I haven't done much on this site for a while, I know that. I apologise. I haven't had much insperation much with any new story or new chapters for the existing ones. Again, I apologise. But I had a surge of insperation since watching an episode of Danny Phantom. Yeah, it probably isn't the best and maybe Sam is out of character a bit, but whatever. It's just something I felt like writting as a birthday present to me. Enjoy.

Sam's POV

Ugh! Sometimes science is so freeking boring. Lancer teaching us about the moon phases isn't very interesting. And after that whole deal with that jerk a few days ago, I'm so not in the mood. I'm so skeptical about everything right now, especially stuff like relationships, but why do I care?

Yeah, okay. So maybe I am a little pathetic. I mean, what? I'm fifteen and never really had a boyfriend if you don't count Gregor or whatever the hell his name was. I don't count him. He wasn't a real person, so he wasn't a real boyfriend. We kissed once, and that, in my opinion, wasn't anything. We weren't an "official" couple, just one date.

I have never had a boyfriend, so does that mean I'm suppose to be a lip virgin? I'm not, 'least I don't think so, so does that make me a whore? Yeah, I guess maybe I am a bit. I did do a bit of kiss-and-tell. Or did I? The only reason I had to fess up to the kiss with Gregor was because Danny did a watch-a-kiss-and-tell. Asshole.

Let's see....who have I kissed? Danny once, but that was to make Valerie loose our tail. A "Fake-out-make-out," as Tucker coined it. It didn't mean anything, did it? Now that I think about it, why the hell did I do it? What did it mean? Did I just want an excuse to taste his lips, or was I really trying to help him?

Tucker.....disturbing. That was all one big misunderstanding! That also didn't mean anything. That was just a mistake. One big mistake that made me rinse with mouth wash for forty-five minutes straight. Bleh!

Dash....even more disturbing! Again, that was to make him run off. I mean, who in the world would wanna kiss me? It made them all run for the hills!

…..Except for Danny. Danny didn't. He looked memorized......*sigh.*

Okay, back to the subject. Anyways. Once again we come back to "Gregor," but like I said above, I don't count that.

So am I just technical? Or am I just in denial?

Then again, I've never really had a crush, really. I liked Tucker for just a LITTLE bit, like two hours, in the third grade. That was IT! Yeah, yeah. Laugh. But if you had been in my situation back then, you wouldn't be laughing so much, jackass.

Now we come back to Danny. I never really saw him as anything but a friend. A really cute friend who understood everything, who was always there for you no matter if he agreed or was busy. The best friend who has raven hair and clear water blue eyes and......holy crap!

Where am I going with this? Is this just trying to help me sort out all of my feelings after this whole fiasco? Am I just trying to figure something out? I'm just looking for answers! Help!

Why am I thinking about him like this? Like I said, I haven't really thought about him like this since.....Paulina. *Clench Teeth* Grr. I hate that slut. GO TO HELL! Anyways, but......I don't know. Do I.....*gulp* like him? Could I actually see me and him actually being together? Being a unit, two peas in a pod, together, holding hands, whispering in each others ears, couple?

Okay, so maybe I could see it. Maybe it was actually jealousy when him and Valerie were together. Maybe I wanted to be the one on the Ferris Wheel together, laughing and having a fun time. Maybe I've always, deep down, wished for it or dreamt about it. I mean, I dunno. I'm just a teenager. Maybe these are just the hormones talking.

I'm saying maybe a lot, aren't I? That means I am unsure. I dunno how to sort all of this out. Ok. What do I see in him? He's funny, adorable, and gives some awesome hugs.

K. So if I ended up falling for him, is that the best option? Would it just lead to heartbreak? What would he see in me, a pale, goth, not-so-feminine friend whom he's known since pre-school and probably sees as more of a "sister" than a romantic relationship. I'm probably so deep in the best friend hole that I'll never get out. He probably thinks of me as more of a Jazz person, minus the uptight intelligence part. More of a girl who's is also always there for him and care about him and not as much a Paulina person, again minus the preppy pink side, and wouldn't be attracted in that sort of way. It would probably be SO difficult to break that "best friend girl" mold that it would probably just end up being a failure.

Note to self: Stop over analizing EVERYTHING!

Danny also is WAY too caring towards his friends. He'd prolly say that we could never be together because all of his enemies would be after me like flies to a dead body to trap him, and he could never let anything bad happen to me. He doesn't realize that I would love him, and he's more important to me and that I wouldn't care about being in "danger," just that I was with him. It's like, if I had died like that, at least I died happy.

It probably will never happen. He loves Valerie or Paulina, who are completely different from me. If he likes preppy girls like that, then I'm probably not his type. That's something I can't change. I want him to be happy, and if that includes not being with me because he doesn't love me, I can deal. I just want someone to be honest with me. I'd rather cry over the truth than smile over a lie. I want him to be happy, even if I'm not.

Holy shitaki! From all of the stuff I've been going over, I actually think I like him. All the signs are there. I get red when he's around, my hands get sweaty, I studder sometimes, and heart races so bloody fast, I smile a lot, and everyone says we're a couple. And according to Wikipedia, those are signs of, "Limerance," the 'scienctific' term for a crush or something like that. Grr! I hate being a teenager! It's all so fucking complicated!

Yeah, okay. I have a crush on it. I admit it. I've always known, but I've been too scared to admit it. Yeah, I know, Sam Manson being scared. Is the Apocalypse near?

Maybe that's why I've always critizised couples, relationships, love in general, and all of Danny's crushes. I'm just scared because I think it'll never happen to me. And it probably never will.

Hey, 'least I'm honest.

Yeah, I like him. I like Danny Fenton. I like Danny Phantom. I like BOTH sides, not just one or the other like some people. But that's probably not good enough. He doesn't like me.....or maybe he does or will one day. I dunno. Maybe I should give more hints towards him.....Only time will tell what happens, I guess.

Or maybe I'm just being an over-analyzer. But, hey, that's just me.