I loved Soul to the end of the earth. But I think he did for a while so I can't really complain. Tonight is the last day of school, graduation and the prom however I don't Think I will be going, I have been the loser and the person everyone picks on for so long, and soul seemed to heal that.
but I guess I was wrong.
he didn't want to break up, well not my heart anyway he just did because he fell for someone else. I don't blame him I mean could you? Could you blame someone to love, even when it's not you? When I looked into his eyes and the way he looked at her. I new.
i had to let him go.
so I told him to go to her and be happy despite my feelings, we only went for a year and that was enough. I smiled at the memory. I'm a grown woman now eighteen, having lost my V-plates but that's alright I think. Souls getting ready and I know he will be handsome.
and I wasn't wrong.
he strolled out and asked how I look. I replied with a great he smirked and asked if I was coming, I said that it's a waste if time to me and he shakes his head and mutters book worm in the best way possible. I almost felt the tug to go to him, but I new I had to restrain.
i laid and my eyes scanned the words, but I couldn't make out one word. I put it down I'm giving up now, he was my weapon and I new everyone hoped that we would you know. But then again there is always that word there is always an if.
so I slump my body of the coach and stroll to the window, my face is black and empty in the window, my eyes vacant searching for life but will never come. Like water in an endless draught, I cried silently the tears streaking down my face, but my face remains still.
i decide to clear my head.
i walk out and go wherever my feet take me. I stroll across the pavement surrounded by the living. It feels like your an anchor and your watching in the fish move around with there lives. And your just a lump of metal. That how I sure as hell feel.
then I decide in the back on my head, a fleeting thought almost as quick as pages in a storm flicking, my location is to the pier. I walk there aAnd I am greeted with the smell of salt, and the blue sark sea, so gentle and the laughing moon imaged in the sea.
i smile at it wondering when the next time I will find this peace, then I break and cry. I full out cry and when I do, my tears become one with the ocean. I liked the idea, it made me feel like I belong somewhere, because ever since the break up I feel dispatched and dropped on the freeway.
after I cry my heart and soul out. I stop my face red and my head aching like taps of a hammer. I cry all the way back, and listen as the waves roll I. Gentle, like a hand smoothing doe.
...
the last party was full blast, and everyone was enjoying themselves. There were groups saying goodbyes and recounting memories, laughter and people crying mostly girls though. Everyone was in there group including team spartoi, and everyone was laughing and chatting, soul with his girl friend, Taylor.
" Hey where's Maka." Asked patty.
" I asked and apparently it's a waste of time" Said Soul like it was everyday.
" Funny I text and she said she took a walk to the pier" Soul shrugged. " she's never been into parties"
" but I though everyone was" Said Taylor, she had white grey eye,and brown hair, and was beautiful to with an elegant body.
" Not book worm" she nodded
" LETS PARTY!" Yelled Blackstar drunk as a mad sailor.
...
finally after staring at the moon, like a lonely girl searching for love. I get off my knees and walked away, but I felt like I was walking away from the sadness. I felt better but the weight if my emotion dragging me down, even if my body worked perfectly.
i walked off the pier and slowly walked of the road like a depressed girl, even if I was, then I heard screeching like nails on the board, except louder, and the flash of lights in my eyes as i turned to search for the cause. Too eyes of lights searched me and my nosy tensed.
before I fell to the ground.
and I felt everything was peace full and still.
my emotions numb yet I still felt tears down my face.
the world eased to a slow pace.
peace clouded me and took me.
then so many faces I haven't seen before looked at me there voices drowned.
and the edges of my vision was turning to black.
and before my vision was gone I whispered the meaning of my life.
"Soul"
then everything stopped.
and I was gone
...
the next mourning I woke with a head ache. I was drunk mad last night and I heard noises from the kitchen, I put some jokes on and a shirt to scare Taylor but when I went out I found her in a lip lock with my own brother. I felt rage serge me like a snake.
" Get out" was all Iyelled.
and she did with a huff. I watched her go along with my brother, and felt so wasted, not that kind but wasted. I lost my virginity to a gold digger, and that's the biggest humiliation for a guy, so uncool. Then the phone rang I looked and I heard Blackstar.
and he told me.
of Maka's death.
and then everything was slow.
and my heart stopped.
my breath evaporated.
mak was gone.
i aksked how.
a car
a car took the most strongest person I now.
She was only eighteen.
when I broke Uo with her I thought that...
she would find someone better.
but she never even go the chance.
maybe if I hadn't broke Up with her...
she might of been alive.
but it's too late.
shes gone.
" I'm sorry"
was the last thing I said before
I watched what she would of seen.
before she died
"Maka"