P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You)

Disclaimer:
I own nothing! Harry Potter, Severus Snape, and Hedgwig the owl all belong to J.K. Rowling...Believe me, if I did own Harry Potter, things would be a lot different.

Rating:
K+ (PG-13)

Pairing:
Snarry

Genre:
Romance/Angst

10 February

Dear Harry,

I realize we haven't spoken in a while and you may be surprised to say the least to hear from me but, I've come to the realization that there's something you must know. I love you, Harry. I know what I said and I realize I can probably never take it back. Just like I know I can never make up for the way I've hurt you. I know you don't think I cared enough to notice, but I did. I loathed myself when I saw you with your friends and you were crying. I know Weasley and Granger have probably both given thoughts to my murder and-honestly-they would have only been doing the whole of the wizarding world a favor in doing so...I still can't bring myself to look myself in the mirror. Harry, I hurt you, I can't bear that thought. You didn't deserve to be treated that way. I don't deserve you...Well, you know me well enough to know there's another reason I'm writing you...And, you're right...Harry, I wanted to know if you thought you could give me another chance...Give us another chance. I know I don't deserve it and I can understand if you never wish to speak to me again-I'd deserve it! However, if you feel as though we can somehow mend all that's happened between us, write to me with your date of arrival. You'll know where to find me.

Harry, there's something else I wanted you to know. I wanted you to know I'm sorry. That the things I said to you that horrendous night were all lies. I was just scared. I've never actually loved anyone...At least no one other than you...You make me feel all these foreign feelings that-even to this day-I still cannot comprehend. I didn't know how to handle or if I even could. I know now that I was wrong to handle things the way I did. I was wrong to treat you the way I did. I shouldn't have thrown away all that we had together. You made me feel safe, protected...But, most importantly...You made me feel loved. I had never felt that feeling before I met you. I desperately need it back! Nothing has any meaning to it without you here with me. The castle is colder, the walls more unforgiving, our bed more empty...I'm nothing without you, Harry!

Please, Harry. If you do decide to give us another chance, don't do it for me. The last thing I want is to make you feel guilty! You've done nothing wrong, Harry! Only come back to me if you're certain that you're doing it for yourself, not for me! I would never force you into a realtionship you didn't want to be in! I could never do that to you! If you can honestly tell me you're happier without me, that's good enough. As long as I know you're happy, I'll be okay. I love you, Harry! All I've ever wanted was for you to be happy!


Yours always,
Severus

P.S.
No, Harry...I'm still not over you...