Gravitation

Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. Maki Murakami does.

Angel Eyes Kiyone: Hi, everyone. Sorry about not putting a disclaimer on my other story. I don't have microsoft word on my computer so I couldn't go back and correct my error. So please don't sue me. It's been a few years since I last wrote a fanfic. So sorry if the last one wasn't so great. I hope you all enjoy this one. So please r&r. Enjoy!

It was irritating. Once again he had thrown the boy out of his apartment and into the cold Winter night. He didn't want to. He simply had no choice. Whatever big brother wants, big brother gets. He layed there on the couch after crying himself to sleep last night. His golden hazel eyes stared off into space; thinking of the one that pryed his way into his quiet life. They were complete opposites. Eiri "Yuki" Uesugi, due to a tragic past, was the strong, silent type. His "lover" on the other hand, was loud, energetic, and full of spirit. Eiri closed his eyes and tried to relax. He didn't want to remember what happened to make him throw his lover out the door. But his mind forced the images of the events foward.

Flashback

"Eiri," Seguchi said, "you only think he's making your life better. But he's not. He'll only bring you down in the end. Please do not make the same mistake twice."

"I won't," Eiri replied calmly, "I know what I'm doing, Seguchi."

"Do you," Seguchi said plainly, "because I don't think you do, Eiri. Think about it. If worse comes to worst, I'll be more than happy to step in and take care of the job for you."

"How," Eiri asked simply.

"Hm. I think you know by now what I am capable of, brother," Seguchi stated in a calm, yet evil voice.

Eiri said nothing. More than anything he wanted to strangle the man. But he stood his ground and let Seguchi finish.

"Just think about what I said," Seguchi continued. "The sooner he's out of your life, the better."

And with that, Tohma left the apartment. Eiri stood in the middle of the room is silence. He knew very well what Tohma Seguchi was capable of, especially when it came to him. He would do just about anything to protect his brother-in-law. But this was going too far. Eiri couldn't help but ask himself why. Why would Seguchi go so far as to kill someone for him? Eiri knew about his strange affect on people, but he didn't think it would be that serious. He had to protect his lover from Tohma's wrath or else he himself would regret it.

Five hours later...

"Yuki," came Shuichi's loud, energetic voice, "I'm home! Huh? Y-Yuki?"

Eiri stood in front of the boy with two suitecases sitting at his feet. He really didn't want to, but he had no choice. More than anything, he wanted Shuichi to stay with him. But right now he had to protect him.

"Huh? Y-Yuki," Shuichi said puzzled, "what's going on? Why are my suitcases out here? Are we going somewhere?"

"We are not going anywhere," Eiri replied bitterly, "You, on the other hand, need to get the hell out, now."

"Huh? B-but why, Yuki," Shuichi pleaded, "What did I do this time?"

"I hate you," Eiri stated bitterly. "You're just a waste of my time and energy. My life was peaceful until you barged in. And while you're at it, get your damn head out of the clouds. If you think for one minute that I have any sort of feelings for you, think again. You made me completely miserable. You make everyone around you miserable. Why don't you go dig a deep grave somewhere and burry yourself in it. We'll all be happy once you're gone. You're useless; a complete waste of sperm and egg. You're bad luck! No one loves you and no one ever will. No one wants to hear your loud ass mouth and no one wants to see your ugly ass face. So just die and leave us at peace."

Eiri's heart throbbed in pain with every evil and diabolical word he spoke. He just wanted to drop to his knees in front of the poor boy and hold him in his arms for eternity. He wanted to tell him he didn't mean any of that demonic rubbish he just spoke and kiss him repeatedly until he was forgiven. But he didn't. He stood his ground. Heart aching. Head throbbing. Soul crying. Shuichi looked up at him clutching his chest with trembling hands. His face was drentched with tears. He had been insulted many times by this man. But never ever like this. It was like someone ran him over with a semi truck and then shot him in the chest repeatedly with a magnum. What? What did he do to deserve such vile treatment from the ones he loved most? Why was he even born? The pain he now felt was excruciating. As painful as it was, he forced a smile on his face and looked at his beloved-no-more.

"Ok," Shuichi said sadly, "I'll go. I...I-I'm s-s-sorry that I m-made you s-s-so miserable. ... ... ...*sniff* S-so...I'll leave and... ... I'll never come back. But... th-thank you for everything that you've done for me. And thank y-you f-f-for allowing me to stay with you for so long...*sniff* I won't ever bother you again. I promise. *sniff* Goodbye. And thank you, Eiri Uesugi."

And with that, Shuichi grabbed his suitecases, slid his shoes back on, and walked out the door without looking back. Eiri stood in the middle of the room for a long while. His body started shaking violently. His knees buckled from underneathe him and he fell to the floor. He didn't care anymore if anyone saw him. He didn't stop the tears from flowing. Curling up into a ball on the floor, he let out a heart wrentching sob.

"Shuichi," Eiri whailed, "I'm s-so sorry, Shuichi. *sniff* Oh, God. *sniff* I'm so s-s-sorry, Baby. Ngh! Aaaaaahhhhhhh! Shuiiiichiii!"

End Flashback

Eiri was brought out of his trance when he heard a knock at the door. But without waiting for a response, the person entered anyways. Eiri sat up on the couch to see his younger brother, Tatsuha, waltz in the living room uninvitedly. He had a smile that reminded him of Shuichi plastered on his face. Eiri knew why it was there and it annoyed him to no end.

"What the hell do you want, Tatsuha," Eiri snapped, "I don't want to be bothered right now."

"Oh, I was just in the neighborhood," Tatsuha said playfully. "By the way, on my way here, I saw Shuichi and Hiro walking down the street. Shuichi looked depressed. Did you two have another fight?"

"What's it to you," Eiri said bitterly.

"Why can't you just be honest with him, bro," Tatsuha scolded. "You know how much he loves you. And it's pretty obvious that you love him too."

"It's complicated," Eiri said plainly. "So what did you come here to tell me? If it's not important then leave."

"Tsk. Father wants to know how you've been doing," Tatsuha continued. "It may not seem like it to you, but he is worried about you."

"Hah," Eiri laughed, "that old geezer's worried about me? Please. Don't make me laugh. You should have seen the way he looked at me when I brought Shuichi to the Temple. The bastard looked like he wanted to kill us both."

"You don't say," replied Tatsuha. "He had that same expression when I brought Ryu-chan home."

"Oh," Eiri said surprised.

"Yup," Tatsuha continued, "my point is I think he's more afraid of being abandoned by his own children more than anything. That's why he's having second thoughts."

"Is he now," Eiri said sarcastically, "I find that hard to believe."

"No, seriously," Tatsuha said. "That's why he asked me to come here and tell you that he would like to see you and Shuichi. That is if you want to. But seeing is that Shuichi is no longer he-"

"What," Eiri interupted his brother, "He wants to see me and Shuichi? You're not serious, are you?"

"Dead serious," Tatsuha said, "so what happened to you and Shuichi?"

"Like I said," Eiri sighed, "it's complicated." *looks away*

"This has something to do with Tohma, doesn't it," Tatsuha asked.

Eiri said nothing. He layed back down on the couch and stared up at the ceiling.

"Seriously, bro," Tatsuha snapped, "why the hell do you insist on letting him run your life? Last I checked you weren't sixteen anymore."

"Just forget about it, Tatsuha," Eiri ordered calmly, "it doesn't concern you."

"Like hell it doesn't," Tatsuha snapped. "I know I was only eight when that incident happened in New York, but I'm old enough now to know that just because you killed someone you cared about, doesn't mean you have to live the rest of your life locked up in solitude. Some people would consider what you did as self defense. Hell, I know I would!"

Eiri gasped in surprise. At the mention of self defense, countless emotions started to flood through Eiri. This reminded him of something Shuichi had said to him not to long ago.
Flashback

Shuichi and Eiri were laying on the couch watching a romance movie. The main character had just walked into a studio to find all of her friends gathered around a television screen and watching the news. Supposedly the man that the main character was involved with was killed in a car accident. The two had gotten into an arguement earlier and the main character had left him. Now here she was in the middle of the studio unnoticed while the others hoped to God that she wasn't with him when it happened. Relieved, yet shocked, everyone saw that she was fine, but devistated. At her concert she gave everyone in the audience a little piece of advice before she started singing. She told everyone to never take anyone they loved for granted. She mentioned that you'll never know when you might lose that person and you might never get another chance to tell them how you really feel. This brought tears to Shuichi's eyes. By the time the movie had finished, his shirt was covered in his own tears and snot. Disgusted as usual, Eiri helped him take it off. He wiped away the tears from Shuichi's face and pulled him into a straddle position on his lap. When the boy finally calmed down, Eiri coaxed him into telling him what was wrong.

"I admire her," Shuichi said with sadness in his voice. "The way she was able to look so s-strong in front of an entire audience when really she was going through so much pain." *sniff*

"Shuichi," Eiri said confused, "you realize that it's just a movie, right?"

"I know," Shuichi said, "but still. It just reminds me of...ngh...forget it."

"Of what," Eiri coaxed.

"You don't want to hear it, Yuki," Shuichi replied.

"Oh...that," Eiri said plainly. "Look, I told you, you don't need to worry yourself over that. I'm the one that went through it. I don't want to have to drag you through something like tha-"

"Yeah, but by yourself, Yuki," Shuichi interupted. "You can't tell me that it wasn't difficult for you to face that on your own! You can't tell me that you didn't feel abandoned and alone after going through an ordeal like that!"

"Stop," Eiri ordered, "Shui-"

"No," Shuichi protested.

"Look," Eiri sighed, "just let it go-"

"No, I won't let it go, Yuki," Shuichi yelled. "Noone deserves to go through an experience like that on their own! Not even you! You've always been there for me when I got into trouble with someone. So why won't you let me help you?! It wasn't your fault. You were...you were just defending yourself. Who knows where you'd be right now if you hadn't done what you did. I know I'd be nothing if I didn't have you."

"What, you mean your music career," Eiri chuckled. "Argh!"

Eiri felt the air leave his lungs as Shuichi's fist made impact with his stomache. He winced in slight pain.

"You know what I mean, damn it," Shuichi scolded. "God, Eiri, I love you! I don't ever want to lose you. Ever." *sniff*

Eiri was taken aback by this. The way Shuichi said his first name like that made him feel warm inside. Where would he be if he hadn't pulled the trigger and killed Kitazawa? Where would Shuichi be if he had never met Eiri in the park that fateful night? To think that the boy would get so worked up about his past just by watching some damned movie. Eiri made a note to himself to never watch that movie ever again. Feeling defeated, he put his arms around the boy's waist and held him closer.

"You're right," Eiri said calmly. "It was difficult going through it by myself. That's probably why Seguchi always kept me sheltered. To be honest, I'm still a little scared to face it with or without someone next to me."

"Yuki," Shuichi said, "just know that...when you are ready...I'll be right here with you."

"Hm. You're too good to me, you know that," Eiri teased.

"You deserve it," Shuichi chuckled. "You've been through enough. I love you, Yuki. You're the most precious thing in my life right now and I'm not ever giving you up."

"Sh-Shuichi."

End Flashback

"Bro," Tatsuha said trying to snap Eiri out of his trance, "you ok?"

"Shuichi."

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Angel Eyes Kiyone: Hey! So how do you like it so far? Wait until you read what happens next. That damned Eiri! I feel sorry for poor Shuichi. So if ya want me to update, review review review. Oh, and the movie that they were watching was called "Glitter" starring Mariah Carey. Until next time. Love yas!