I'm a monster...My name is Berryclaw, my clan is Shadowclan. I'm always been getting teased because I'm small. But I'm afraid I might kill a cat.
Because I have, i-it happened when I was a young warrior. I was a warrior, I was with a she-cat. S-she w-w-was my mate. Her name was Lilysong.
I don't remember all of it but I do remember that she chose a cat instead of me. That tom's name was Nightshadow, he is a black muscular tom, everyone loved him.
When she told me I couldn't control my rage, we were next to a thunder-path, told me all I remember was red, black and a m-monster.
Then I stared in horror as I saw her dead body on the thunder-path, I t-think I attacked her because she was covered in blood and then a monster killed her.
I said it was a fox because I remember getting fox dung and I masked our sent in it. Ever since then I am trying to hide my inner monster.
I fear I will kill more clan-mates. So every day I try to hide the monster. "You'll never be a true warrior, your to puny and small unlike your brother" sneered Foxclaw.
That was my f-father. I feel rage boiling up inside me. I try my best not to rip his throat. I try not to do it. I run into the forest, maybe killing prey will help me.
Then I smell something, I follow it. I see a fox and 2 cubs, they care for each other. This makes rage boil up inside, to see something I never had, love.
Without thinking I attack the mother. It bit me but all I feel is rage, the fox struggles then goes limp. I turn to the cubs, they stare at me through terrified eyes.
I run over to them a-and break their legs, they whimper. Then after a long moment, about thirty minutes I kill them. I stare in horror at what I just did.
I truly am a monster. I am no cat, I'm more than a fox-heart. Why am I still alive when I'm a monster. I walk back to camp and se something horrifying.
You know how I said no one loved me? Well I lied 1 cat loved me it was my mother, Rainstorm. And there she was, dead in the clearing.
"No!" I yowl and race over to her body. "W-who did this?" I hiss in rage. Then I look to my side, my father has my mother's fur and blood on his claws.
"I'll kill you!" I yowl and lung at him. But I'm stopped, I look behind me and see the medicine cat, Hollyberry. "Don't, the leader will take care of it." she said calmly.
"I know what your thinking, I read minds and I'll help." she whispers. A day passes, I still feel rage and anger inside me. My wounds from the fox has been treated.
"Follow me." she says. I hesitate, what if I kill her too? But something tells me to keep moving, I listens to it and follows the she-cat through the pine forest.
Why am I alive, Starclan? I'll only kill me cats. "Because your in a prophecy." said Hollyberry. I stare at her in shock, "What's t-the prophecy?" I am still shocked.
Hollyberry sighs then says, "It's says that."