True story of my life right now. i seriously can't sleep so you guys get this. warning have some tissues neat by, you'll probably need them. and if you can't figure it out this is supposed to be Rei's thoughts

I don't own Beyblade.

Worrying Nights

I brought you into the doctors the other day, I had to even though I knew you would hate me for it. But you had stopped eating and barely drank, what choice did I have? So they took you in and ran their tests. I got called much later that day with the results and make the decision for you to stay there for a couple days, and the doc said she'd call me tomorrow with an update on you.

That night was hard to sleep without you. No warm body pressed to mine and no purring in my ear. It's hard to sleep without my bedmate, but somehow I managed to drift off and dreamed of you all night long.

The next day I didn't wake until about 2pm, which as you know is odd. But sleep was ruff the previous night, so it's understandable. And ever since I woke, I had my phone ready to take the call, the call that never came. So tonight I have no clue as to how you are doing, wither or not you responding to the treatment, I hope you are.

But without this call, my mind if fearing the worse, will this turn out to like when I brought your sister in. And when I go to visit you, well you hold the same dying eyes she had with dulled fur? Will I fear to touch you for fear of hurting you? I keep asking myself these questions, and cry thinking of the answers.

The vision of how she was appears in my head but it's you this time. The pain is still too fresh in my from loosing her, I can't bare if you left me right now.

It's now 4am, and sleep will not take me like it did last night. My mind is too worked up about the what ifs involving you. What if when I dropped you off the other morning was the last time I would see you alive? Or what if this time, will I be able to be with you if then must put you down? I can't stand to think this way, but I see no light to this situation.

You are my longest and dearest friend. If you are taken from my life I will have nothing to keep me going. I know the others will worry about me, like I worry about you, but still I will not help but shut down once you are gone. Most of the time, you were the only one in my life keeping me here and helping me through the tough times. How can I go on without your help?

Please my dear, sweet Ripples, you have to get through this and live. I know that you are old and have had a good life, but I still need you. Call me selfish if you must, but I can't loose you yet, you are far too important in my life to die now. Fuzzball's death was tough, but yours will be far worse for me, cause I will have no one to cuddle with me and cry on, I'll be doing it alone this time. I'll be living a living hell should I loose you.

Please Ripples hang on and get through this. I know you can. And until you are home safe with me and Kai, will probably end up crying myself to sleep ever night cause I'm worried about you.

Hopefully tomorrow I will get a call, telling me you are alright and doing better. If not it will turn into another worrying night.

I'd say good night, but as you all know now, it's not.

thanks for reading