Summary: Remus Lupin had been head over heels for one Sirius Black for most of his life at Hogwarts. What started out as a miniscule crush in the 3rd year eventually grew into a heart-aching obsession. By the time his sixth year rolled around, he was lost, a goner, passionately, and ever so madly, in love. So what happens when the boy he's in love with is about to break his heart?

Desperate Love

Chapter One:

God, he's so gorgeous…just looking at him makes me almost want to swoon…Okay, odd thought, girls swoon, not guys. But then again, most guys don't usually fall for other guys, now do they? Let alone their best friend. But have I ever fallen hard, so hard that I might just breakfrom the sheer force of my fall…Remus Lupin gazed at the slumped (and drooling) figure of his best friend. Sirius was asleep, in History of Magic, once again.

His ebony locks messily spilled over his eyes. Remus let out a soft sigh, wondering what it'd feel like to runs his fingers through that luscious black hair… Remus lost himself in his thoughts of Sirius, and what he'd oh-so-love to do to him…

Next to Remus, on the right, James fiddled with his quill, mussing up the smooth ripples of the feather, making them stand on end. Bored numb would be the term for James at the moment, he was so thoroughly and excruciatingly bored, that he was incapable of feeling anything at all. Hell, his toes even felt numb!

Hearing Remus sigh, (which he usually wouldn't have noticed,but given his present state...) he glanced over at his fellow marauder, who seemed to be lost in his own little world. James couldn't help but wonder what was going through that boy's mind at the moment. For Moony, unaware of his actions, was licking his lips repeatedly, slightly nibbling on his bottom one, and staring into space with a slightly feral look in his eyes…

James stared in fascination; with nothing else to do (besides listening to Binns's droning) this was a rather fascinating occurrence. Usually Lupin would be jotting down notes on Professor Binns's lecture, not much mind you, but something at least. James glanced at Remus's parchment, it was blank. Interesting, well not that interesting, but somewhat.

This was just another incident to be added to the list of oddities concerning Moony of late. For he had been acting kind of strange. And this strange was beyond the usual weirdness surrounding Moony. It was as if something in him was slowly changing, or like a new side of his personality was emerging. It was odd, not particularly noticeable, or all that horrible, but slightly disturbing. For over all the years he'd known Moony, Remus had been the group's rock, the core stability of them all. And well, if he was changing, then that could mean that the rest of them might also. And frankly, that thought scared the hell out of him.

Change was all well and good, but only to a certain extent. If they were to change, that would mean that they were moving on. And generally, when someone moves on, they leave something behind. Leave a part of themselves, a part of their…lives behind. That would, to some degree, make their previous selves into memories. Heck, maybe he was being paranoid, or being a little too philosophical. The things boredom can make you think of, it was absolutely insane… Actual depth is a fairly new concept to James apparently…)

Author's Note: Whoopty-dee! That was pretty short! T'was it not? I was going to write more, but I wasn't so very sure if you guys would like it. I do try though. Maybe one of you ficlety-readers has recognized my genius! Eh? Eh?…Sorry, it's 3:30 in the morning and I have been awake for about, let's see, 19 hours to be exact. So I beg your forgiveness for my oddness (Heh-heh! That rhymed!…sort of...) Well I'll ask of you dear readers is to please review out of the kindness of your hearts! Drop me a note, or a line, whatever! Toodles for now!