Before I left with Ron and Hermione to find Voldemort's Horcruxes, Ginny came and talked to me. She tried to get me to understand that Voldemort would no about us already thanks to Snape and Malfoy. She said they would've told him already and that there was no use. I ignored her and insisted that we stay broken up. Our talk blew up in to an argument where we bellowed in each other's faces. Ginny ran from the room crying and I just turned my back on her, like I did at the funeral. I left her.
I would say I'm sorry
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I've said too much
Been too unkind
I concentrate fully on finding and destroying the Horcruxes with Ron and Hermione. I don't let Ginny wander in to my thoughts. But once in a while, her face pops in to my head. I must get a pained expression, because Ron wanders what it is. I just joke with him telling him that I shouldn't have had a bet with him at breakfast on who could eat the most eggs. We laugh and it's forgotten.
I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
I think Ginny writes to Hermione and Ron. She certainly doesn't write to me. Not after our fight. I know she talks about me in some of her letters to them. Ron will sometimes give me a dirty look after reading a letter and Hermione will look torn between sympathetic and annoyed with me. I wish I could go back and avoid that fight, change time. But I can't do that now. Ginny will never want to speak to me again.
I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It's too late
And now there's nothing I can do
I try to find anything now that will take my mind off her. Ron and I practice jinxes or hexes Hermione has found whenever we have the chance. So we can be prepared against Death Eaters. Some of the jinxes are quite funny to see the effects of. But even after I've learned some new and useful spells, my mind seems to wander back to Ginny. The laughter goes away quickly if my thoughts wander to her and it's quickly replaced with tears. I hide them from Ron and Hermione.
So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
I honestly feel bad for the way I treated Ginny before I left. I do. But I left her for a reason: to protect her. She probably hates me now anyway. But I'm not shifting my position. I won't be the reason for her death.
I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away
I didn't know that she would get so upset. I didn't know she cared that much about me. I didn't know that's how much I cared about her. I still have the Horcruxes to find and Voldemort to kill. I can't go back to her yet.
Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more
I'm determined now. I'm going to block out Ginny from my mind. Until I destroy the Horcruxes and kill Lord Voldemort, she can't be a part of my life. For now, I have to say good-bye. No matter how hard it might be or how many tears I might shed because of it.
Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Boys don't cry