No, it is not possible that i Katniss Mellark (previously Everdeen) could possible be pregnant. But the 3 tests in front of me suggested otherwise. I didnt even know if Peeta wanted kids, we never mentioned it and we were careful so i dont know how this could have crept up on us. Its been 5 years since the rebellion, 5 years since i last saw Prim, it still burns my heart every single day to think of how i stood by and watched her die. 3 years since Peeta proposed to me and i changed my surname from Everdeen to Mellark.
It turns out that Finnick Odair did survive the lizard muttation attack and went back home to his wife Annie Odair and his son, Adrian. They settled back into their new life as we did. This just shot up on me. Im 22 years old, to young to be a mother and i dont even know if i want to keep this child, i could just go to a private doctor and have an abbortion without anyone needing to know. I dont linger on this thought long as a rush of morning sickness floods over me. Great, now im going to have to deal with throwing up every morning.
i decide to give Haymitch a visit to see if he can advise me on what to do, he is my mentor of course. I take the sort walk to next door and push the door open. I am surprised that the smell of liquor dosent hit me as i walk into the living room. Haymitch is sat on the couch with a cup of strong smelling coffee in his hand "A knock would have been nice!" He says. "Well, the chances are that you wouldnt have answered, anyway i need your advice," I retort.
Just as i finish my sentence i feel it, the burning sensation running up my throat, i just have enough time to make it to the toilet to spill out my breakfast. Haymich kindly holds back my hair "your not pregnant are you?" he snickers. I gulp, is it that obvious? "Thats why i needed advice Haymich!" I say. He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath. "Does Peeta know?"He questions. "No, i was scared incase he didnt want this so i came for some advise, you are my mentor and all," I say.
"You need to think about peeta and realise how he is around children, he is brilliant and im sure he would take this whole situation as a blessing,"Haymich says in his rarely used, calm voice. I sigh, he is right, peeta will love this and he will support me. "Thank you Haymich and ill try to tell him tonight, i need to go now, he will be on his way home from the bakery soon," Say as i stand up to leave.
Now is the most difficult part, telling him. I start to prepare a meal of freshly caught rabbit stew and set the table nice and neatly. I notice that im shaking like a leaf, is it usually this difficult to tell your husband that your pregnant?
Just as i think that he walks through the door "Im home sweetheart!" He greets me. "I made you favourite, squirell stew," I try to say as calmly as possible but i still notice the edge in my voice. He walks though the doorway looking amazing as the sun catches his radiant blond hair, i hope our child takes that feature fom him, and his bright blue eyes. I dont know why i ever once questioned my love for this man, he is my whole life and beyond and i couldnt think of anyone better for me to bear their child!
He sits down at the table "This smells amazing!" He compliments me. I smile as my heart skips a beat, maybe its the twinkle in his eyes or the faithfullness of his voice. "Peeta, i have something to tell you but please dont freak out!" I ask. "Of course i wont," He replies. Come on, just say it, it cant be that hard to just say 'Im pregnant'. I dont know whats come through me, i just have to muster up the courage. "Im pregnant,"I blurt out whilst looking at my dinner plate. I slowly look upward and note the look of joy on his face.