I wasn't much of a religious person. I was never a judgmental person either. So how did I end up passing judgment on everyone? It doesn't make since.
Every time someone evil comes near me they get hurt. I see them and I lose control. I make sure they suffer just like they're victims did. I make them wish they were dead. Then the time came that I couldn't stop myself from granting that wish. But I sense all the pain they've caused people and it's impossible for me to stop. I lose myself no matter where I am or who I'm with and I attack.
It's gotten better now. I'm fine as long as I stay from any big cities and I avoid eye contact with people but it isn't easy. The world's filled with so much evil and it isn't black and white like in the movies. In Snow White it was clear from the beginning that the step mother was an evil witch who couldn't do anything nice for anyone but herself. In the real world there's no clear black and white, good or evil. We all have a little bit of both in us.
That's why I was so relieved when I found a home after running away. The people who adopted me were clearly good, there was no doubt in my mind that I would be safe and so it was easy to let my guard down. But when they died I had to run away again because I couldn't be sure where I was safe and who was safe with me. So I ran.
Mystic falls seemed like a good place to run to. It seemed like a close nit town with good people and it wasn't a populated area. I thought it would be safe. But in a town like this it's easy to get in too deep. It's easy to let your guard down and let people in. But what do you do when you realize it's not safe and you had already let your guard down? What if it was too late and you were already in too deep?
When you meet people that make you care and break down your walls, wouldn't you do anything to protect them? Even if it means you have to protect them from yourself? I always gave myself rules to keep myself at a safe distance from people but it's not working here. And I need to figure things out before I lose everything and everyone that matters to me, including myself.