A/N:
So I know what you guys are thinking: two multi-chapter stories all at once, it'll never happen! Well, I may not update everyday, but i'll sure update when I can. The thing is, I had an idea. I want to use Cassie again, cause I find her easier to write about. So basically, without giving away too much, this story could confuse you. I'm not going to tell you what happens, cause that would be silly. All i'm going to say is that it's sad. Each chapter will be in a different member of the glee clubs POV, the first one being in Sam's, who was Cassie's best friend. Cassie is paired with Puck in this story. It may confuse you slightly on the first chapter, but don't stop reading! All will become clear after. Here goes:
I sat on my bed, clutching the package. Hesitant to open. Of course I didn't want to open it. What was inside probably had the power to mentally destroy me. Cassie. Cassie was inside. Well, her voice was inside. I could tell. She always said that if she died, then she'd leave me a message, and if i'm honest, i'd forgotten about that. I was too wrapped up in the fact that she had died. I hadn't really noticed much else.
That day was the worst of my life. The day she died. It had only been a week ago. I called her, I called her cell phone, I called her house phone, I called her brothers phone. No answer. It wasn't until I made the final call that I realised it was my fault. If only i'd of got there sooner.
I called by her house last, only to find her there, lying lifelessly. Her family were out. She was here, and she was dead. If only i'd of got there sooner.
No one really knew how she died, we just know she was suicidal. I didn't want to know how she died, thank you very much. It would destroy me even more.
I slowly opened the package, revealing the tape. My hands were shaking insanely and I felt both fear and sadness overcome me all at once. Not a very good combination.
I placed the tape into the machine, gulping as I pressed play, her voice filling the room instantly.
Hey Sam! I hope you're okay, its Cassie here. Now today, for once in your life, I want you to close that guppy mouth of yours and just listen. Cause I have lots to say. I'm going to tell you the story of my life, and more specifically, where, when, how and why my life ended. I always promised i'd leave you an audio! I never break promises, do I? Now, when you finish with this tape, I want you to pass it on. I need you to pass it on, Sam. Its important. Everyone who had, even the slightest role in my death, or even in my life, has an audio on this tape. I only want you to listen to yours though, cause each one is personal to that person. I want you to pass it on to Santana, and on Santana's tape, it will give her instructions of whom to pass it on to next. And no, Sam, i'm not crazy. Each person who recieves the tape was special to me in some way, I swear. Now why would a dead girl lie? Ha, that sounds kind of like a joke. Why would a dead girl lie? Quite a joke huh? I have a challenge, try and find a funny punchline to go with that. You can tell it to me when you come up to heaven, hopefully we'll all be old and wrinkly by then. Did you find that funny? I did. C'mon, laugh. I suspect you haven't done an awful lot of that lately. I suppose thats my fault. It was selfish of me to take away all your happiness. But if you listen. you'll find out exactly why I did it.
I was crying by this point, I had to pause the tape. Her voice. her sweet, sweet innocent voice. I took a deep intake of breath and dried my tears, before pressing play once more.
Lets go back to that day, the day my world came crashing down. And no, i'm not talking about the day I died, i'm talking about the day I found out I was pregnant. Ha, I bet now you're frowning. I bet you're thinking: 'Cassie didn't get pregnant, what a load of bulshit, what is she getting at here?' but remember what I said Sam, Why would a dead girl lie? Exactly. I did get pregnant. I didn't tell anyone, nobody at all. I was too ashamed of myself. I should of known how stupid Puck was. Anyway, i'm not getting into that. I need you to keep focus. One more thing too: don't tell anyone, I need you to keep this a secret. What's said on this tape, stays with you and only you, each and every person will find out at a different time. So, I got pregnant, I was ashamed, yada yada yada. Then, my dad died. My life literally flashed before my eyes on that day. He overdosed. As you know. I couldn't deal with it all. Blaine, my mom, Cooper. They were all in bits, and i'm the middle child, surely Cooper should of taken control, but he couldn't. Life became increasingly difficult after that. I had all this pressure, exams, and graduation was near, and nationals for both glee and cheerios. I couldn't obtain it all. I became thinner, as you probably noticed. I looked a mess, and I never slept. Puck noticed, and he became distant. You noticed, and you became distant. Maybe it was just me distancing myself away from everyone, I became enclosed. My baby bump began to show, and my body couldn't take it. I miscarried. I didn't think of it as a big deal, but it fucking hurt. Anyway, so my life was insanely messed up. I couldn't concentrate, I was failing in class. I had nowhere to go, and nothing to do after graduation. So the idea came to me, I was in math class. It didn't surprise me, I mean, math class is where most kids feel suicidal, but I was serious. So I went home, I skipped glee that day remember? I'm sure you were looking for me. Probably why you called me about 100000000 times. Thats why I made this audio, just to keep you in the loop about what's happening. Obviously i'm making this tape before I die. Or is this my ghost? Oooh scary! No, i'm actually about to die. After this. Anyway, I came home, and I went to the bathroom, and I got out some pills. The pills are right here actually! Listen!
I paused the tape once more as she shook the pill bottle. Grimacing at the thought of her making this video. She sounded so happy. Was she really that desperate to die?
Anyway, so, I decided I want to take a leaf out of my dad's book. Its not like anyone would miss me anyway. So, the rest is history really. You know what happens next, just as well as I do. But i'm going to have to go now, I have to get these tapes done and get this over with before mom comes home. Oh and Sam? SMILE! Enjoy life! I know I enjoyed my life, and I want you to enjoy yours! You only get one life, Sam. Don't waste yours mourning over me. Take care, I love you. I love you I love you I love you. I fucking love you Sam Evans, don't you ever forget that. Best friends till eternity, right? I love you again, stay well. And look after yourself, and watch over Blaine for me. Thanks for everything, I owe my life to you.
And with that, the tape faded. She was gone.