?" I have an alibi, but I can't use it. I'd rather run the risk of being a suspect than confessing to what I was doing. For the murder I know I'm innocent, the evidence will clear me. Or at least I thought it would.
I never thought I'd be in this predicament. Holding onto a vital piece of information; something that could free me from life imprisonment, but condemn me to life of solitude. How do I choose? Either way I'm screwed.
Three days ago I had my future mapped out. The next few months of my life planned down to the last detail. I had to get this right. Three days ago, I had a future. Now, it's looking doubtful. All those plans turned to dust. Unless, unless I'm proved wrong, and love does really conquer all.
So what does everyone think? please review and i may update if you want more :D